shane-ventura
American
I write song lyrics. I drink to much coffee at all hours of the day. I often put baily's in my coffee, it truly is the only way. I am not bothered my spelling and grammar I find those things to be a hindrince. I use the words I know and try to find new meaning in them in order to express my darkening light that flows through me. I am a writer, a gardner and a son of bitch. I smoke to much, spend to much time on the computer, and alienate people. I'm not sorry about the way I am.
I am anxious
Waiting for this world to turn
1000 times again and over
Into this lazy morning
Come and take me
And I will spill open
Still I'm crazy
Skinned and spoken.
The time for forever is here
And left behind the broken fears
I spent my life wondering
It is deep here and it is clear.
I have chosen
This life, this sweetness
The empty anger gone
Now I can see the pieces.
Everywhere I could hide
Anywhere I could run.
Displace and conceal.
Now I stand my ground.
Nov 25, 2011
Nov 25, 2011 at 2:30 PM UTC
I woke up to find a bruised sky
and took apart a vicious lie
haven't I asked this question
one thousand times?
You look as if you saw a ghost
Pale faced woman who swore it true
tangled in her own petard
unaware of the smile on her face
Lackluster in the hollow light
stream undisturbed in your empty hall
you alone know he truth
that is locked behind soft lips
what can be found
behind stale eyes
what comprimise can be made?
mother confronted inside
a prism, the colors for lies
you were spilled across the floor
Nov 23, 2011
Nov 23, 2011 at 3:34 PM UTC
Tumble down creaky steps
lifting thoughts you let slip
holding on to the splinter
injected into my palm
this can only be removed
by the love of a mother
Nov 21, 2011
Nov 21, 2011 at 10:05 AM UTC
This is my blood
Flowing on these ***** rocks
This is my face
Covered in her tears
These are the cracks
Falling apart from the years
Take me down these miles
Take them from me
Hide these memories
These are my needs
Through everyday
Pounding my life
The blue she takes away
I will lay open
Her face reflected in my eyes
I watch the stems
Of the crystal collide
These are seams
That is ripped from my sides
Nov 19, 2011
Nov 19, 2011 at 10:36 AM UTC
I don't remember wanting anything more
And the distance is the only thing long term
I have crawled for days to get to you
Only to find that you’re no longer there
I wanted so badly
To take these dreams as far as they can go
But what I needed,
And what you feared the most
Have only ended a beautiful possibility
It was always there in the anticipation
Which becomes an ache that was dreaded
Then I became alienated
And you don't know how to feel free
I couldn't help but want to rely
So much was depending on air
Waves crushed the black sky
And I was left standing there
The point has been reached where I cared
But no longer am I concerned
Taking it or leaving it, no longer matters
It’s the battle to regain the thought
Nov 19, 2011
Nov 19, 2011 at 9:54 AM UTC