shahzain-mustafa - Hello Poetry

I drove to the bank yesterday I drove to fill my gas tank,Easter day my dad went fishing with his friend today and why shouldn't they? leave me in the house its no problem i'll just sit and stare at the walls take my brother too so there's no one to play don't bother stocking up the fridge forget about the electricity bill mom's on the other side of the bridge working for us earning for us just like dad the clouds are crying like me their tears falling on the roof like marbles on the floors the TV isn't working neighbors are off skiing in Aspen and i'm stuck at home why can't I go fishing? no room for me? when will I go to Aspen? when everybody will be going for vacations to Antartica? this life's no life trapped in the house,no phone shoes muddy hair curled up breath smelling like socks the day is over but my complaints aren't mom and dad are home relaxing in front of the TV Is EVERYTHING fine now? Can I stop complaining now? and MAY I go to sleep now? Because i'm tired of complaining now.

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:22 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

Days of the weak

I drove to the bank yesterday I drove to fill my gas tank,Easter day my dad went fishing with his friend today and why shouldn't they? leave me in the house its no problem i'll just sit and stare at the walls take my brother too so there's no one to play don't bother stocking up the fridge forget about the electricity bill mom's on the other side of the bridge working for us earning for us just like dad the clouds are crying like me their tears falling on the roof like marbles on the floors the TV isn't working neighbors are off skiing in Aspen and i'm stuck at home why can't I go fishing? no room for me? when will I go to Aspen? when everybody will be going for vacations to Antartica? this life's no life trapped in the house,no phone shoes muddy hair curled up breath smelling like socks the day is over but my complaints aren't mom and dad are home relaxing in front of the TV Is EVERYTHING fine now? Can I stop complaining now? and MAY I go to sleep now? Because i'm tired of complaining now.

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I thought that you were angry with me you expressed it fairly well ran me over with a car I almost bled to death not that you would care then you come cryin' to me and then expect me to forgive you that fake sorry look on your face isn't going to melt my heart isn't going to make me forget that incident it's imprinted in my memory scarred it as well as damaged it i can't even look at you i never thought, out of all the people YOU'D do this to me it's not just about the pain it's about the fact that you would attempt something like this why not just stab me in the heart with a knife rather than hurting me 10 times more emotionally,physically and any other way imaginable just get away from me stay away from me so that i can heal myself and the memories of you can slowly fade

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:22 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

Let my pain fade

I thought that you were angry with me you expressed it fairly well ran me over with a car I almost bled to death not that you would care then you come cryin' to me and then expect me to forgive you that fake sorry look on your face isn't going to melt my heart isn't going to make me forget that incident it's imprinted in my memory scarred it as well as damaged it i can't even look at you i never thought, out of all the people YOU'D do this to me it's not just about the pain it's about the fact that you would attempt something like this why not just stab me in the heart with a knife rather than hurting me 10 times more emotionally,physically and any other way imaginable just get away from me stay away from me so that i can heal myself and the memories of you can slowly fade

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there is no noise in the backyard there are no voices in the backyard but go close to the bushes and see the slimy snail sneaking up to the strawberry lying in the muddy pond oh snail!!! go slow the bed of brown is cracking beneath you go close to the trees and see the leaf from the tree high above is falling towards its grave awaited by the worms the roses were blooming the berries looked ripe filled with juice filled with sugar filled with sweetness the rays of warmth passed through the branches the sun passed over my house the moon snuck up and shone a dim light across my little forest and all my creatures drowned in the darkness waitin' to be rescued by the hands of heat waitin' till the moon went clockwise from south to west so that they can lift above the shadows reveal their colors open their wings and let the wind push them back then i will set foot in my forest and explore the wonders that hid from me today.

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:21 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

The crunch of the leaves,the snap of the twigs

there is no noise in the backyard there are no voices in the backyard but go close to the bushes and see the slimy snail sneaking up to the strawberry lying in the muddy pond oh snail!!! go slow the bed of brown is cracking beneath you go close to the trees and see the leaf from the tree high above is falling towards its grave awaited by the worms the roses were blooming the berries looked ripe filled with juice filled with sugar filled with sweetness the rays of warmth passed through the branches the sun passed over my house the moon snuck up and shone a dim light across my little forest and all my creatures drowned in the darkness waitin' to be rescued by the hands of heat waitin' till the moon went clockwise from south to west so that they can lift above the shadows reveal their colors open their wings and let the wind push them back then i will set foot in my forest and explore the wonders that hid from me today.

