Every path I take leads me nowhere
When where I want to go is home
I wish that I could choose the right way
I'm sick and tired of being alone
All my friends and all my family
All those I ever cared about
They lie awake at night and miss me
But I can't reach them by this route
All my ghosts and all my memories
All those who were ever so devout
They all cry and weep tears for me
But I cannot look back now
And when all paths lead me to nowhere
And I cannot get back home
All my friends and all my family
Will have to be alone
And every song I sing is depressing
Every chord a minor sound
Every day i stand here missing them
But my feet won't leave the ground
And I'm not on my way to Heaven
I won't sleep in Elysium
I will not join my fallen kin
God above won't call me home
But if I gathered all the starlight
That I gazed upon on my way
The glow would just be strong enough
To turn the black to gray
Aug 18, 2016
Aug 18, 2016 at 11:36 PM UTC
If this Heaven
Then why do I feel
Like the devil is laughing
At my perfect little world
I have everything I want
More money than I can spend
I don't know any sadness
I can order away the rain
I've got plenty of friends
Though none are really close
I don't have to cook
And cleaning is a joke
The spotlight's on me
Just as I've always wished
But deep inside I feel emptiness
My house is very grand
My front lawn is perfect
The chandelier makes a statement
And the swimming pool is heated
I spend more money in a day
Than some make in a month
Nobody can tell me what to do
And that's the way I like it
But still I feel miserable
Consumed by loneliness
They say this is Heaven
That I'm living the good life
But I still feel forlorn
And I weep again for poorness
Because the money means nothing
All it does is buy me lies
And without it, I'm afraid my friends wouldn't care
If I lived or I died
The chandelier's lights are always burnt out
The grass is just painted that sickening hue
I'm running out of things to buy
I get sunburnt laying by the pool
I miss the sound of rain on the windows
And I weep for some wise advice
I do nothing all day
And make millions more
Than those who work day and night
I don't think this is Heaven
It simply can't be
Heaven wouldn't feel like this
Maybe it's Hell
All dressed up
Presented to look nice
But when you try to get a closer look
It's breath is still cold as ice.
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 8:03 PM UTC
When the stars disappear
And the sky fades to black
I'll still be here
Never turning back
When the cosmos collapse
And the Earth turns to dust
I'll wonder through the scraps
As the eternal must
My friends will move on
My family will perish
But dawn after dawn
My life will replenish
I'll fight back the pain
Because it's all I can do
The future will keep coming
The memories will too
The graves of loved ones
So near and dear
Will be worn by the Sun
Until they disappear
They will sink into the ground
Their scripts will be erased
But to life I am bound
Isn't immortality great?
I wish I could escape
From this endless cycle
The curse I would reshape
I would end my survival
But I wished for this
So I must see it through
Swim through the abyss
See infinity through
I know it will be hard
Full of anguish and hate
By it is too late
To undo my fate
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 8:00 PM UTC
Nine o'clock, it's time for bed,
Time to close my eyes.
The stars and moon have taken hold
Of the sky outside.
It's ten o'clock and I can't sleep,
Though I try and try,
All I can do is lie in bed,
Asking myself, why?
As eleven rolls around,
The minutes ticking by,
My life is so insignificant.
I heave a sad deep sigh.
Midnight comes and goes,
The night keeps getting darker,
And I just stare, wondering
If there is a greater power.
One rears its ugly head,
My eyes refuse to droop.
Maybe sleep will find me
When the hour hand strikes two.
But now it's three and I am lost,
Adrift in memories,
I wonder if there's anyone
Who truly cares for me?
Four comes and goes,
And by the times it's five,
I am utterly exhausted,
But I cannot close my eyes.
Six o'clock, the Sun is up
Another sleepless night.
Can no one tell I'm struggling?
It's right there in black and white.
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 7:27 PM UTC
In all your musings
has the thought ever crossed your mind
That Everest will
one day
Be nothing but a pile of dirt?
or the city that never sleeps
will close its eyes for good?
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 7:25 PM UTC
Outline me with purple
Let my imagination roam free
Dress me in blue
Add some stability
My skin should be yellow
So I can soak up the Sun
My lips could be orange
So I'm cheerful and fun
I want silver in my hair
So it shines like a star
Green for my nails
So natures's never too far
Make my words black
So they make an impression
Color my thoughts red
For they burn with a passion
I think white for my breath
So innocence flows through me
Brown for my nose
So I have some reliability
I don't want any gray
For I don't need depression
A bit of turquoise would be great
For I value communication
Don't forget pink
It's the most girlish color
But it takes a real man
To don it and walk taller
My bones must be indigo
So they provide me with structure
Draw my teeth magenta
For all the emotions I can muster
Make my aura gold
So I can always shine
Maybe throw in a little beige
Can I depend on you this time?
Ivory would suffice
For my eye color, I think
I always wanted them to look nice
And the calm of ivory is just the thing
I want the colors to belong to me
To live under my very skin
To swim and splash in serenity
And never begin to dim
So with your brush and pastel paints
Won't you please color me in?
Sep 7, 2015
Sep 7, 2015 at 11:04 PM UTC
Roaming through the twisted trunks
Of the jungle trees
High on the mist laden mountain,
Rustling in the undergrowth,
Searching for Life's bounty
In the dry, rusted dirt,
Chipping away at the mystery
Of your land,
Feral and free
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
No one can tell me who to be
No one can say who I am
I created who you see today
I built my life with my own hands
No one can say they own me
No one can stake a claim
I refuse to act as society's slave
I will not know such shame
No one can ever hold me back
No one can quench my fire
I will simply add more fuel, you see
I will glow to my heart's desire
No one has burned more bridges than I
No one has pushed away so many
I was stupid to give them all a chance
I have made too many enemies
No one thought I could do it
No one believed it when I did
I wish to Hell they had some faith
I wish they trusted the words I said
No one tried to save me
No one saw me slip away
I lived a life of solitude
I pushed through so much pain
No one ever doubts me now
No one thinks me a weak essence
I proved every one of them wrong
I earned my independence
No one dares dictate my life
No one braves the ice cold waters
I, myself, and me stick together
I don't need any followers
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 8:31 PM UTC
My future is all planned out
But not by me
My parents took it upon themselves , y'see
They want me to succeed
But not at something that interests me
"You'll never work a day in your life
If you truly love your job"
If that's so then I suppose
Work is all my life will ever be
If you won't let what I do
Be decided by me
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 6:41 PM UTC
Staring at the coals
Watching as they change colors
And burn into nothing
Enchants me
I can't tear my eyes away
From the bright flashes
Of orange
Licking and tasting the wood
It craves to devour
Smoke rises
Effortlessly
Into the night sky
Shivering
Moving closer
But not too close
For though its flames mesmerize
They can inflict pain
And ****** the breath from my body
So much suffering can come from
Trusting Fire
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 6:38 PM UTC