nothing quite as sad as realizing you were in love alone
realizing you were hoping for things, alone.
Nov 30, 2021
Nov 30, 2021 at 11:02 PM UTC
how many times have I tried to text you “I love you”, just to erase it before pressing send? too many times to count.
Aug 25, 2021
Aug 25, 2021 at 3:07 AM UTC
I broke and ended up initiating plans
It’s wise to not share space alone
Inside four walls, I wander
Almost forget who I am and
Run to the arms of another
I wonder if there will be a day
when you don’t cross my mind?
Apr 17, 2021
Apr 17, 2021 at 3:20 AM UTC
felt like a high school daydream
you pointed out constellations,
but the wind hurt my face and I just wanted to wrap myself in you
On the swings, I asked you to push me
claiming I wanted help building momentum
but it was an excuse to be touched by you
I am shameless
I am sad
my mind is beautiful and soft and hopes that you feel as anxious and dizzy around me as I do around you.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 2:37 AM UTC
how long until I find another that will crack me right open?
Jan 26, 2021
Jan 26, 2021 at 1:52 PM UTC
I vibrate at a different frequency
It lingers for hours after
I’m dizzy with want
Jan 17, 2021
Jan 17, 2021 at 3:41 AM UTC
of not being anything more
of you making me full body laugh
of me suppressing all the things I want to say
of me fighting what my body wants to do
Jan 17, 2021
Jan 17, 2021 at 3:41 AM UTC
I cannot understand why two halves make a whole. Yet, you and I don’t.
I cannot understand my cat wants kisses immediately after breaking my skin.
I cannot understand why I’m here and not falling down a hill.
I cannot understand why I have all the ingredients to make happiness yet it evades me.
Dec 7, 2020
Dec 7, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
but I remind myself
You’re not mine
Never was
What’s really slipping away
Is the possibility of us
Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 8:28 AM UTC
that I love you?
I know it’s not practical or fair.
That our love could never break the surface.
That it’s roots be doomed to grow underground.
Hidden.
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020 at 2:25 AM UTC