Why am I always like this
Why am I always doubting
Why am I not allowing myself to be happy
Why do I self-destruct
Why do I want to end
Why do I tell myself I'm not worth it
Why can't I stop crying
Why can't I stop thinking
Why can't I let it go
Why am I thinking of death
Why do I want to end it
Why can't I stop myself from think
This is all it is
Nov 9, 2018
Nov 9, 2018 at 3:36 PM UTC
What is a mom?
Someone who cares
Someone who loves unconditionally
Someone who gives there all
What isn't a mom?
Someone who leaves
Someone who thinks of herself
Someone who doesn't call
What are you?
A nobody
Someone who disappoints
Someone who can't give their all
What do I call you?
I call you a disappointment
I call you surrogate
I call you Shawn
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 11:13 PM UTC
What makes me horrible
I check on you
I want to make sure you are okay
I want to see if you are even breathing
I care about you
What makes me horrible
I ask how is your day
I ask if you ate
I send you caring messages
I worry about you
What makes me wonderful
Me going off on you
Me being selfish
Me on caring about me
Me saying forget you
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 10:47 PM UTC
You vote for a racist
You elect a ******
You choose the one that hates
We decided not to vote
We decided to stay quiet
We decided to allow this to happen
Come together
Come and vote
Come and realize that you're not actually woke
Stay aware
Stay knowing its a new day
Stay trying to make change
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 2:01 AM UTC
Laying there
Smelling your scent
Feeling the comfort that you give me
Feeling your warmth
Feeling the vibration of your voice as you speak to me
I miss this
I miss you
Crawling in the bed next to you just to feel okay
One thing I have to tell you
"Mama I love you"
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 1:55 AM UTC
Help me
Guide me
Give me the strength I need
Give me the strength you blessed me with
Help me
Guide me
Show me my way
Show me the way you created for me before I was born
Help me
Guide me
Thank you for your patience
Thank you for the mercy you have given me through my mistakes
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 9:38 PM UTC
Where will I be in ten years?
Is this enough?
Will I be happy?
Is this making me happy?
Am I enough?
Have I ever been enough?
What am I doing?
What am I thinking?
Why can't I stop?
Why don't I stop?
Why won't I stop?
How can I stop?
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 9:35 PM UTC
One, Two, Three
"Stop"
One, Two, Three
"Stop"
One, Two, Three
"Stop"
One, Two, Three
She can't stop
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 9:16 PM UTC
She is sitting there alone
Watching everyone around her continue to grow
She feels stuck
She knows she is growing
She doesn't feel it
She scared to see it
She wants to run
She wants to hide
The only way to escape the feelings she is feeling inside
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 9:15 PM UTC