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I sit to write what is to be my first novel,
and the cursor blinks at me.
I stare at the white screen as it glares back,
daring me to perform,
daring me to begin,
One strike against a key
one letter
one word..
a sentence perhaps,..
... a paragraph
or two...
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moments later
the cursor persists
determined
from deep within the white canvas screen..
Taunting me
Which of us is truly empty, it implies..
You or I?
Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 7:26 PM UTC
‘It is not the pain, but the hope, that hurts‘,
I insisted, thinking I was wise;
as he plucked two twinkling stars from the sky
and placed them in my eyes
My head upon his shoulder lain
he carried me to my resting hour,
climbing the tresses of Ferdowsi’s Rudāba
he freed me from the imprisoning tower
‘We’ve seen each other’s scars‘, he said
our imperfections seem so perfect’
As I gaze into his fathomless eyes
my heart, in soothing undulation, swept
Carried away on an emerald ocean
within the cadence of my wanting,
‘the deeper you dive, the less violent the waves‘,
I immerse, the current no longer daunting
First buds break through winter’s frost
ushering the blessed re-birth of spring,
his kiss, a flame, melts the ice in my soul
re-awakening my heart to blossoming.
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 1:26 PM UTC
I miss him
he was the poet in my poetry
the leaves of my poet tree;
and now this winter is so barren.
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I miss him
like the flowers miss the springtime
like the nightingale misses its song;
and this silence is a deafening cacophony.
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I miss him
and I long to hear the nightingale sing
rather than recall it from memory..
before it becomes an unfamiliar fragrance
in my garden.
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I miss him.
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
Time and time again
life will prove to you how fragile and rare is Trust,
and how valuable when found.
It will prove to you
that many people will disappoint you
and hurt you;
and how important it is to hold on to those that don’t;
how important it is to hold on
to those who can taste your tears through the kisses,
and then kiss them away.
It will reveal to you
that there is nowhere to go to escape from heartache,
that it will hurt deeper and stronger each time;
even though, each time,
you thought you had mastered the pain.
But pain is not meant to be mastered
— it is meant to conquer ‘you’,
--- it is meant to reveal you.
Life will manifest to you
that heartbreak is a lesson we must learn,
and that its only teachers are those we have loved.
It will show you
that sometimes
it takes a smack in the face with a boulder
to finally see things as they truly are;
and we realize we can lie to ourselves for only so long.
Life will prove to you
that sadness is only one of two wings;
and that we need both wings to fly.
That at the end,
and in the end,
there is only God and you…
…and that is sufficient.
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 12:37 AM UTC
I think I loved you most the winter your heating was broken
And we’d stay inside all morning
Pretending to complain that we couldn’t get out of bed
Our clothes becoming little islands on the floor,
Ones that we could not quite find the courage to visit
Your hand stayed glued to my hip,
Your breath warming my shoulder
Like a long drag of whiskey
That kind that had a home so far away,
In a glass bottle on top of your refrigerator.
The one that would not be opened
Until that fateful day in February,
When everything went wrong
And on that unbearable night
When you joked that you’d freeze to death if I left you
There was a long silence
Like it might be true.
Now it’s warm enough
That I show too much skin when sitting in bars
And you avoid me like the plague,
Whispering in any girl’s ear that’s near to you
Every time you see me watching out of the corner of your eye
We should have stayed inside when the ice began to melt
Because I think
When those doors opened and we finally ventured outside
The world had changed,
And so had you and I.
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 2:53 PM UTC
A girl once wandered along a field of flowers, feet bare
Carefree and unafraid of what she might encounter there
She knew the thorns she removed from her staunch heart
were the launching point, from the point of depart
With the promises that come with the freedom of wings
that portend magical Hope and other beautiful things.
She stopped in the midst of flowers abounding
held out her arms to soak in the sun’s rays astounding
Her head raised high, her eyes serenely closed
no more tranquil an image could have been posed.
♥
Soon thereafter, a feather from the heavens fell
suddenly appearing, as if cast from a spell
It gently danced and glided, sought out her hand
as if searching for a place to land
A feather of the most vibrant hues
like the flowers; reds, yellows, greens and blues.
No sooner had the feather ended its flight
there followed a most ethereal sight .
It was the most exquisite bird,
and suddenly,
something within the girl’s staunch heart stirred.
♥
On her outstretched hand, the bird gracefully landed,
peered into her soul, her attention it commanded.
Resplendent and fine, its feathers in all those dazzling hues
like the flowers; reds, yellows, greens and blues.
She could not help but caress those fine feathers,
as she stood amidst the irises and the heathers.
The bird sang a melody so sanguine and so sweet
only briefly it lingered in sorrow,
a song reminiscent of times long past,
and a subtle promise of tomorrow.
♥
As the bird then moved to the palm of her hand
its beauty, a stunning mesmerization;
the awareness that it may soon fly away
was a sudden and terrifying realization.
She held it with care, grateful for each moment
treasuring each offering like a gift from a lover
Is your heart here to stay, she wanted to ask,
or does it belong to another?
You are not from this place, she thought to herself
You belong in paradise, your heavenly abode
Are you visiting, dear wanderer? Or lost, searching for home?
Still pursuing a path along your designated road?
How easy it would be to close that hand
hold the exquisite bird there forever..
It would sing to her every day,
A bond that would not sever.
But love is not of a forced possession
In her being, this she knew.
That vibrant light would surely dim
There would be no more vibrant hue
♥
And so she wandered on in the field of flowers,
towards the blazing horizon of the dusking sky.
The majestic bird perched upon her open hand
as it sang the songs of days gone by.
Fear remains, along with many thoughts awoken
they set behind the fiery orange-crimson sun,
they hide behind fragile promises spoken,
and gold-gilded intentions begun.
Twilight descends, infused with the disquiet dark brings
accentuated by the stillness of night..
‘but the morning brings strength to her restless wings*’
and Hope, emerges with the Light.
Jan 23, 2015
Jan 23, 2015 at 9:53 AM UTC
Reluctant traveler on a dusty road
on a path not of his choosing..
As he struggles with his load,
he wonders what he is losing.
Feet blistered from the harrowing walk
face weathered from the sun
his hands, they bleed
his throat is parched,
yet water does little for the need.
He convinces himself it is for the best
And accepts it in his mind.
But his heart is hesitant to catch up to his head
afraid there, of what it might find.
Reluctant traveler on the choppy seas
distance has not been smooth sailing..
His conflicted soul he tries to appease,
and he wonders if he is failing.
Steadily he moves, still looking back to the shore
of the ocean inside his mind.
Meanwhile, waiting at his horizon’s door,
is what he had prayed to find.
She waits for him inside his eyes
so deep he cannot see her
behind the lens where truth resides,
she waits for him to free her.
But on his boat he drifts along
carried by the current’s roll,
still looking back, he misses the beacon song
from the lighthouse of her soul.
And so she waits
resting deep,
deep within the ocean of his eyes.
As off he drifts,
drifts to sleep
while the emerald currents reflect the skies.
Their paths, though seemingly guided
may never come parallel;
And kismet conspired with the stars and collided
but only time can tell…
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 10:31 AM UTC
we live and grow
and breathe
through scars ~
but heartache is not a metaphor..
Jan 16, 2015
Jan 16, 2015 at 10:59 AM UTC