I wanna **** you
Slit your stupid throat
I would laugh at the dying sounds it makes
I detest you
Put my fist right through your skull
Feel the bones crushing in my hand,
As I shove my fingers into your brain
Because I hate you
More than I even hate myself
I detest you like a maggot in the grave
I wanna crush you,
Dissolve you in a vat of my shame
You left your taint behind you,
When you up and ran away,
Put your dagger in my back,
Left me in a shallow grave.
I can still taste you,
A flavour once so sweet
Has turned putrid in my mouth,
And I can't spit it out
So I'll rip your brain out through your eyes
Take a cudgel to your spine
Destroy and pulverize
Till there's nothing left but a stain,
On my memory.
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 6:28 AM UTC
Chasing rainbows in my head
The world outside is cold and dead
As I'm chasing butterflies
The world outside has passed me by
And here I lie in the sands of time
Skeletal and bare
Minnows swimming through my skull
A grinning sightless stare
Diving deep to find the source
Of the pretty mermaid song
The siren voice turns me off course
Now I drift in the duldrums
As I drown in shallow waters
I could breathe if I would stand
But here I lie lulled to sleep by sirens
Comatose in the sand
Too tired now to stay awake
I think I'd rather fade away
Leave all my dreams castaway
On the ebbing tide
Wake me up or let me die
Let me drown or save my life
Let the sea take these bones
And turn them into driftwood.
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 4:06 AM UTC
I will fail you,
I will fall.
Let you down just like before.
Everything I built will burn.
Broken dreams and broken trust
Crush the hopes you held so dear.
A shallow wave,
I'm so wind tossed.
I can't find my way.
A thousand nights I've spent right here.
A thousand times I've fallen down.
I spend more time in the grave
Than with the living.
What is wrong?
Why can't I change?
I'm always lost or in the way,
And so tired now,
I just want to die.
Because I'm so tired
Of my own tired out excuses.
And I'm so done
With this over played refrain.
I've rehearsed these lines
A thousand times,
But everything is useless.
No matter how hard I try, how hard I cry,
Nothing will ever change.
Can you find me?!
Do you still love me?!
Will you save me once again?
I spend more time falling,
Than I ever do on my feet.
Tell me! Please! Tell me!
What the Hell is wrong with me?!
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 5:39 PM UTC
I want to die tonight.
Leave it all behind,
Make a break with time,
And make a break for freedom.
Kiss the sky,
And take a look behind
The veil that holds the stars in place,
And ties us down to time and space,
Caught within an endless race...
I just want it to be over.
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 5:34 PM UTC
You make me high.
You're intoxicating.
I can't decide
Whether that's a good thing,
Or if all my mad rebellion
Is only a lie I keep telling
Just to justify
My compromise.
So hold me close tonight.
Don't ever let me go.
I don't care.
I just don't care anymore.
You fill me up when you lay me down.
In your arms... Let me drown.
You get me off
And you know I love it.
Want to ****
Come on, lets do this!
Done with all this dry tradition,
But is this just another repetition
Another fast escape from the truth?
Hold me close tonight.
Don't ever let me go.
I don't care.
I just don't care anymore.
You fill me up when you lay me down,
In your arms... let me drown.
Hold me closer,
Draw me in.
Awash in the glory of all our "sin"
Burn the pulpit,
Shred the pews.
**** the rules.
Apr 20, 2018
Apr 20, 2018 at 9:45 AM UTC
In a world of empty dreams
I walk alone.
In the dark where no one sees
I walk alone.
Alone among the barren trees,
Restless in my wandering,
The whisper of the falling leaves-
"Alone."
Fading to Nothing,
Here I am.
Lost in the wanting,
Empty hands.
Tired and angry,
Cold as stone,
I walk alone.
Rough and cold against the skin.
I am alone.
Hold me close and draw me in...
Alone.
Encase me in shroud of green,
Laid beneath the willow tree,
Love was never meant for me.
I walk alone.
Reaching for something
I cannot hold.
Something is missing,
Leaving me cold.
The leaves keep falling,
The cycle turns.
Dry up, die, and burn.
I lie down to die
With all these fading dreams.
One last time, I close my eyes,
Sink beneath the falling leaves,
Alone.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 8:55 PM UTC
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Feb 23, 2018
Feb 23, 2018 at 5:16 PM UTC
I feel heavy. Dark. The shadows of my past won't let me go. My demons are forever my companions. There is a constant war within me. I am a very very angry person. Mostly angry at myself. But I harm others in my rage. It's latent. Hidden. You don't see it. Or understand it. But you suffer from it. When I hurt you without thinking, that's the anger inside me. I don't know how to love you. I only know how to bleed. How to break. How to hurt. I am simultaneous a clumsy child and a raging monster. A ravenous wolf and a fear-inspired rabbit. I don't know how to live happy. I don't know how to handle peace. I'm like a lifetime drunk trying to function sober... I don't know how to live without the drug. My drug is pain, and I am lost without it. I feel dark tonight. And I don't know how to move towards the light.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 5:54 AM UTC
If the dream dies,
Will it ever fly again?
Head on, crash course,
Destination Devestation.
So step on the gas, Baby.
We're gonna fly or die
In glorious flames.
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 7:23 PM UTC
She steps into the room,
Timidity and grace;
Innocence and caution synchronized.
She feels you watching her
And quickly turns away-
But it's too late,
She's been defiled by your eyes.
She's just another pretty girl
On whom to feast your eyes-
Another helpless victim to your gaze.
It doesn't matter what she wears,
It doesn't matter what she hides-
The second you set eyes on her,
She becomes your latest prey.
A slave to your senses,
You mother ******* perv!
I hate you and all your twisted ways.
A ******* of duplicity-
A ravenous, worthless curr-
Twisted in your soul
And ****** up in your brain!
'Cause you've got X-ray vision,
And you **** her with your mind;
Defile her with your very gaze.
You strip her down and play with her,
Debauched within your mind;
Violated, objectified, debased.
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 2:46 AM UTC