Raindrops falling on the bare chest
the Chest falling with each step
as he slowly approaches his bike
The loneliness hits hard
and stays stinging
The raindrops now hit the chest harder
and harshly
But its alright
Pain is better when physical
than mental
Now the raindrops fall faster
and become a never ending torrent
he gets drenched with no dry spot anymore
Hail and snow also make their appearance known
and lifes a mess
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 12:08 PM UTC
Today,
on a bright, sunny, summer afternoon
The leaves were green
The grass was green
The air was humid
and horribly hot
I thought of the times
when we sat outside
during a mid summer night
feeling the cool breeze
I thought of those times again
and this time I imagined myself
entering your house
your hand pulling me in
into the cool comfort of the house
We then sat down
sitting as close as physically possible
cuddling, romanticizing
comforting,
Simply to change our minds off
the rough Monday
and into the beautiful company of the beloved
May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 4:53 PM UTC
Regardless, of the tired soul
I enjoy these everlasting memories
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 10:34 PM UTC
Brown eyes
Tight jeans
Navy blue t-shirt
its basically
love
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC
The first time in
an infinity I
met someone
new
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 7:14 PM UTC
Recently, I have
found out more about myself
than I had done before
which is very very very weird
I thought I knew myself good
front, back, in, out
I didn't
Clearly
For instance,
I have found out that I am changing
whether into something good?
I can't say for sure yet,
But it seems rather promising
I have gained power o'er my mind
Becoming resolute
though I lose the power very quickly
Been listening to Imagine Dragons
A lot
This has been a very happy winter
considering that I didn't feel horrible
..I want to know how this was possible..
I want to recreate this to ensure my stability
But knowing life, and my english class -
Ambiguity surrounds us
So, I probably will not be as happy
I might be
I might not
Might.....
.....might not
But such are the random rantings
that are my thoughts
Mar 4, 2015
Mar 4, 2015 at 10:14 PM UTC
I slept last night
With no thoughts on my mind
Because its the easiest method to sleep
But as i dreamt of castles,
Of suburbs, of theaters
Of other relationships
(Of other people)
It brought this revelation
That WHAT if.
What if:
We were next to each other
When we woke up
My face would turn red like a tomato
And i would just start laughing
Because of the realization that
I'm with the person I love
What if:
We would talk for hours on an end
And fill up the memories on iPhones
And our minds with talks of gossip
Talks of science, talks of hangouts
Your friends would envy it so much
They would become angry at us
What if:
We were together in the school
Holding hands and the people knowing
That we are together
It would be so **** amazing
For me, knowing I did it
I ventured into unknown and came back
Victorious
What if:
We walked home everyday
Sat together on the bus
Those little things which people say
Have no significance will never fathom
The signficance the little things have
Because little things make something big
I truly cannot fathom the beauty
The joy, the love
That I would feel from someone
Who isn't a family member
But someone else, who genuinely loves me
For what I am
I will be so proud to say
"I did it! I braved through!"
If only this were true.
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 7:15 PM UTC
Your heart is big
its spreading
its powerful
Your charm is an even bigger device
it grapples onto people
it pulls them in
It has strength
You have power
but you have self-hatred
and your love is infectious
and people already like you
and i would rather not disturb that
I already did enough harm
don't want to start a wildfire
they are powerful too
but you are better
and will find someone
just as powerful as you
May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 9:24 PM UTC
I am a ****** messed up person
I have weird things going around my body
EVERYTHING hurts
Sure,
midterms are coming up
I AM NOT IN MY NICHE
RIGHT NOW
THIS IS NOT ME
I have weird things
I want to talk about
I am just so embarrassed
Every waking moment
is hell
Every sleeping moment
is hell
So many things trigger
So many things hurt
I just told someone about my love for them
WHEN AM I PAYING ATTENTION?
Everything is wrong
nothing helps
I just want to melt in the shadows
die
die
die
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 2:23 PM UTC
I don't want to go through this nauseating pain again
its enough i have to deal with it more than once in a day
i just.
don't want to go through this...
...loneliness
Anything I do.
Anything I say
nothing makes sense
Not that it ever did
and
i have nothing
I am tired
but i cant sleep
I have to finish my work
but i cant,
because i am not good enough
I want to be a spark
but if i dont know if i will make it through this
how will i live
to see the day
my spark
works?
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh
so many thoughts
and yer i am going to be sharing this
what's with me
I am lazy, stupid
crazy
clumsy
can't think straight
can get distracted
headaches
this is too much
BUT i dont have a choice
I have to live like anyone else would
so be it then
i don't matter,
never did
never will
My apology to you was never accepted
hey, look
a trend!
I can't do a **** thing correctly.
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 6:43 PM UTC