Slowly, without warning
You had dug a hole underneath me
And I was too busy,
too preoccupied, trying to love you
To notice how low
I had really gotten
Looking up,
seeing the distance to where I once stood
I reached up to you,
thinking you would pull me out
But you just walked away.
Leaving me stranded
All alone
And it took me quite some time
To crawl my way up
And you watched as I struggled
As I used every ounce of what you left of me
To try and scratch my way back to the light
Never thinking I would muster the strength
To finally reach the top
As I was inches away
My struggle almost over
Then you came back
Making sure to push me back down
To where you had left me.
My fight is not over,
I will reach where I once stood.
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 1:57 AM UTC
365 days
You’ve been in my life
One full orbit
365 rotations
Around the sun
Which is ironic
Because like the Earth
We’re right back
Where we started
Oct 28, 2020
Oct 28, 2020 at 3:54 AM UTC
As we stumble around
Bodies pressed together
I was baptized in your name
Covered in your sweat,
Like I was doused in holy water
Nibbling your flesh like wafers
Your saliva on my tongue
Reminding me of communion wine
But everything about you
Taste much sweeter
This is our sacred act
Our own religion
Feb 17, 2020
Feb 17, 2020 at 12:44 AM UTC
Concern for
My ever breakable heart
A fear that I will
Be buried underneath
The pain that this will
Inevitably cause me
My heart has been
Through so much
There are parts missing
Lacerations and bruises
I don’t know how much more
It can take
But you pull me in
Making me think
Maybe
I can survive
One more heart
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 12:11 AM UTC
I promised you
That I wouldn’t leave
I would stay
Right here
Beside you
But I didn’t realize
How hard it would be
And I don’t know if
That’s a promise
I can keep
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 11:19 PM UTC
I go outside
Every time it storms
Hoping that the rain
Will wash you
Out of my bones
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 12:01 AM UTC
Growing up
We’re told that
We should
Watch our drinks at parties
Not go out alone
Carry pepper spray
Don’t talk to strangers on the street
But no one ever warns you
About the boy with the brown eyes
Who tells you
“You’re pretty”
Who takes you on your first
Real dates
No one warns you
About the boys
Who try to impress you
The ones
Who steal your heart
And make it flutter
Those are the boys
Who you should be careful about
They know their intentions
As well as you do
I don’t remember much
About that night
It was filled with cheap alcohol
And the smell of the fire
I do remember
Telling you "No":
That no matter how much I drank
I didn’t want
What came
Later that night
I woke up the next morning
Feeling regret and blaming myself
I cried to my friends
As I did my makeup in front of the mirror
You took something from me
That I can never get back
But I didn’t talk about it
For quite some time
Because I thought
It was my fault
But as I grew
I realized
What you actually did
Now I do not blame myself
I only blame you
Apr 13, 2019
Apr 13, 2019 at 12:55 AM UTC
Being with you
Was a trance
Your presence felt electric
Our relationship;
A dance floor
We would twist and turn
Gliding our feet
Me trying to mirror
Your every move
But I could never keep up
My steps were always
One beat off
Never matching
The ones you took
Soon enough, I feel behind
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 11:16 PM UTC
I feel like I am walking on a tightrope
Gently balancing myself
On the thin line
Between trying too hard
And letting go
I sway to one side
More often than the other
And I am finding it difficult
To regain my balance
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 9:35 PM UTC
You bit my bottom lip
When we kissed
And you drove me wild
I can’t decipher
If it was the pain
Or pleasure
That got to me
Whatever it was
I never want you to stop
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 11:36 PM UTC