You had me looking foolish right in front of my enemies. All embarrassed feeling small, once again. Say you never lie but speak half truths all the **** time. I can't act unbroken anymore, fixing me is gonna take a lot. The pieces of my soul busted right out, left it all way ****** up, unfix is all I am. All you ever wanted was who I pretended to be. You stayed within my heart every minute, of every hour. For days you had me in maze, with no map to you're love. How you gonna make me bleed inside my mind and **** it up at the same time. I'm just a robot with missing parts to you. Use me up until I'm dry. It all makes sense now I was never supposed to last, you were gonna set my candle on fire until I burn out.
Unrealistic to think all men stay in love, baby girl ain't you too old to believe in fairytales. Love was never meant to fulfill you. You never a rose just a candle in the wind like princess Diana, you will die young.
The other side of regret looks like you these days,get you're act together. You still have the memories of happy days locked, deep inside the actor you fell for. Dig it up when you no longer compare ever girl, you sleep with that isn't me lover boy. It's funny how some boys never turn into men, just fakers a and actors. Right before my kiss you hide all the good things about you from me. Because I no longer fill ever whim you have, I can't care about you anymore. I have completed loss all sense of who I was. Lost in your garden of eden and I let you take my apple that was never meant for Adam just Eve. I was never Eve in you're ey
Storyline just another reminder of quick ****
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 7:25 AM UTC
Some nerve you have, are you a ******* actor all of a sudden?
You almost had all of my heart
My doors were open to your pointview
Let you colour outside the lines
Showed you a whole new normal
I don't catching feelings. I get gone no time wasted on the stupid
I'm so mad at myself, I'm not used to this. I'm so used to men ******* with me just for my outer surface not my true worth. I grew up thinking I'm a queen like men don't face me....
..being the life of the party..a star in the dead of the winter
Having fun and dancing my pain away..
I'm not use to men staying for my personality or my thoughts
I believed every single act of kindness...and it was a ******* show fake love at the hightest level
Sep 21, 2017
Sep 21, 2017 at 4:08 AM UTC
I can’t do this anymore
I want to run away before the race even starts
Why are you trying to change me before you get to know the real me
its like you and I don't speak the same language anymore
I'm losing myself piece by piece and its driving me crazy
I’m hiding my true self because you can’t handle all of me
The rushing to commit before I’m ready is pushing me away
I’m slipping between your finger tips and soon I’ll disappear
I keep trying tell you it’s over.. I’m done
But you can’t or won’t understand
It’s not working.. it’s too hard too fast too much work
I feel so guilty stressing out pretending and lying
You are trying to play house and dress me up to fit in your life
I’m such a good lair and I feel so shamed
It’s better to end this well we still have some dignity....
2017/2-12-22
Rewind And **** it all
i hate you love shit is like my backpack
no need to cry no tears no water
you keep the park not the ivy paert
i was big red you lie when you speak
im not glad but im not just mad
you ****** with an ugly heart
you went on a lion sleeping
no leap no tea no ******* frogs
i hate that you loved raw no glove
i said takecare no longer
useful no water no sun
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 1:06 PM UTC
He
Its like she give my heart an incision wit no precision n trip. I swear this girl be trippin wit no permission slip
She
He has me falling all over myself just one look and i can barely control myself ,, why is he speaking about permission when all this was written long ago
HE
It might have been written long ago in the history books. But now she sittin in a page of my mystery books. i guess kanye was right and it all falls down. Cuz she fell off the Smoove throne but i aint take away the crown
She
Now its war...why is he lying, it was he who had me crying and now i'm so over caring, you can have your fake crown and feel like a man...i just want my heart back before the hole in it gets any bigger,, this heart used to beat, it used to sing such a beautiful song but now it screams ****** and boy did you do the crime
HE
Fake crown or not you were my queen. I bowed down to your love cuz it was stronger than me. I would have given up kingdomes and gold for just one kiss. Leavin you would be suicide like skitting my wrist. But now you left me and i hate you but its u i always miss. But now the beat of my heart is elongated. But what ever happened no we gon make it. You got me cut so deep no knife no sword. Took my heart like kanye took taylors award. You said You'd **** for me thats how bad you wanna ride. But you end up killin me without a homicide
She
I guess my love was too much for your fragile heart to handle because you give up so quick kanye didn't even have a chance, i wish we had a fight or if someone else in the picture cause then i could understand why you stabbed me in the back when i was to busy only looking at you, its alright i'm okay finally sick of all your many changing faces, your true colors are out for me, now i never want to see you again, these lips you can never taste again, i'm done with this hating myself for something that's in the past, its funny now that i'm gone you keep saying i'm the who took your heart away when i never really had to begin with maybe beyonce has it now i don't care cause all this is so yesterday
He
You say its so yesterday. But why do i see myself hurtin till tomorrow. The pain and the sorrow. I gave you ma heart and you threw it back like it was it was somethin to borrow. Funny i didn't i looked a library. I wasn't obsessed wit you aint maria carey. you say i gave my heart to beyonce but your irreplaceable. You can only love once i thought you were misplaceable. But now your lost like the tv show and untraceable. Everything wit you made sense but now im so illogical, our love was higher than any level we was astronomical. I was deep inside you spiritual biological. Deeper than your follicle. There will never be another no sequel no chronical. At least your hearts beatin. Mine wont stop bleedin. Without you i'm like asthma. No breathin. How am i supposed to survive. Plz come back to me i wanna stay alive. For your lovin i thrive. Your sweet and beautiful like a bee hive. so please come back i deserve a second chance. And i promise the level our love will enhance
