As I lay in bed
I think about you
I want to paint pictures on your back
Maybe a lilac sky
because
you always loved colors that sounded so different
Different like you
You are the sweet different kiss
Like the ones you get on the forehead from your dad as a little girl
A comfortable type of intimacy
You and me
One that makes you feel home again
I’m home again
With you
Why won't you come home?
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 2:43 AM UTC
I don’t want to put chains around your wrists
Attaching yourself to me
Because having stability in your stay will never give me the same stability as knowing
you want to
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 2:37 AM UTC
I see everything so much differently now that you’re gone. The wind has a sadness to it and the rain pours heavier. The world was perfect when I was with you, I saw everything so beautifully, The flowers bloomed in your very existence. And the clouds went in hiding and the sun came out when you smiled. When it was 50 degrees out just having you squeeze my hand made the weather change immediately, it then became a warm Friday morning in the middle of summer, even though we were smack in the middle of winter. Everything felt right when I was with you. Even when it wasn’t. Even when you caused tornadoes in my head, I convinced myself it was just a harsh breeze and soon we’d be back to playing under the sun. I was in the eye of the storm and didn't even realize it. And even now, when I see the chaos you created I'm still blinded by your beauty because you made my heart beat and stop with the blink of an eye. I. still. love. you.
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 2:35 AM UTC
Right in front of my eyes
I see you slipping away
As if i have butter on my fingers and I am holding onto you
And there I sit and hope to god the butter will turn to glue
As if that would be a tell tale sign from the universe
Telling you to stay
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 4:04 PM UTC
He was like music, his heart couldn't even beat without a melody
-S
Apr 20, 2017
Apr 20, 2017 at 2:40 PM UTC
They say when you are in a panicked state of mind you have to center yourself into the room in order to calm down
You were there one night
As my wildest emotions overrode me
You told me to count to 5 and it would all be over
Everything would be okay
1, 2, 3, 4... 5
It passed, those five seconds
They just
Passed
I began to use this method whenever I'd begin to go into an emotional frenzy
1, 2, 3, 4... 5
Things began to pass and I became to realize nothing could be bad forever
Especially after the countdown
Days passed between the two of us and things did not seem the same
As we sat in your car arguing about the little things
You said the words
"it's over, get out of my car"
I sat there
Shocked, panicked, so flooded with fear
So I began to count
1
you yelled at me, "STOP" you said
2
you wouldn't stop screaming "I'm done with this, I can't anymore"
3
you stopped screaming and began to pick up my purse and jacket to hand to me dismissing me from your car
4
you said "this will not pass"
5
it didn't
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 3:44 AM UTC
Thoughts of you keep flooding in
My heart has become home to a flash flood
I never fell so quickly for someone before
But you flow through me like water
Making me love the taking of the tides
When I used to feel like a piece of me was taken away
But now
I'm drowning deeper and deeper
In love
with you
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 3:30 AM UTC
you took everything from me
i can't even enjoy writing anymore
it's as if the ink in my pen is filled with poison
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 1:49 PM UTC
Superior people are theway they are because they have this misconstrued idea that knowledge is about power OVER people instead of just power
we can be powerful as a unit
-S
Jan 26, 2017
Jan 26, 2017 at 12:40 PM UTC