bahkan malamnya ramai ketika hanya berdua,
tapi setelahnya lebih ramai saat seorang diri.
sekarang apa?
bagaimana dirinya bisa pintar menipu?
yang harusnya diceritakan, malah didekap sampai menyesakkan
ah sudahlah
hidupnya memang dipenuhi kebrengsekan
Feb 3, 2025
Feb 3, 2025 at 9:07 AM UTC
remedies is not only for something we can't pass
remedies is for everything that has broken
or just to re-new something
-
she learns something from her life, everyday
but she never had a chance to write those down
it's not a scam when she said her favorite things to do are reading & writing or writing & reading
reading a poem or her self-diary
writing a poem or a self-diary
she doesn't know if is a gifts
or just a hobby
because everytime she finished wrote all her poems, she re-read it, and she thought all eyes those read her words can write it too (with their own version(s))
in this, not-so, new day(s)
herself will embarks to write all the tales where she's involved in
as long as she living her life
this era is the lowest point in her life
she doesn't know if it actually is, or it's just she made it all low
she can't even say a word to herself
she can't even write what's in her head
she can't even tell anyone when she really needs a person to talk
all are just mixed up in her little head
she doesn't know if it is something like "manifesting" or what
all she knows that she can't figure it out yet
is it something related to science? like human mind?
is it something related to religions? like human relations with The Creator?
but one from many answers for the solutions (based on her own researches) is self-improvement
she is pretty sure that is something wrong inside herself
something to be fixed
something that needs remedy
but her body & mind are not so sure what is that (or what are those)
her body & mind are still figuring out
it's not finished yet
it is still figuring how it needs to be stopped
it is still progressing
'it' is this story, her story, my story
..
Jan 9, 2023
Jan 9, 2023 at 7:20 AM UTC
when stars start shining
moon starts smiling
sun starts sleeping
somebody starts their life
bushes greener
flowers bloom
fireflies sparkling
somebody grows
skies getting blue
earth goes round
wind blows away
somebody left
(...)
Oct 13, 2022
Oct 13, 2022 at 3:48 AM UTC
kepala berkecamuk
menumpahkan isinya
tumpah ke dalam ruang di sekitarnya
tak pernah benar-benar terbebas
sehelai demi sehelai terajut
semakin semrawut hingga kusut
mencoba diselesaikan
tak pernah benar-benar selesai
akhirnya terbaring dalam kalut
terbangun karena kusut
benar-benar tak pernah lucut
bagaimana bisa kepala ini
menampung lebih banyak dari apa yang terlihat
membawa lebih berat dari massaa badannya
Oct 4, 2022
Oct 4, 2022 at 1:47 AM UTC
don't chase
don't find
don't hope
maybe true
or in other word is an ugly truth
when you're trying to chase, it will run
when you're trying to find, it will lost
and when you're trying to hope, it will change
but,
just be true & have faith
Sep 8, 2022
Sep 8, 2022 at 6:42 AM UTC
today is my birthday.
the day i was born.
the day my faith was just started.
today,
i got a new number.
i got a plus one for my age.
nothing different.
it's just an ordinary day like usual.
but at the start of the day, i got surprises from my beloved people.
i am so grateful, for everything, today (and the other days).
i spent my time with my person & had much fun.
but you know what,
once i entered my room, the feelings changed.
i put my things to its own place,
i changed my clothes, the feelings got worse.
i laid my body on the bed,
and BAM
my tears broke.
it just broke
my feelings reduced me to tears with its own "things"
one thing..
i don't usually feel blue on my bday
but today,
i can't even validate my feelings.
everything just messed up the moment i laid my body, or should i keep walking?
is it my fault to gave my body a rest?
i shouldn't be stop, right?
the head keep talking.
and my heart sinks.
Sep 7, 2022
Sep 7, 2022 at 4:08 AM UTC
unexpected love was came
my heart's breaks a little
unexpected love was came
i drowned
he said he loves me,
i said it too
he said i'm not beauty,
i started to believe him
he said trusting each other is the key,
i quiet
how to trust when he doesn't give
me a trust?
he said his heart is mine,
i sigh
how could he said that when i
saw he enjoyed with other girls?
he said he never feels ilfeel with me,
i cry,
a lot
how fool i am never trusts him
i estranged with my self
ashame
Oct 4, 2019
Oct 4, 2019 at 12:16 AM UTC
when with you,
trouble seem to melt away
i do not know what its called
is it puppy love?
a true love?
or worst, only a dream?
that i know..
it took a long time,
to complete my algebra assignment
it took a long time,
to get out of my bed in the morning
it took a long time,
to mix and match the clothes I would wear
nevertheless,
it just a second,
to knows that I'm start to lovin' you
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 5:50 AM UTC
Me and my coffee
Coffee is part of me,
and me is part of my coffee.
Coffee brings me to joy
Me brings my coffee to my phantasy,
and we're related each other.
Me and my coffee,
we have our own world;
we have our own happiness;
and,
me and my coffee,
is one of the best couple.
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 7:12 AM UTC