I dreamt of you, walking through a thick fog
towards me, coming slow with flowers in your hand
this city is draped in a heavy air
early morning, I wake in bed alone
and the timid dawn slowly pulls me back to life
we hardly mumble to each other as we pass
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 8:21 PM UTC
I was sitting at my desk when a bird flies through the screen, straight at my face. I smack it away from me and it bounces off the wall and onto my bed where it starts flapping around. I look back to the window and see another bird heading straight for me, so I slide it shut just before its body slams into the glass and then flops to the garden bellow. The bird on the bed is tangled in my sheets and is madly trying to free itself.
From then on my life was madness. Birds were slamming into my house and trying to break in and **** me constantly. The police and then the FBI and soon all organizations were involved, trying to figure out what was drawing these murderous animals to me. At first they had moved me around the state, then the country, yet no matter where I went it made no difference. Day in and day out birds would pile up outside wherever I was 'hiding', killing themselves from slamming into the buildings. Eventually they brought me deep into a mountain but even still, this didn’t slow them down. As the weeks passed it was obvious that soon there would be no birds left on the planet. Winged demons from all over the world were flying to wherever I happened to be, all bent on trying to **** me. So many birds slammed into that mountainside that it changed the way it looked.
Once all the birds had died I was finally able to leave the mountain and live a relatively normal life, though quite a few people were upset about the situation. I was reminded constantly of what happened and the world felt different for a while, quieter, and cleaner. You wouldn’t think so but living in a city without any pigeons or bird **** makes quite a difference!
Eventually I settled into a career and had children and forgot all about it, as my days are now preoccupied with thoughts of suicide.
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:32 PM UTC
The dog ran down with a bird in it's mouth saying "temp me to bite"
You’re the odd
I’m the lost one
And I’ve been tryin hard to believe
That everything I love won’t leave
But I know thats just a
Mirage in a sand soaked brain
Trying my best to keep you from feeling
This same kind of pain
She’s been spinning circles around me for days
I’ve been sitting by the water
Watching as it pulled away
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:31 PM UTC
The air was thick and hard to breath
water was flooding through the cracks in the walls
Staring through the window while she pressed down on me
I wasn't where I wanted to be
I felt her fingertips against my skin
like they were foreign invaders
trying to force their way in
The weight of her uncertainty crushing through me
I watched the tremor behind her eyes
as she dropped her body onto my lap
Our lips fumbled in the darkness
and I felt like my interest was being devoured
not by her, but by the mistake I made in coming here
Her hair doesn't fall across my face the way yours does
Her skin doesn't smell sweet and salty like the shore
Her hand on my back that is trying to draw me in
only pushes me away, your hand used to push through
and massage the ***** protected by my ribs
Your face in front of me always felt like coming home
the others are vacations I never wanted to take
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:19 PM UTC
She stripped off her clothes, stepping out of her black ******* last
lowering herself into that pool of steaming water
I watched her with stifled hunger
"This is it. This is everything, isn’t it."
It wasn’t a question I was asking
as the rain crashed down around us
through the half open roof
She stretched her arms out and shook her head,
silent, grinning at me from across the bath
**** those tiny dagger teeth, so far from my bones"
I threw her an invitation to destroy me but she was too comfortable
way over there
and she knew better after all this time
than to interrupt my romantic ********
I could really get carried away on the feeling
as if some insidious little moth crept in and started
pounding against my rib cage, against the backs of my eyes
taking me to some other place, as some other creature
"You know, you know.. Just drown me in here, like a rat
stuck in a sewer pipe, fat and useless and happy!
I’m drunk and hazy on this lust."
I could see her chest heave
as if the air was suddenly too thick
to swallow
"What I know is that you’re ****** you’re ****** and so I’m ******
and she was right
but it was too late
her words faltered and faded off
halfway across the ocean between us
sailboats of wisdom lost at sea with
sailors throwing themselves overboard
I was gone by then, living a thousand daydreams
as scenes unfolded
where no one could see
as the rain
stung my face
Her eyes were wide and she was searching the stars
for me
but I was already tucked away inside her mystery
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:13 PM UTC
We broke bones falling over each others
wild horse chase
She pressed her fingertips into my ribs
said "you’re not like them"
and I could feel her move right through me
I grabbed her face and her tongue pushed past my teeth
like a battering ram
I wanted to destroy everything
Some time later I woke up, starving for her grip around me
I pressed against her, she slid her ******* down
and half asleep we rolled on the waves
"This is going to be dangerous"
She didn’t care, or maybe she didn’t know
We had drunk enough where the words didn’t mean
anything, anymore
I made her promise we wouldn’t get lost
but I could see the twinkle in her eye
She has the fire and I have the fuel
Together we could really
**** things up
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:10 PM UTC
This time I feel more than nothing
some curiosity and a want to be near you
that runs deeper than those surface charms
Her soothing voice, I could listen to that purr
until I lay myself in the grave
Digging holes deeper than her soul
though not as misplaced
There was a gracefulness in the way her crooked
mouth spit out the words
"If god exists, the curse has been cast upon me"
In that moment I wanted to devour her like a rogue wave
rushing towards a beachside village
a hunger so old and archaic my roots were
twisting themselves
in the comfort
of possible disaster
With her teeth gnashing against my bones
Her skinny legs entwined in mine
My mouth pressed against the heartbeat in her neck
I wanted to drown in this fever between our bodies
"If god has forsaken you, I will crush the ******* into a powder"
She didn’t hear me, deep asleep, finally
finding peace as the dreams come and go
with her head against my chest, breathing me in
until there was nothing left
These daydreams stab through the veil of my solitary safety
Wake me from this madness, I’ve been here before
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 6:09 PM UTC
Im just lonely, really
she whispered across the table
and I want someone to hold me
I know that after ***
we will collapse into each others arms
and stay that way, for at least a little while
Thats the work and thats the reward
those fleeting moments of touch
I am not sexually insatiable
I am affectionately empty
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 7:36 PM UTC
Theres a light in your room I see from my rooftop tomb
Watching the shadows along the wall
and I know I should look up at the moon
But when I do I’m just waiting for it to fall
They said it takes some time to get over the loss
But thats a mountain I can’t seem to scale
They swore that another would come to take your place
But all those who’ve tried have failed
I find myself laying in the grass at night
Hoping that it pulls me into the grave
To feel such a strong deep embrace
And have nothing left to say
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:03 PM UTC
The mountain looks down on me
Smiling sinner
Drop your sunshine around me
Im drowning
Theres anger in the earth now
Time to give birth now
My child has died
Silver lake swimming
Nothing means anything
Anymore
I threw her face against
The wall
I slept in the yard
With the dogs dancing on my chest
Empty nest
Leaving them all behind
Ribbons spill out of me
My arms are dangling
Useless from carrying
Everything
Look down at me mountain man
share with me gods plan
Tell her that I died
Im just a husk of a human hide
How can I explain my
Simple situation
If you’ve never felt a thing
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 10:53 PM UTC