If you have to cry in public,
the sauna at the Y is a good place to do it.
As long as you are quiet, everyone's eyes
are averted.
Steam clouds vision and the tears drip with sweat to the wet musty floor.
I think about my dad as I take in the thick hot air.
I think about his final moments a decade earlier when in the middle of sleep he just
stopped breathing.
It was so calm and brief he didn't wake mom.
Was he giving her what he thought she wanted? no debt? a house? funds to support her church and those she would call her grandsons?
I fixate on that last breath
that final thought.
If it was lucid, I suspect it was encouraging and hopeful.
A promise of a rainbow after a storm.
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 11:03 PM UTC
Apollo once had a daughter who was gifted with words. One day she observed the savages to the west and felt pity for them as they did not know the joy of reading or writing. So she taught them, though it was forbidden. When the gods found out, she was banished from Olympus and instead transformed into the very language the savages used. Her name - Ellemenope, is uttered every time they recite their alphabet.
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 2:13 PM UTC
My poem lay
in fragments
over my desk.
I tried to sculpt it to my will
but it only cut
my flesh -
tried for hours, days, weeks,
slicing myself more, coating it
with my dried blood.
Hordes of flies reveled in my poem.
Disease infested, it only grew
until that came
blasting through
my dead-bolt door.
Your toad of a poem arrived,
feasted itself on my massive poem
unyielding, even when it grew full.
It wouldn't stop
Exploding, a sickening squirt.
Flies, blood, entrails,
bile, and shards
enveloped me, my house
with a vast loden fog killing
my neighbor's pit bull.
I called you on the phone
said ****
said I had a twenty pound sledge.
A twenty pound sledge
and was coming over to thank you.
Feb 6, 2011
Feb 6, 2011 at 10:06 AM UTC
The room shrinks.
She missed again, the vein dodging the needle.
The body reacts
confused
And ineffective. Cold yet sweaty, those ears sink under water.
My bags unpacked, my threads untied, yet
I am gone.
Nothing remains, and the nothing is tranquil.
A second? An hour?
The cacophony begins, muted
The ears throb and resurface.
Voices touch, hands speak. I taste their worry.
And finally
I am back.
I wash in the relief of my return. I’m not ready.
Apr 25, 2010
Apr 25, 2010 at 10:06 AM UTC