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what's wrong??? i feel weak when i'm sick it's like every time i open my mouth i'm gonna cough or ***** or maybe even stop breathing the pain in my fingers when i'm writing is unbearable i feel dizzy it's like i'm gonna fall and i fell but really i'm just sitting i can see colors and patterns floating in the air makes me wonder "am i crazy?" the lids want to close but i'm resisting so that i can see i can barely eat i rarely sleep i can't move my legs or arms because they're so stiff i need to feel better! i need to get up,go to the doctor,and finally take my medicine

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:19 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

What's wrong?

what's wrong??? i feel weak when i'm sick it's like every time i open my mouth i'm gonna cough or ***** or maybe even stop breathing the pain in my fingers when i'm writing is unbearable i feel dizzy it's like i'm gonna fall and i fell but really i'm just sitting i can see colors and patterns floating in the air makes me wonder "am i crazy?" the lids want to close but i'm resisting so that i can see i can barely eat i rarely sleep i can't move my legs or arms because they're so stiff i need to feel better! i need to get up,go to the doctor,and finally take my medicine

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i can't see anything because it's really dark and grandpa's back is blocking my view i can't hear anything except the music it's really loud i can taste something crunchy but i don't know what it is hope it's not a cockroach because i'm pretty sure mum didn't buy anything i feel congested because i'm crammed between my cousins i wish i couldn't smell because i think some kid just pooped his pants ewwww now i really want to leave the situation is getting worse by the minute even the slightest sound is pinching my head the air filled with a foul smell which resembled puke i want to blast this whole place with a nuke can this day get any worse? oh finally this nightmare was coming to an end people are finally leaving with either family or friends looking all jolly and satisfied lets go lets go lets go,Go ,GO!! i screamed because if we had stayed there for another minute another movie would've started and the babies would've again farted and i would've sat back in my chair and would've withered up and died

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:18 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

**** me now

i can't see anything because it's really dark and grandpa's back is blocking my view i can't hear anything except the music it's really loud i can taste something crunchy but i don't know what it is hope it's not a cockroach because i'm pretty sure mum didn't buy anything i feel congested because i'm crammed between my cousins i wish i couldn't smell because i think some kid just pooped his pants ewwww now i really want to leave the situation is getting worse by the minute even the slightest sound is pinching my head the air filled with a foul smell which resembled puke i want to blast this whole place with a nuke can this day get any worse? oh finally this nightmare was coming to an end people are finally leaving with either family or friends looking all jolly and satisfied lets go lets go lets go,Go ,GO!! i screamed because if we had stayed there for another minute another movie would've started and the babies would've again farted and i would've sat back in my chair and would've withered up and died

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you took away the one thing important to me shot her in cold blood she meowed like an angel and now you sent her to heaven now i don't have anyone to guide me to protect me to teach me to help me you left me an orphan forced me to wander the streets thirsty,hungry,tired and an infant a drop of white silk would've been enough to make my stomach feel full enough to make me forget my loneliness even my shadow left me maybe went with my mother and forgot about the one in pain she used to keep me warm with her soft white fur as clean as her soul there is a big hole inside of me YOU created it it's bigger than my heart bigger than me and definitely bigger than your sins you will burn in hell you can pray all you want but that won't change anything when you will sleep you will dream of me because i'm your greatest nightmare and i will haunt you till the day your are placed in a box and buried in the ground and from that point ,the devil will teach you a lesson and then you'd want forgiveness and then you'd beg for mercy but you will die just like my angelic mother did

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:18 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

The hunted

you took away the one thing important to me shot her in cold blood she meowed like an angel and now you sent her to heaven now i don't have anyone to guide me to protect me to teach me to help me you left me an orphan forced me to wander the streets thirsty,hungry,tired and an infant a drop of white silk would've been enough to make my stomach feel full enough to make me forget my loneliness even my shadow left me maybe went with my mother and forgot about the one in pain she used to keep me warm with her soft white fur as clean as her soul there is a big hole inside of me YOU created it it's bigger than my heart bigger than me and definitely bigger than your sins you will burn in hell you can pray all you want but that won't change anything when you will sleep you will dream of me because i'm your greatest nightmare and i will haunt you till the day your are placed in a box and buried in the ground and from that point ,the devil will teach you a lesson and then you'd want forgiveness and then you'd beg for mercy but you will die just like my angelic mother did

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They sit in a corner giggling like little Japanese school girls hide in the shadows of the decent crowd and manage to escape from the ringmaster the entire day but the ringmaster knows what they are planning she keeps an eye on them even when they think she isn't looking but she IS shadowing them while they are hiding in the shadows she's waiting for them to attempt and fail so that she can twist their ears a full 360 degrees and suspend them from learning new tricks and acts stopping them from entering the grounds which is definitely a dream come true for them their joker faces lighting up like Christmas lights the moment they hear the news when they leave we might finally learn something but time will fly and the silence won't last long because they WILL come back and when they'll return we might leave because they will destroy the silence make our heads explode and make our eyes pop out just so that they can giggle once again and hide in the shadows of the decent crowd

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:17 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