She
But you don't see that this over for me i can't keep throwing myself at your feet begging you to catch me, i'm like a fish out of water i can't survive in your world, when i think back on how good we use to be i literally shake, the way i used to melt whenever i hear your name, the way my knees used to go weak, how i used to see the sun,stars and the moon in your eyes,you were a monster on my back, a drug i couldn't turn down, an addiction that rotted my soul but..now all that keeps playing in my head like motion picture,everything we've been through and everything about you seemed to a big lie, a lie you made yourself see true, where the hell was i when you loved me like you say you do, i only remember all those broken promises, all those times you chose your career over me, when all you cared about was the money, the cars, the clothes and the hoe's, i suppose you want me to believe you once again, wait for your calls again like a silly lost pigeon but i won't cause i can't..not anymore
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 12:44 PM UTC
Hush my baby, don't you cry
don't let a teardrop fall for that ***
that she who broke you down
that ***** who made you hate love
that she devil that shot you with a load gun full of hate
Yeah, I know she hurt you, almost **** near killed you
But don't let that end you before i can heal you
I'm right here waiting
With open an heart and arms that never close
I know you feel shattered all over
there's not a place that witch didn't damage
But my love can cure any evil spell
So consider me everything she could never be
the answer to all your questions
i can feel that little piece of magic still beating in your heart and its screaming out for me
so let me in, how long do you think i can bang on the walls around your heart before you let them fall
let my love be the medicine you need, let my touch awaken you once again
i can fix what's broken, your love was meant for me anyway
you see its gonna be different with me
cause this love is speical like a sunset that fades into a star
something no one in the history of world ever felt
it's about time you let all your old slef disintegrate and embrace this love
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 12:43 PM UTC
I remember those nights when I used to laugh,
Find amusement in childish things,
Had a smile so beautiful it made people cry in jealousy,
I didn't just walk away... I flew by everyday misery
I had wings that could glow in the harsh light...
I had voice so sweet men used to fall down to there knees and pray I would never leave...
NOW all that is gone like the famous wind
Holding onto memories turns me bitter like an old rusty car machine; no heart where the ignition is supposed to lay, no wheels spinning in my mind -they called me damages goods -a rotten apple with a muddled soul that's all I am now...
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 12:39 PM UTC
You ripped out my heart and now all I am is a shell
Empty of feelings
Emotionless
My eyes turn gray, my sky filled with rain
You’re killing me softly, tearing me apart and I can’t stand it
So broken and worst of all my pieces are uneven
I know you can’t love what’s killing you but why do I still want too
I wish you could have been stronger, kept this love cool
Instead of lighting us on fire
I take nothing but the memories
You leave nothing but the pictures
And all that equals are the footprints
There are some things you can never take away
Something things time can’t heal
You lied when you said you love me
You shot me down with a load gun when you walked away
Since you been gone every moment has been spent fighting back tears
Why let the tears flow when you’re not here to see them fall
Please someone press rewind or fast forward .i want the beginning or the ending, I don't want to sit through this song.
They say real love stories never have happy endings because real love stories never end.
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC
Hoping that you just might know better
Feels like hoping for nothing..almost like waiting for rain in middle of a drought
A thousand clever tricks all up rolled into one BIG lie
You mind ****** the reality out of me
True colors left unseen...Soul drained after all these years wasted
Living in make believe land Was where I was found
With flowers pushed slowly down my throat
Lies crawled up to the pits of my stomach, tightening every muscle along its path
Why was my love unread?
I never asked because I was played
You had me for a fool you sick son of *****
Finally enough of you was enough for me to walk away
And the bullet in your heart was just a little goodbye gift
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 12:35 PM UTC
Who knew what loves you most
breaks you so hard
Shatters you to a million pieces
and when you realize
just how much they mean
even the tiny fragments
aren't enough to love them back
For what they did
For who they are
For how they made you feel
For making your memories
so painstakingly painful
For every moment
Because you can’t keep your eyes closed forever
when you hide everything
Bottled it up
Threw it all away
into the ocean
Who knew the ocean ran in rips and currents
What flows out flows back in
what goes up must come back down
When something like this hurts its hard to fight back........
Sep 17, 2015
Sep 17, 2015 at 7:36 PM UTC
I found my life in the midnight hour, and the air tasted like my dreams
Totally and completely destroyed the old me, who used to be so afraid
I fell in love as I studied every angle of his perfect face, I knew every curve of his smile
He stole my identity, and changed every part of me
The thirst I felt for him was endless, like water in the desert he left me barren
An unprotected heart is dangerous for a thief in the heat of the darkness
He gave me life and all he required was my soul, everything that made me
Stole all that made me special, buries my mind until I all I saw was him
Too soon my eyes turned into emptiness, deep inside me I was all his
Every inch of my body was left untouched by his fingertips, stained
All he had to do was never leave me, just stay and I would have been fine
Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 2:19 AM UTC