It is in the mornings
When the mask is left lying somewhere on the floor
Or possibly tangled up in the sheets
That I’m exposed to the reality of my existence
**** the emptiness is breathtaking…
Apr 20
Apr 20, 2026 at 3:27 AM UTC
Another sunrise I wake to alone
Tell me my love
What's the purpose in this again?
You're in the next room but may as well be on another planet
The distance between us screams
How do I fix this?
I wouldn't know where to begin
The further you drift away
The more desperate I become
I can't pinpoint where I lost you
My only relief from this torture
The smoke I inhale... within seconds I go numb
Just going through the motions
Two strangers co-existing in this cold and lonely house
My skin begins to rot from your neglect
I'm drowning in this room in the memories of our love
While you sleep out on the couch
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 3:16 PM UTC
Im not really sure where we are supposed to or could possibly go from here
This is not the same
There is an emptiness that has settled here
We both know it, feel it
But sure my love, I'll play along
You know how much i cringe and crumble in the face of conflict
How I will set myself on fire to spare another's feelings, to negatively affect their state of mind
So it is only appropriate that I, for the umpteenth time, set myself ablaze for you
Keeper of my heart, master of my mind
My blushing smile one minute
and the next my regret filled tears
Sobbing in the shower, my car, into my pillows
Anywhere I can find where I'm less likely to be heard
It's become quite the embarrassment for others to witness what I fool I continue to be,
how I allow myself to pretend to still be so ******* blind
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 3:13 PM UTC