i came into this world unloved and an addict
that is the same way i have lived,
and i fear that is the same way i am leaving it.
Mar 7, 2022
Mar 7, 2022 at 7:38 AM UTC
but honey hurts my teeth
beloved of cavities
and i am alone
please won't you come for me?
Sep 24, 2021
Sep 24, 2021 at 12:42 AM UTC
i've left all my letters in a pile on the floor
i'm praying to a god who's never answered me before
i'm re reading the messages, i'm digging through my phone
maybe if i'd stayed abused then i'd be less alone
Sep 18, 2021
Sep 18, 2021 at 3:13 AM UTC
I asked my grandparents to pray for me last night
I've never felt religious before
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 10:46 PM UTC
Maybe I wasn't here to make something wonderful
Maybe I will just inspire it before I lose my already slipping grasp
I dipped my toe into religion
Maybe this'll give me a little longer to last
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 10:38 PM UTC
put in your all
is something i am afraid to do
i am afraid of losing pieces of myself in you
i am more afraid, however,
that i will be wrong
is it possible that i can keep up a character this long?
Sep 8, 2021
Sep 8, 2021 at 8:37 AM UTC
i am afraid that everything i ever do will
come across as goodbye,
when the world finally catches up to me
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 10:32 PM UTC
i found an old journal from when i was a kid
all of the pictures of my dad were an angry face
and all of the pictures of my mom were her ignoring us
i did not have a good day
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 10:26 PM UTC
i am too afraid to die so i tempt it every day
maybe the thrill will finally take my breath away
i am so outwardly damaged
to know me is in itself a guilt trip
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 10:24 PM UTC
today I for the very first time learned the difference between worry and fear.
i didn't recognize worry, putting fear for my safety in it's place because worry is something i never recieved
but worry is less like fear and more like awkward silence, that you desperately want gone
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 10:19 PM UTC