I’m so close
So close to call
To text
To drop all morals and patience
To let go and do the unthinkable
To kiss and caresss the forbidden
To envoke in this mission
Of risk and passion
To feel flowers bloom and bees sting
To feel the flow of my imagery
Forget the past and present
To focus on the inside between my *******
To retract time and take a leap
A leap of youth and secrets
Little lamb don’t follow me
I’m going into the den of mischiefs
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 1:40 AM UTC
I swear I can’t take this pain no more
You chase me and play so much
You’re cold like the seeping wind tru a windows draft
Comes so smoothly such a painful raft
This pattern changes my mood like shades of black
I don’t know what to feel because you always come back
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 5:44 PM UTC
I miss him,
Maybe a little maybe a lot
When the sun shoots its rays against my skin
The softness of your fingertips runs wedges over my hips
I hear you call me and the green overlooking our vision's horizon
Memories that float over the weather’s waves
Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 2:37 PM UTC
I was your shoulder
When you leaned over and you touched me
You leaned over and you pressed me
Pressed against me and you told me
You wanted to be here with me
So we fell asleep like this was routine
Don’t preach to me
The words you lying
Nothing was the truth but the times you were *******
I hate what’s happening,
Your actions confuse the hell out of me
But I knew this all along
Im ashamed I fooled myself
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 5:04 PM UTC
throbbing
pumping
dragging
jumping
slapping
kissing
touching
teasing
pulling
********
patting
grabbing
biting
looking
slipping
sliding
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 12:10 PM UTC
Memories of you haunt me in my dreams
its like demons in my sleep
I cannot wake up
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 11:42 AM UTC
You call me and you see me
you kiss me and you tease me
you tell me that im yours
hold and caress my hips
taste the lips i bring
you love me till im sore
this feels likes a bliss
we roll and swirl
we twirl and we swerve
against all our clothes
souls that collide and mend together
you elevate me like a feather
come inside my wonderland of pleasure
than we come down and lay forever
i get up and go
your mind gets up and go
now this is over
and im gone
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 5:37 PM UTC
i am so small,
devoured by
my depression
if i were a flower,
i'd be shrivelled,
on the brink
of being nothing
but soil and dirt
and one day,
i met a boy
who promised
to water me
i promised him
that if he did,
i would grow
and he watered me
day after day,
showered me
abundantly
everyday,
i'd tell him
that i am better,
i have grown
taller
but he'd grab
my wrist,
measure me
with the ruler
i've created
on my arm
and see that
i've remained
small and
have gotten
even smaller
he cried and
showered me
with the love in
his salt tears
he cried to me
telling me that
he feared the day
that i would shrink
into nothing,
into death
he watered me
more than before
and his water
was too much
i was flooded,
drowning in
the water
that was supposed
to give me life
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 3:09 PM UTC
The level of insecurity I feel doesn't let me sleep
Eating seems so meaningless
The black clouds follow me
The flaw is all I see
I tap back into my memory
Where I instinctively thought you were into me
Than I recall all the mistakes I made
Then I remember all the ugly days
Then I think the chances he would stay
I wish I could go back and erase it all
Pick up my dignity and carry on
Close my legs and my eyes to you
I feel like a sculpture in plain view
No soul no life just beautiful in light
There's no words that could describe
The hole you left inside
Used like a newspaper article
When the day is over it is no longer useful
The flaws is all I see
Me and my flaws you could not keep
The bad is what haunts me
You just left me.
Never answered me
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 2:01 PM UTC
I don't know how to loose you
I try to move on but i take two steps back
i feel like you take the light out my soul
the shine in my eyes
i feel like im loosing myself when im with you
how can i try to loose you without loosing myself
can i get through this or should i give up
i ask myself everyday if i should stay
because no one should be in something like this
someone making you lifeless
the more i stay the more you live
take every inch of my beauty
using up the only thing that's left of me
i cant get back the times with you
i cant rewind the tears
my head is full of deep hurtful experiences with you
like demons in my dreams
my thoughts are haunting
i regret you with every inch of me
feeling like im caught in a web where im not suppose to be
i should have stayed away and learned my lesson
but the desires inside of me kept me restless
yearning for more of you
i regret this
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 12:13 PM UTC