My day’s coming soon
Will I fall to my knees in self defeat?
will I hold my head up high whether or not I succeed
Will I see it coming or will the darkness creep up behind me
Can I avoid being too late
I must get ready to be put away
My own conscience lying in wait
This is the bed that I have made
I don’t listen to myself anymore
Its my mistakes that have made it this way
In my head is too much to take
An infinite amount of worry each day
Stress anxiety paranoia this is my mental state
Thankful I still remember to pray
Pray unceasingly a privilege so great
In Jesus name these bad habits I break
Tempted enough to expect it will never go away
I can start over if I suffer through the pain
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 3:24 PM UTC
Fantasies of a being in a Family,
Collecting Clouds that dim reality.
Looking the past in the eye of tragedy,
Better off than dead, it is so sad to see.
Never anything more; only to Abound in secrecy.
Time & time again; failing to see it through
How do you expect me to fall in love with you?
Will you stop yourself? will you ask for help?
Or will you just continually act a fool?
Lies are owned in the mirror
Inability to tell yourself the truth
Will you start with something new
Or go back to the old tried and true
Simply dying to live
Is music the only reason to breathe?
Will you ever stop running to hide?
Making excuses and manipulating chance
Cry out for real for once
To fall in love with your self, first desire the painful relief
from dropping your heavy head in your tired hands
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 7:04 PM UTC
Well.. no I don't know what to call it,
a bond that cannot be broken.
When I'm with you, I can't stop fallin',
I just forget about this town full of nothin'.
I wasn't ready to fall in love,
but in you I put all my trust-
I began to go to bed
& I found out how to rest
but i'm never too tired-
my heart is on fire.
wakin' up to that good mornin kiss
can you believe what time it is?
i never thought it would feel like this
we been kickin' it for a while
and i finally found out
that its me and you against the world
i know you feel my baby
what we got is crazy
did you ever think that I would be your girl?
I wasn't ready to fall in love.
But in you I put all my trust.
We began to go to be We found out how to rest
But i'm never too tired my heart is on fire
wakin' up to that good mornin kiss
can you believe how late it is
i never thought it would feel like this
my pain disappears when you walk in the room
i'm beginning to miss you when you start lookin for your hat
knowin' its time you gotta go
dont worry though i'll be right here waiting when you get back
i wasn't ready to fall in love
but in you i put all my trust
we began to go to bed
and found out how to rest
but i'm never too tired
my heart is on fire
wakin' up to that good mornin kiss
can you believe we slept this late again
i never thought it would feel as good as this.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 6:11 PM UTC
Im about to peel the skin off my face.
*Its
the
millionth
worst
day
ever
that i cant seem to escape*
W a s t i n g all this p r e c i o u s time
pretending because i continue hesitate..
Not sure of myself at all anymore
I have to save my soul before its too late
To Leave everything or to stay?
Which is my biggest mistake?
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 6:35 PM UTC
I Surrender my self to God. For He is ready to take my pain away and lift my burdens.<br>
<br>
I need a way out.
I been praying so hard with my mind and my mouth .
If only my distractions could disappear and turn my direction into a direct route.
Until im shown the way i will continue to pray and let go of all this doubt.
Seeking God first brings peace in the storm and in Jesus name will deliver me right now.
Serenity is what i desperately need.
As prayer is the most powerful thing in the world as long as it is truly believed.
Time though i fear is being wasted as i still am drowning in the sea.
My comforter shines Light inside of me and i thank God for confirming my faith is concrete.
As im standing on the top of the bottom , i can begin to breathe.
Washed white as i confess my sins , and blessed as i repent.
Praying harder now than before saying thank You Lord for rescuing me again.
Where would i be without my best friend?
Severely wounded, Blind, lame, and lost.
Id be so confused no matter what i did.
Feb 15, 2017
Feb 15, 2017 at 3:52 AM UTC
F R U S T R A T I O N
D o n' t w o r r y
Life is a brand of** Unique Violation**
& Night to grant the Most Brilliant, Fixation.
To fly beyond your mind into** Cosmic** Attractions
To** believe** there is no stopping your Addiction
Sep 10, 2015
Sep 10, 2015 at 7:04 AM UTC
W o r k
S l e e p
W o r k
S l e e p
ATE TOO MUCH DRANK TOO MUCH
Never smoke enough. Never wake me up.
Tip me with MONEY not love.
**And please, someone tell that
phone to s h u t t h e f u c k u p .**
serve em, & serve em.
Carrying plate after plate.
Waiting tables is my life -
anxious to meet the right
person see my awesome light.
put my pretty smile on tv,
my strong message on the radio,
With each laugh I create
I start servin smiles instead of plates.
each word I say,
I'll act as if I'm on S T A G E .
a new day is the day I am swept away!
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 11:57 PM UTC
The bad feeling you had when you knew you should've stopped what you were doing.
Nervous sick inside
The bad feeling went numb & you started to panic
. . .
Maybe since then, you've felt the supreme nausea, and kept it secret no doubt.
When no crisis occurs, are we all fools to feel relief?
Is to be caught in the act not the same thing?
not as plain to see
the answers lie within your soul
perceived as instinct .
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 9:44 PM UTC
Hope is imagined. Purpose is created.
Time is simple.
Our truth Is behind our soul
Our disguise is
b
l
e
e
d
i
n
g
Only a m o m e n t t o s p a r e
**we confess our reality **
Driven by our selfishness
May 13, 2015
May 13, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC
**Lifted
Addicted
A salute for the gifted
Unlimited love
To heal your confliction**
May 13, 2015
May 13, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC