Do you not feel the overwhelming presence?
Do you not feel the desire, the flame?
Do you not feel my energy being transferred to you?
Do you not feel my heart going out to you?
I won't ever get too far, because I couldn't be far enough.
Jan 15, 2011
Jan 15, 2011 at 8:31 AM UTC
""Was a flake, not much thought on intake, other than indulgence""
""Is not a flake, always thinking about intake, self-indulgent""
~~I know nothing about you, yet sometimes I let my ego blind me into actually believing I hate you~~
~~I have never met you, yet sometimes I convince my ego that you'd be better off alive than me, because sometimes I can't help but to hate you~~
~~You don't deserve that~~
~~I'm not above you, you are above me for me ever thinking any different~~
!!I don't deserve you!!
!!You make me feel like I'm going ******* insane!!
!!I can't stop thinking about it - I can't let myself win, or at least it seems that way. More out of compulsion than anything else, most unconscious and least beneficial, but most appealing some how... humans are ******* stupid!!
;;I am, am I;;
;;You are, are you;;
;;I am, are we?;;
;;We aren't as I am, we are as we are;;
;;I want nothing to want, I have everything;;
;;Maybe soon I'll be brave enough to be set free;;
Jan 13, 2011
Jan 13, 2011 at 4:23 PM UTC
I'm completely in complete need of nothing to feel complete,
It's this I love to feel but not always can I free my soul enough to attain.
I'm understandably paling in comparison to me, myself, but it won't stop stop changing.
I'm ridiculed every time I speak! Nobody hears by who, I guess its only me.
Why is it that I meet myself with such resistance before I stop and think about it?
I'm trained, brained into me, the train won't stop
Dec 27, 2010
Dec 27, 2010 at 7:11 PM UTC
I'm starving.
Staring,
Waiting,
Carving
My skin, waiting.
Wanting,
Wanting nothing at all,
Wanting only you.
I'm chewing on glass and drinking my thoughts,
I'm looking at you and it's scary.
But at the same time, it doesn't even matter.
It's all I can think about,
It's my will to care that I fear,
Not your will to leave,
Or my will to die.
Because willing or not,
Nothing doesn't expire,
But I've always firmly believed that together, we can keep each other's souls warm for as long as we please,
Until we fade, bleeding our minds into each other, our blood as one, our scars together fade, forever lost.
I want to know your misery, I want to know your demons, I want to watch you bleed.
Don't slow me down, stop me.
Don't stop me, hurt me.
Don't hurt me, unless you love me.
Don't love me, unless you do.
Don't want to want unless you want more, we can always expand our time.
Don't cut me open unless you want me to never let go.
Drown me in your eyes, just **** me already!
~(Are You Ready For A Miracle?)~
Dec 8, 2010
Dec 8, 2010 at 3:34 PM UTC
I love watching the red ooze down my cheek
Dripping onto my palms, I love your hate with a passion
I want you to scream your distaste with me at the ******* world,
Shake my skull until it cracks with your honest rage,
Your white-hot fire burning into my wrists,
That look that tells me "I'm going to rip your eyes out, and you're not going to watch"
Don't talk, don't talk..
Just watch, just waaaatch.
Well I, don't have no reason to say
I love you or I want you to stay.
But I know that I really do.
All I want is you,
Ripping me up!
Rip rip rip, you're making my dreams come true, one scar at a time.
Nobody else would do this to me, and I love you for it,
Grab my wrists with all your might and squeeze until my hands aren't mine
I want you to cut me open and smile about it for me :)
Dec 1, 2010
Dec 1, 2010 at 9:00 AM UTC
Things change
Things like to
like to change
change real quick quick quick too fast fast
fast faster
Blink once, twice
smile at you
you smile at me
I wish you knew
you say you do
I wish you knew
I know you don't
I wish you knew
I know I don't
I really want you to cut me
Bass reverbrates through us
We keep dancing
I'm going to cut you deep..
and I'm going to (you) like it
I'm sitting here
you're watching me
I'm thinking of you
You're doubting everything
I'm doubting everything
I'm bathing myself in ****** ecstasy
I love this monster that's ******* my brains out
I'm smiling :D
I I I want want want your your your ******* hate hate hate passion
Grip my throat and ******* tear
Rip this blade from my palm, and let all my joy out
I'd love you forever <3
Dec 1, 2010
Dec 1, 2010 at 8:41 AM UTC
My face, ripping
My mind, tripping
My focus, lacking
My trip, immaculate.
My gaze, fervent.
Cold as gas, wet as thought,
Wrong as rain, love is fought.
My soul is sharp, his tongue is deadly
Our hearts together, ring to a medly that doesn't have a point, only a purpose,
There to be, not to do, and doesn't need ANYTHING to do with you.
That's why he's always trying to get away from me,
but you can't run away from your own body.
That's why he's still here.
But you can't be in love with your own mind.
That's why he isn't.
But you won't hear this coming from him.
Like soft wind, wrapping around my shoulders,
Your ethereal touch makes me feel invisible.
I'm complacent just listening.
And that's why Spry doesn't like you.
You give him too much to love.
He sure is a child sometimes.
Nov 23, 2010
Nov 23, 2010 at 8:49 AM UTC
Normally, and in moments of weakness, I can't stand not knowing.
Normally, and in every other moment, I want to question it.
It's a good thing too, vanishing for a few
Coming back, hoping things are even better.
Staying positive keeps him frozen :)
I
Really think that
Things are going to
Surprise me. I'm already surprised. I'm still overwhelmed!
And I'm really glad
Because it's exactly
Fitting
Things are going to change
Why not direct flow in a warm direction?
Too bad I'm terrible at directions :)
I'm still so glad just to be able to know of you.
Red rose up and out,
White wind is coming down
Blue blanket bits blow away as
Silver shocks me senseless.
The white blanket here sure feels better this time around.
Especially since I'm going to try letting them both know that I'm done taking their advice.
They both smile when you come around,
I can actually hear myself for once.
Green feelings don't even bother me,
Honestly, I welcome them.
Tell me with your eyes something that will make me writhe,
Because no matter what, finding you isn't the problem.
Nov 23, 2010
Nov 23, 2010 at 8:24 AM UTC
There's a lot I don't know about a lot I want to,
There's a lot I know about that I shouldn't want to hear.
But I'm going to listen anyway, not knowing sadness is not knowing love.
You've got to be true to yourself,
And I don't wanna make you a liar.
I'm falling for you but I probably shouldn't be.
I'm asking for you but I probably won't be.
I'm losing for you but I'm okay with that.
I'm ready to catch you,
I'm dying to catch you.
But I know I need to be ready to just be silent,
Ready to know that I'm just here.
I'm ready to watch the pieces fly back together.
This feeling is growing, it's starting to hurt.
It's not a problem, I'm going to be happy for you.
I can't be selfish anymore,
I want you to flourish :)
Nov 18, 2010
Nov 18, 2010 at 8:18 AM UTC
Walk, keep walking.
Don't look up, keep walking.
Walk until the grass turns to dirt and the trees turn to shrubs.
Walk until the light dims, so barely alive, burning slowly.
Slower, walk slower
Look back, all you can see is nothing
The flame longs for warmth,
but my mind longs for release.
Please please understand this,
I don't want anything from anyone.
I just want to find that grin again.
You know you're going to keep walking.
It's that voice that won't go away,
and the voice that won't ever come back.
The smile that taunted you barely exists anymore.
Probably gonna keep walking.
Maybe you'll find some shadow friends out in the lonely desert,
they won't want anything from you. But that's what's missing.
You're only walking because you're afraid.
You're only walking because you're scared.
You're only walking because you have to.
But you don't need to.
Just give yourself some room to stop thinking.
Before I start walking, I'm gonna run and never look back.
It's only a matter of time.
Things are only growing stranger here.
I used to live in a white blanket of warm discovery.
And with our eagerness to inter-mingle our minds
infected with curiosity and room to smile,
We were so happy. We were at peace. We just wanted to smile.
Once again I return to the white land,
nothing is ever the same, of course...
But this is just ridiculous.
I miss the Gray.
THUMP BUMP THUMP PUMP
You're growing str(a)nger as you go farther
Maybe one day I'll meet myself again.
Nov 17, 2010
Nov 17, 2010 at 9:50 AM UTC