Feels so good to be back with you
On top of the world again
They said you were no good for me
But i love you.
They gathered in a crowd
Grabbed and yanked at my arms to stop my meeting you
But you make me feel so free
So wild inside.
So in the moment
Not worried about a second that was or will be
Living purely in this tiny moment of now
When i'm with you
I'm so above the ground.
Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 9:40 PM UTC
Riding to communion,
Just to exchange drawing of sick scences.
It was hard to sneak flirts,
without your brothers seeing.
They'd never suspect good friends,
not in the Baptistery.
How could such a well to-do family make such a little monster for me?
How could they call us sick and twisted for feelings we didn't quite know?
How much farther could we truly go,
I'm grasping to turn back now.
They're hot on our trail,
it's too late for that though
The pitchforks are near.
They've torn us apart,
let us forget who we are.
It's been ages since I've seen you,
but I still have these scares.
These memories,
these feeling,
they keep dragging me back.
If I can't have you,
then please, please just let leave me on my track.
I can't keep chasing these feelings you've given, they've said it'll **** me.
I keep trying and trying to replace your sick effects,
but it keeps me craving for what I can't have yet.
But your not just somebody, you're much more to me.
Your'e the root of my suffering,
my impossible dream.
I still hate myself,
i truly do.
Because if you came back tomorrow,
I'd still leave with you.
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 11:25 PM UTC
The staining aroma we so avidly inhaled in the reign of night
At tables made of glass that reflet the moonlight
The faint white illumination lit our misdeeds of younger
Keeps me reminiscent of days of simpler
Plagued & blessed by lack of consideration
No respect for damnation
We lived without hesitation to be free
To feel we truly needed to be
I sit alone now inhaling what was once shared and sought-after
Feeling but trying not to think-of those days of before
Watching storms roll through, making me feel spectator to memories of more
I retreat into myself, knowing those days are over
I could never imagine I'd look back on those days and call them simpler.
I keep running from what i can't see and it's lead me in circles
Cycle through the times to get to the next
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 11:22 PM UTC
Improperly inviting
Mutually corrupt
Soulfully repulsive
Wickedly tempting
Hesitantly falling
Inadequately open
Eagerly fearful
Lovingly ready
Sitting worthlessly
Sulking desperately
Thinking hatefully
Hurting intimately
Facing reality
Clinging dreamily
Losing stability
Loving lonely
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 11:19 PM UTC
Surrounded by empty parts of a forgotten past
Chasing myself around to end up in the same place as last
I spiral all night on a bed beaten by time and mistakes
Just to sleep in segments of new horror in a different time of space
Helplessly in love with the possibility that you may impossibly have what I'm looking for
Hounded by remedy crooks with cold coffee and platitudes
Abandoned by the church of the broken, to fall back into poisonous loving arms
Now I'm talking to the walls and crying with the windows
Spinning with the ceiling and alone in our bedroom
Remembering the promises made in a 101 proof haze
Living on borrowed time remembering yesterdays
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 11:15 PM UTC
Disturbingly beautiful
Fearfully eager
Cold hearts on fire
In a room of ecstasy
Dangerous fixations
Wicked temptations
Confined in our sins
Engulfed in the flames
Animal in your eyes
Feeling your feral gaze
Devouring my light
Holding me to the flame
Blood-red love in our veins
Whisper sweet nothings
Hollow and shiny
Dazzling my foolish dreams
Push into my heart
Sink into my soul
Take me with you
Wherever you go
Shine your sun on me
Melt me with your glow
Leave me in a puddle
Of desire and vow
Devour me whole
Shake my steady ground
Strip my soul
For you
I am bound
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 10:58 PM UTC