Crying—
a place I return to more often than I should,
where joy feels like a mirage,
something I chase in hopes it might be true.
Kindness spills from me unchecked,
I feel and care too deeply, it weighs too much inside my chest.
Here is where silence might serve me better, but I never seem to learn.
I thought I found you.
Truly.
The safety your embrace gave me,
was more than I had ever known.
It frightened me
so warm, so sudden and yet I do not want to let you go.
"This is a dream," I whispered.
Biting my hand to check
Because time is fleeting,
and happiness is something I always seem to chase.
I want you to stay.
But I can’t force you, love.
This feeling is new—
not the echo of a love I once knew,
but something deeper,
something terrifyingly beautiful and also something im scared to look in full view.
Now tears fall freely
as I write these lines that make little sense,
but how can I hide what you make me feel -
especially now that I know you feel the same way.
I carry baggage, a heavy one it's true but these are wounds I cannot drop.
They're mine and shaped me.
And even with them,
I still want to be enough.
I know you know, I want you to stay.
But if I must let you go,
I fear I’ll break.
I would plead,
but that would be unfair—
to you,
to me,
to the love I fear I wont be able to fully give.
May 18, 2025
May 18, 2025 at 5:25 PM UTC
I thought I forgot you. But you never left.
I thought I moved on but your presence is there.
The way your cologne fills the empty space, I know you're not here but I wish you were.
I can hear the whispers, remember your embrace.
I thought I moved on, but you never left.
Your being remains where it's more important.
Your memories are shared with the ones you loved.
Although you're no longer with us.
It's like you've never gone.
Remembering you like this, will do no help.
So I will let you go, even though it's strange.
I thought I moved on.
Guess this time I will.
May 6, 2025
May 6, 2025 at 2:32 AM UTC
Stranger you were, waltzed into my life, oblivious to what was to rise.
Broken and in pieces you found this soul, but yours was not better, so I'm told.
To confide and find solace in one another, has granted a spark to flourish.
It was rushed, you may say, yes I will not contradict, but at the same time I don't regret.
Time is irrelevant once your heart starts.
To you that has my heart in his hands, I will leave you to care for it however you want.
Feb 4, 2024
Feb 4, 2024 at 3:50 AM UTC
Through poems and sonets you express how you feel.
Each moment, emotions, making it real.
Losing my composure whenever I read, the wonderful things you say about me.
Awakened insparation, a muse to become.
A burning fire ravages thy soul, can't contain the excitement, your feelings a rush, truly a sight to behold.
Space entangles our state of being, expecting treasure that's been forbidden.
In my subconscious you leave a whisper, in time I will get its meaning.
Intended, how can you pursue this so?
Presuming fruitful results, is thy heart and soul prepared for what's to come? I don't know how you'll be able to hold.
Seasons may change and a tide may take what's been awakened there. Your heart may be unfazed but only time can show the legitimacy of your truth.
Feb 2, 2024
Feb 2, 2024 at 12:28 AM UTC
In the darkness I was standing,
Your light slowly blinding.
Take my hand you said politely
I held it tight, please don't mind me.
Afraid of lifting,
thinking you'd fall by having,
my grip around your body tightly.
Yet you somehow pulled me out,
not fearing, the risks that were behind me.
You are the one I've searched for.
The one that came through.
My heart is no longer a void because of you.
I feel like I owe you something but you keep saying it's nothing.
You are the one that says, you and I were meant to meet.
It's fate, let it be
How can you shine so bright in a world that's black and white.
Tell me your secret and be my guide.
Don't let me be behind you, let me stand by your side.
Jan 29, 2024
Jan 29, 2024 at 11:09 AM UTC
The world likes to bring you down
The people around you drag you to the ground.
How can someone so happy crumble
They don't like you, want to see you under.
What can I do to change this solem state,
The funk I'm in is not easy to break.
I can see the light shine bright through the window above me, far from reach and its there to taunt me.
A thousand words want to scape me but I have no chance or break, I can barely free myself.
Prison cell I'm in.
If you could feel, would you be happy I'm here?
Messy mind is a messy state,
I want to break free of your chains.
Sgp
Jan 29, 2024
Jan 29, 2024 at 8:48 AM UTC
I am a powerful being of creation, able to control my surroundings.
All I need is a thought to manipulate what is around me.
I am the happiness that flows from one moment to another.
Its just life's way of letting me know that it can be every colour.
I am the love that wraps me and everyone around me.
Making me feel safe from any dangers that come find me.
I am the sweet melody that transport you to that place,
A safe heaven that temps you to stay.
I am everything I have ever hoped for.
I am everything I need to be.
I am grateful for what I have.
I am.
This little spark inside me.
The one that keeps my dreams alive,
I will make it shine brighter, as the days go by.
Nov 4, 2021
Nov 4, 2021 at 7:10 PM UTC
I am going to leave a note for my future self.
I have to let you know that I am content; I can look at his messages again.
I look at them with a smile because now I know what I've learned.
Its funny to see that today I feel this way, knowing that years back I couldn't even hear the sound of his name.
I'm glad for the lesson he left me and I am grateful for the happy memories we shared.
I can finally say we can part our ways.
Now I've found my way.
The path I should follow.
I learned that love comes from deep within myself and not from someone hollow.
Understanding that what you are is what you attract is something important to share and
If you're not happy with yourself, then that is a shame.
Be happy with who you are and what you are today.
Then you will see how everything falls into place.
This is the message I'll leave for you today.
Nov 4, 2021
Nov 4, 2021 at 6:38 PM UTC
Where would you go?
If I were to tell you it will all end
the minute you
close your eyes
take a breath
it's gone
taken away.
Open your eyes
escape!
its not the only place
There is more out there
don't be deceived by the lies,
the map in your mind,
is all a trap.
The road ahead is an open terrain
nothing compared to what
is in your head.
They feed you the truth
but whose truth
what is true and what is false
in a world damaged by their cause.
Don't be fooled and open your eyes
Escape from the lies that they tell.
Find your own way.
All I can say is
ESCAPE!
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 10:01 AM UTC
You don't seem to understand
The pain you are causing to your
baby and I.
We have not disappeared,
We are still here.
It seems like it's easy for you to
Ignore us, to hurt us;
Like the past 6 years with me
Were nothing, just gone, thrown.
You clearly understand how we go
to bed at night, Pillow soaked in tears and puffy red eyes, still we are brushed to the side like we don't matter and it's a stab to my heart.
I'm clearly the fool, I fell inlove with you, were you even in love too?
I gave you my heart and all that I am,
I gave you my life and all of my time.
Now I'm just slowly breaking into tiny little pieces, a pain I have never felt before.
I'd like to be happy and fake a smile but how can I when I'm so torn.
I gave you my heart and you just tore it apart.
Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 5:27 PM UTC