On campus, warm sun bathing my shoulders
as I listen to two girls discuss poetry
(and the dreamy guy who teaches their class)
and I try not to laugh at them as they talk about
how romantic I would be to have poetry written about
them. I want to ask them if they are really that stupid.
Instead, I bite my tongue and enjoy the taste of pennies
that floods my mouth and keep my laughter gurgling inside of me.
I long to ask these simpering, silly girls
if they have ever read any poetry about life. Not about the
romantic notions of life, but about really-real life. Poetry about
blood and pain and ******* and dying and loving and art
and I want to force feed them great ****** bites of
Chaucer or Ginsberg or
Bukowski.
Yeah... Bukowski. Visceral, blunt, gory, beautiful Bukowski.
But I have a feeling that this action would go unappreciated.
Their poets don’t use language like **** or ****
Their poets don’t talk about the world I know.
Their poets live in a world of rewrite and revise.
I want to scream at them how silly they are and how much
their views will change over the next few years. And I realize that I may
have been staring (glaring?) at them because they have fallen
silent and are now looking at me with the squeamish discomfort
of people who have just realized that they’re being observed.
And I think to myself, **** it,” and I smile and tell them that
their handsome poetry professor is married, and their idea of poetry
is limited. “You should read some Bukowski,” I tell them, “Then,
you just might get it” and they gaze up at me slack-jawed, staring blankly
for a moment, and I want to make sure I have not sprouted another head.
Instead, I gather my things and walk away. And as I do, I revel in a fleeting
feeling of superiority because I know.
I understand.
I get it.
And I can almost feel special.
Jun 9, 2013
Jun 9, 2013 at 2:49 PM UTC
I stand on the edge,
the drop so long
that I can't see the bottom.
All I can see is
nothing.
No mist, no darkness, just
nothing.
I know I have to jump
but I am afraid.
Will I land gently?
Or will I be bruised and broken?
The nothing holds no answers,
no comfort.
And I know I have to jump.
The nothing looms,
waiting for the inevitable moment
when knowledge becomes action.
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 10:16 PM UTC
I stand on the edge,
the drop so long
that I can't see the bottom.
All I can see is
nothing.
No mist, no darkness, just
nothing.
I know I have to jump
but I am afraid.
Will I land gently?
Or will I be bruised and broken?
The nothing holds no answers,
no comfort.
And I know I have to jump.
The nothing looms,
waiting for the inevitable moment
when knowledge becomes action.
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 10:16 PM UTC