this will most likely the last poem i write for you.
i'm finally over you.
finally over everything you put me through.
seeing you again, after everything, was the closure i needed.
but at what cost?
i'm not sure things will ever be healed between us.
we tolerate each other, even enjoy our time together.
but at the end of the day you *******
R U I N E D M E
and i don't think i'll ever forgive you for that.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 10:03 PM UTC
there is nothing i wouldn't do to relive last night.
i want nothing more than to just sleep in your arms one more time.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:59 PM UTC
i feel so ******* sick
i cant stop thinking about you
i want it to end,,,, i don't know how you feel
im too scared to ask
i hope you dont feel as disgusting as i do
but part of me wants this to be mutual,
this raw desire,
this anxiety,
im so ******* terrified
of how attatched to you i became so quickly,
the thought of this being unrequited is devastating to me
but the thought of you feeling the same fear i do,
is even scarier.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:57 PM UTC
i can't even begin to describe how i felt in that moment.
when you looked in my eyes before pulling me close and whispering,
'i'm so happy i met you.'
how lucky i felt when you fell asleep with your head on my chest.
how grateful i was when you made that stupid ******* playlist for me.
how content i felt in your arms.
how comfortable i was with you in such a small amount of time.
how devastated i was to say goodbye.
how i feel now, writing this.
how i'll feel tomorrow, undoubtedly thinking about you.
i could never describe the impact you have had on me.
but i want you to know
exactly how much you mean to me.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:51 PM UTC
my heart is aching, yearning for you.
is it selfish that i hope you're feeling this way too?
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:46 PM UTC
why am i feeling this way again,
its been almost a year.
its not even you anymore.
for the longest time i blamed you,
but now its him.
he makes me feel the exact same way you did,
the fear,
the excitement,
the desire.
maybe it was my fault all along?
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:43 PM UTC
i tell myself i’m over you.
but every time i hear your name,
i realize that’s a lie.
Jul 23, 2018
Jul 23, 2018 at 9:04 PM UTC
i just wish this was enough for me to stop wanting you.
but i still do and i don’t know how to stop.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
i wish i could understand why you did it.
but i don’t think i ever will.
why did you pretend to care for so long?
it was evident you didn’t, and still don’t.
i wish i could understand why i did it.
but i don’t think i ever will.
why did i let myself believe you for so long?
and; why does a a little part of me still believe
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
realistically i knew this would never work,
we would never work.
yet i let myself believe that what you said was true,
that you really were interested in me,
in pursuing a relationship with me.
but all of that blew up in my face, huh?
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 6:13 PM UTC