you are going to die
that is a fact.
you will cease to breathe
you will become forgotten
it is unlikely that any of us will leave a legacy
we think it's far away
we have plenty of time left
why worry?
well,
have you ever talked to a dying person?
I mean someone who is literally on their death bed
they are facing the end of their life
they've always known that they are going to die
but when it comes to actually dying they're terrified
there's always too much left unsaid
they weren't spontaneous enough
or didn't do what they really wanted
they thought they had more time
so next time you aren't feeling brave
or hesitate before doing something you wanna do
just know
death is imminent
unavoidable
nothing you do really matters that much
in 1000 years no one will remember it
so go for it.
laugh as much as possible.
cry when you need to cry.
forgive and forget.
go get what you want.
don't be embarrassed by anything.
life is too god **** short
to not be brave
to hesitate
to not take that big step
or to even just say hi
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 11:07 PM UTC
and then there are nights
when I just feel like ****
useless, stupid, petty
I get jealous over the stupidest things
then I get angry at my anxiety
but what if it's not anxiety?
I'm so ugly
I have acne
I don't party
I'm not an exciting or fun time
I study too much
why would you love me?
no, stop, you idiot
he cares so much about you
he'd do anything for you
stop belittling him
...but what if he gets bored?
It's during these nights
that I don't talk a lot
you wonder if I hate you
you worry I might break up with you
baby I love you so much
I just sometimes wonder
how do you love me?
I can't even love myself
Jan 26, 2018
Jan 26, 2018 at 9:47 PM UTC
i woke up this morning and felt nothing
my anxiety was gone
my sadness was gone
my pain was gone
my happiness was gone
my excitement was gone
my joy was gone
i went about my day
just a typical day
smiled, laughed, worked, came home
my boyfriend asked how i was
same answer as usual; fine
my eyes tired
my mind numb
no energy for emotion
no explanation or reason
so I will go to bed
and feel nothing
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 10:10 PM UTC
I love talking to you
about how your hands got full of grease at work
I love talking to you
about how you want to raise our children on your grandmas farm
I love talking to you
about the amazing scrambled eggs you make
I love talking to you
about how you love when I stroke the hair behind your ear
and I also love talking to you
about how your boss gives you too much work
and about how you can't sleep at night
and about how much your father ****** you off
and about how much you miss your grandpa
and about your horrible coughing fits
I wanna hear about small victories throughout the day
I wanna hear about what you ate for dinner
I wanna hear about your favourite shirt getting ruined
I wanna hear about the kittens you found behind your house
I want to know you
and talk to you
and listen to your stories
because I love you
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 2:25 PM UTC
your hands
calloused with the evidence of hard work and pain
your arms
strong and thick from carrying the burdens of life
your back
solid and sore from constant stress
your eyes
sunken and tired
but oh your hands
so soft when they trace my lips
your arms
so tender when you hold me
your back
supporting me through every affliction
your eyes
filled with nothing but love
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 2:04 PM UTC
I get upset at you
not because you do anything wrong
you make me feel loved
you listen to me when I've had a rough day and need to talk
you hold me when I just need to be held
I get upset at you
because I'm upset at myself
for letting you in
for letting you love me
I get upset at you
because I hate having something to lose
I hate feeling this much
I hate losing control
I get upset at you
because you make it impossible
for me to be upset at you
Oct 6, 2017
Oct 6, 2017 at 8:56 PM UTC
his scent
lingering
on
my skin
my clothes
my bed
my hair
my memories of him
his scent
like cologne and morning kisses
like sunlight peeping in through the shutters
like innocent smiles and laughter laced with love
his scent
reminds me of everything good
and pure in the world
i want his scent all over me
but now
i get it
in fading wafts of air
his scent
to be gone forever
my love
your scent
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 8:50 PM UTC
because she built him up so high
that when he looked down from his castle
he realized
he no longer needed her
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 9:36 PM UTC
darling
my love
please don't leave
i want your gentle kisses
i want your hand on my thigh
i want your eyes on me
i want your beautiful words
of love
and poetry
forever
Jul 31, 2017
Jul 31, 2017 at 10:35 PM UTC
and I looked at you all the time
you were my best friend
but this was different
it was in that moment
through laughter
and inside jokes
when I looked up at you
and realized
by god
I love this person
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 10:10 PM UTC