Two jokers

They sit in a corner giggling like little Japanese school girls hide in the shadows of the decent crowd and manage to escape from the ringmaster the entire day but the ringmaster knows what they are planning she keeps an eye on them even when they think she isn't looking but she IS shadowing them while they are hiding in the shadows she's waiting for them to attempt and fail so that she can twist their ears a full 360 degrees and suspend them from learning new tricks and acts stopping them from entering the grounds which is definitely a dream come true for them their joker faces lighting up like Christmas lights the moment they hear the news when they leave we might finally learn something but time will fly and the silence won't last long because they WILL come back and when they'll return we might leave because they will destroy the silence make our heads explode and make our eyes pop out just so that they can giggle once again and hide in the shadows of the decent crowd

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we are driving to the farm it'll take about 6 hours and that's if there isn't much traffic but it's worth it cuz i'll finally be able to feel the country breeze the feeling of escaping the city smoke can't be explained the car is going really slow my head is spinning while my brother is secretly grinning at me embarrassing me in front of grandma night was lurking around the edges of the grasslands and i was all ready to rest but there was this weird feeling inside of me making me feel insecure that if i slept something might happen but that didn't stop me cuz i was already dreaming about the grass under my feet the sky above me and the stream flowing beside me finally we have reached and i can actually feel the grass beneath my feet even though it's a little more prickly and even though the sky is in 3 shades of grey and even though the stream besides me is filled with trash it's better than the noise of the horns in the city the traffic,the pollution,the grumpy people and the hard cold ground on which nothing grows the grass under my feet is better than standing on floors made of concrete

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:16 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

The grass under my feet

we are driving to the farm it'll take about 6 hours and that's if there isn't much traffic but it's worth it cuz i'll finally be able to feel the country breeze the feeling of escaping the city smoke can't be explained the car is going really slow my head is spinning while my brother is secretly grinning at me embarrassing me in front of grandma night was lurking around the edges of the grasslands and i was all ready to rest but there was this weird feeling inside of me making me feel insecure that if i slept something might happen but that didn't stop me cuz i was already dreaming about the grass under my feet the sky above me and the stream flowing beside me finally we have reached and i can actually feel the grass beneath my feet even though it's a little more prickly and even though the sky is in 3 shades of grey and even though the stream besides me is filled with trash it's better than the noise of the horns in the city the traffic,the pollution,the grumpy people and the hard cold ground on which nothing grows the grass under my feet is better than standing on floors made of concrete

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The house next door is creepy has the weirdest security system is surrounded by overgrown forests sitting alert in their pots I've been in there once the roof was leaking the floorboards were vigorously creaking and i saw these huge mouse traps in the bin grasping tails and limbs of freakishly large mice the couch couldn't be classified as a couch it was just a bag in the corner of the room the kitchen smelled like blue cheese and when we went in the lounge you could see dust and hair in the air made me wanna stop breathing that's why we couldn't stand it any second longer me and my mom so that's why we got out as quickly as we could and two moons later we shifted because you could smell their filth all the way down the street.

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:16 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

The house next door

The house next door is creepy has the weirdest security system is surrounded by overgrown forests sitting alert in their pots I've been in there once the roof was leaking the floorboards were vigorously creaking and i saw these huge mouse traps in the bin grasping tails and limbs of freakishly large mice the couch couldn't be classified as a couch it was just a bag in the corner of the room the kitchen smelled like blue cheese and when we went in the lounge you could see dust and hair in the air made me wanna stop breathing that's why we couldn't stand it any second longer me and my mom so that's why we got out as quickly as we could and two moons later we shifted because you could smell their filth all the way down the street.

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Why'd you leave? was it something i did? or was it something I didn't? how could you do this to me? why would you do something like this? I relied on you you were my protector,my savior,my role model and now suddenly you packed your bags and left didn't you love me? well if you did, you'd be making me breakfast right about now but i guess i wasn't worth your love now I should get use to waking up and not have you in the next room on Saturdays watch a movie without your buttered popcorn but did you even once think about me? how will i survive? did you ever look back? or not too busy enjoying your life? i will never forget you i hope you won't too i don't think i can move on get over you because you played a major role in my life but did you realize that? NO,OF COURSE NOT!! because if you did you'd be right beside me running your hand through my hair and kissing me on my cheek and watching me until i went to sleep to dream about you.

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Mar 26, 2014

Mar 26, 2014 at 10:15 AM UTC

shahzain-mustafa

Why'd you leave?

Why'd you leave? was it something i did? or was it something I didn't? how could you do this to me? why would you do something like this? I relied on you you were my protector,my savior,my role model and now suddenly you packed your bags and left didn't you love me? well if you did, you'd be making me breakfast right about now but i guess i wasn't worth your love now I should get use to waking up and not have you in the next room on Saturdays watch a movie without your buttered popcorn but did you even once think about me? how will i survive? did you ever look back? or not too busy enjoying your life? i will never forget you i hope you won't too i don't think i can move on get over you because you played a major role in my life but did you realize that? NO,OF COURSE NOT!! because if you did you'd be right beside me running your hand through my hair and kissing me on my cheek and watching me until i went to sleep to dream about you.

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