I am in a middle of a war,
Between myself and my sanity,
Between all hate and anxiety,
In a hushed war that hides a scar.
Away from your sniffy grudge,
I have to camouflage,
With a cheerful facade.
Coz' this internal torment can't show,
I can't let them know,
That the one I lovingly married,
Is now the one pointing a gun at my head.
Jul 11, 2021
Jul 11, 2021 at 6:19 AM UTC
There are wounds
that never appears
on the skin,
But are deeper
and more excruciating
than anything that's bleedin'.
Jul 3, 2021
Jul 3, 2021 at 8:54 AM UTC
Torn between a rational mind
and a heart that's frail and blind.
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 5:42 AM UTC
It doesn't matter,
whether you're weak or stronger.
If you're a mother
your self no longer matter.
Even if you're wounded & broken,
you can't surrender.
You have to get up,
for your dearest son & daughter.
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 10:18 AM UTC
You lift me up,
So you can pull me down,
You sew my crack,
To tear me apart.
I trust you enough,
And disclose my secrets,
But you use it to discredit,
And wound me to shame.
I tell you all my broken dreams,
But you used it as an insult,
For me to lose confidence,
To feel unworthy and useless.
I told you of my grim past,
But you use it as an edge,
To mudsling and bring me,
Such pain & emotional turmoil.
I thought you are my better half,
But your harshness caused me distress,
Your lies bring coldness to my soul,
You never love me, not even once.
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 4:03 AM UTC
All-day sitting on the same old corner,
Unheard, neglected, and taken for granted,
Maybe speaking what was on my head,
Could make you glance at me one sooner.
I cracked a joke hoping to see you laugh,
But you just cringed without glancing at me,
I reckoned humor was not my forte,
I should've not opened my mouth for that bluff.
I spoke of good mem'ries and promises,
But you brushed it off like it's a thing to avoid,
A fleeting scene that was not enjoyed.
And I was left with only misery to caress.
Wasn't speaking the best way of expression?
Weren't my tears a hint of my desperation?
If words were not enough to voice out my depression,
Then can silence be the best option?
So back in my same old corner alone,
Still neglected and taken for granted,
I realized that saying what's on my head,
Was a futile way to get your attention.
Under the veil of my newfound silence
May your old oath with the judge resonates
A spurious word sealed with a ring
But all it brought was suffering.
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 3:54 AM UTC
Thanks for the struggle and pain,
If it weren't for these things,
My knees would never bend for humility,
My head would never look up crying for pity,
And my heart would never yearn for Your presence to reign.
In my weakness, Your strength is made perfect.
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 10:01 AM UTC
I purchase fantasy and found you here with me indeed,
The fruit of bitter lies rot, now new love is fermented.
You and I were alone in the cold damp night's remedy,
Your love devour pain as your embrace swallowed my body,
You open your lips and I imbued your thirst with kisses,
So you pull me close to your heart leaving no spaces.
We conquer the silent night with warmth and sweet moaning sound,
Thus, now 'til eternity we're inextricably bound.
Titillating blend of faithfulness and superb passion,
Was the adamant pillars of our untainted union.
Their rude jealousy ain't gonna shake and cause us trouble,
For in this night full of fiery love we're immovable.
With your bare body close to mine I whisper,
"Honey let me sleep this way forever,
' don't want to wake up in painful reality,
never!"
Nov 12, 2011
Nov 12, 2011 at 7:10 AM UTC
Your love,
Is sharper than the edge of the crescent moon
that was struck in my heart and i futilely mourn.
Glimpse of angelic dagger was your lies,
and you burried it deep within my eyes,
and now im blind.
Your love,
Is hypnotizing like the beauty of the moon above,
In the vague sight of my blindness you're a white dove.
Pain chastised me! tears drowned me! but i still love you,
For you're my heavenly poison that i can't resist through,
and now im weak.
I as your moon wanders beyond lim'tation
just to flicker my lil light even at your reflection.
Go run away from me as far as you desire, leave!
But when you're in need, it'll took only 1 glance above to give,
and you'll see me waiting for you.
Far above the grey sky i silently watch o'er you,
Tears frozed, blood drowned my crippled heart as i stare at you
With your new found happiness that's far brighter than me,
You have your sun now, so ill just force a painful glee,
and you'll see tears in me as i smile for you.
Far above the blue sky you look up and found me no more,
But you never care and thought I'm atlast gone for sure.
Your sun just blaze to its peak & covered me from your sight,
Now my love you're so blinded with her spurious light,
and you never see that i still light for you.
Far above the black sky and now that your world's down,
Now when your life's darker than the darkest night's lawn,
I'm your moon, gladly being a moon rather than your sun,
to give you light in your tragic night when your fake sun sets down,
and you'll see that I'd never will ever leave you.
Oct 25, 2011
Oct 25, 2011 at 5:46 AM UTC
I saw the vast size of the sea,
A replica of inf'nite tears i hide in me.
For smile's a mere facade of agony
swallowing my sanity slowly.
I saw the vast size of the sea,
Same size of my love for you i once carry.
But it's such an angelic dagger i insanely
struck into my own eyes and it blinded me.
I saw the vast size of the sea,
With maelstrom pain gnashing at me.
Now i know happiness 's such a vague illusion
that i blindedly gaze upon with desperation.
I saw the vast size of the sea,
With raging waves coming to crush over me.
With great fear i look above and found light
He whispered and the vast size of the sea
vanished from my sight.
Oct 24, 2011
Oct 24, 2011 at 10:38 PM UTC