You fix in me what is broken
What was stolen by those I trusted
What was lost at the rapist's hand
A hand that was his ****
A pain so carefully hidden and nurtured that I thought the pain was me.
You let me use your eyes and then I could finally see.
I wasn't to blame. I wasn't insane.
It wasn't a bad dream or a fantasy gone astray.
It was **** That's the totality of what was done.
No softer word, no kinder thought.
They ***** me. For a time I thought it was my fault.
I drifted. Lost without a tether.
Through the darkest space and deepest valleys.
Sometimes I would chance upon a stream and see my reflection.
The boy who caused it, who deserved it, who must have liked it.
Otherwise why would they have done it? Again and again
And again and again and again again again again.
No fun to read, but try having lived it.
Sometimes I would find someone to cling to.
But I couldn't explain and they couldn't understand
Because I didn't understand. So they left.
And alone I would wonder, untethered.
My soul hiding, curled in a ball. Afraid of everyone
Especially those I loved. The ones who ***** me
The ones who didn't stop it.
Broken. Broken as a child. Broken as a boy.
Broken as a man. So broken I couldn't be a man.
Locked in pain. Locked in fear. With my broken pieces.
But you.
You fix what is broken inside me.
Mar 30, 2016
Mar 30, 2016 at 2:05 PM UTC
Were I now, like you in heaven,
In estranging me, you escape in agony
To the deepest bottom of a cavern,
Wheresoever you are, with you,
Mylove shall take a plunge too.
Since I hardly find a way, let us hug and part
I can’t let you have more of me, no more…
I’m done, ‘m glad with all my heart
Oh such easily, I can free, free me of all dirt.
At the last gasp of love’s latest breath,
Trust, ashamed, kneeling by its bed of death,
Friendly lies being brought into,
Tear drops proving, they love the lashes too.
I woke up in a pool of sweat,
‘Nightmare!’; ‘Reality’, for that to happen,
Do you think I will ever let?
And hey, do you think, you play it fair?
You had myheart, thrice to tear!
I wonder what eyes, love put in my head,
They can image nothing beyond you,
Only if I knew where my judgement fled…
I swear, I would have never let go of you.
Oh I remember it was the tears,
That hid the marvel in you,
Leaving me with destiny and fears.
I don’t fear a loss now,
Untrue love, Untrue love, Untrue love;
Your mind is light, soon lost for new love,
I know such evilness doesn’t brew in you!
I was the one who leapt, across the night
You were right there, even when I wept.
I won’t let unease topple me,
With you not near; Have had enough
Of toiling, with you sarcastic afar!
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 12:49 PM UTC
Aren’t you quite like the rainy day?
That very day, with enormous clouds at bay;
Too lazy were they, to waft past,
However, I ne’er wished to lose them fast
Oops, don’t you hate the drizzle and puddles?
Swear I, they won’t ever pose you as hurdles!
I can’t let the chauffeur drive you,
To the wintry den, across autumn’s gate…
For, you are more lovely and more temperate.
And let alone summer, all hell will break lose,
If that’s what you plan to choose!
If I were seeded as lowly as the plain,
You seated much above, in the heaven
Yet should the thoughts of me
Against all odds, ascend to heaven
In honour of my love, to tie the cords!
Jan 18, 2016
Jan 18, 2016 at 12:45 PM UTC
Embracing the power of thoughts,
Believing in the power of dreams,
Having ink as a way of release,
Yearning to put all feelings on paper,
Getting satisfaction from your written words,
And excited by new words.
Writing it all without fear of being "judged",
Writing because you can,
Writing because you should,
Writing because you must.
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 3:00 AM UTC
*She had eyes of intrigue,
Utterly, she waved the wind thick,
Somehow an orphan pollen,
Mastered the wave nd flew,
Intended to ensemble the crew.
That it will get stuck in her ring finger...
And never go off, no one knew!*
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 2:36 AM UTC
She listened to him with rapt attention.
Worried, he awaited a reply.
"Well written!",she said.
His face dimmed, faking a smile.
Building life together is tougher, he understood!
But why not scribble a few more shots?
Jan 8, 2016
Jan 8, 2016 at 1:45 PM UTC
Etch my name, in thy heart, dear
Caressing in quiet love !
The melody overflowing mine,
Attune your anklets in its rhythm, fine.
Encage my humming bird,
With love and care, in your
Castle’s courtyard.
Don’t forget to tie my band,
To your bangles of gold.
Honour a place in you hairdo
A forgotten flower from my vine.
A shy mark of pious vermilion,
Let, in my memory, add,
To the elegance of your hairline.
Adorn the delights of my mind
With your fragrance.
****** my avid life and death,
In your perfectly magnificent stance!
Jan 6, 2016
Jan 6, 2016 at 9:31 AM UTC
Etch my name, in thy heart, dear
Caressing in quiet love !
The melody overflowing mine,
Attune your anklets in its rhythm, fine.
Encage my humming bird,
With love and care, in your
Castle’s courtyard.
Don’t forget to tie my band,
To your bangles of gold.
Honour a place in you hairdo
A forgotten flower from my vine.
A shy mark of pious vermilion,
Let, in my memory, add,
To the elegance of your hairline.
Adorn the delights of my mind
With your fragrance.
****** my avid life and death,
In your perfectly magnificent stance!
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 12:02 AM UTC
I follow your eyes,
As a traveler follows his compass;
Cruising through the tides
Searching for the enormous.
He began the journey,
Thanks to his wanderlust,
Mine, chanced on being scorny…
I count on being the last!
Twists and turns adorned the track,
I scolded them
As my thoughts went scavenging a snack
Right on the hem.
She boasted her 120kmphs,
I could only smile.
Didn’t she see me at all?
Where I was all this while!
They sprang from both sides,
Adoring her fair
How could she even see through,
The symmetry worth a care!
You caught the wind,
As a kite fluttering, does
Eyes closed, lashes twined,
You smile contagious!
Careless you were,
As I asked for the plan,
Grooving in slow motion,
Ignoring even a sun-tan…
Now I wonder if
The windows are open,
My thoughts are shy, they can’t shout
Wanting to collide with yours out!
You went out,
Telling me to imagine,
Since, my pen’s been my spoon…
Even as I went on to dine.
Someday I will drive,
Or just stare at you, driving,
Unless you have your lovelocks
For your face-hiding!
And sing to each other,
Some songs as rhymes,
Check out on the trees afar
If even a single bird thrives.
Eat terrible food,
Feeling them to be tastier,
Laugh quite like insanes,
Hoping to feel hungrier.
Unending roads with us meeting,
Breaking into a jig
Again and again, as
Mirth and joy go on knitting.
Light or dark,
I really don’t care,
Go out with whosoever,
But won’t you stay true to me, dear?
I attempt to quiet my mind,
Caring not to look behind,
I promise, imaginations won’t be a hype
For, you are the roadtrip of my life…
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 5:24 AM UTC