saun-hutchings
to dream big and get the truth to be out there. share your thoughts no matter how absurd they may be because all that matters is that the feelings that everyone has bottled up inside of themselves should be let out. turn it into words or art. i'm not writing to be agreed with all the time but to be heard and hopefully get down what has crossed peoples minds before
I've had enough of your pushing and pulling
You said that you have changed
But when
You said you were different know
But how
I just know that you are exactly the same
You still push and pull me of your own accord
You tie me down by empty promises
I had your back you let me fall
Take your lies because
This is our end
This is the end of me and you
This is then end of me hurting
This is the end of my support for you
This is me leaving
Don't call me back
Don't say empty words you don't mean
Don't come running when your in need.
Don't try to pull me back by your rope of lies
Just don't
Mar 27, 2020
Mar 27, 2020 at 3:05 PM UTC
Listen to the words that slip from my lips
Listen to the way my breath escapes
Listen to my heart pound
Listen
I listen to your words
I listen to your emotions
I listen to your wind
I listen to your pounding drum
But you say I don't hear you
I don't hear your cry
I don't hear that breath escape
I don't hear you beating heart
But in reality it is you
You who doesn't listen to my words
How selfish are you
You who can't hear my breath escape
Why do suffocate me
My heart pounds in my chest worrying about you about my job
Because you don't care if you tell the world about our frowned upon relation
You want the world to know of the things we've done
But what I want is silence
I don't want to hear the things you have to say
I don't want to listen to your breathing
I don't want to hear your heart beating
Because I need to listen
I need to listen to my heart
I need to listen to my breath
I need to listen to my emotions
I need to listen to the most important person
I need to listen to me
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 8:11 PM UTC
You were my first for almost everything
My first real kiss and not a drunk mistake
My first time
The first person I could see lasting
The first one I could see a relationship so deep
But you are the first one who can't make up your mind.
You can't say yes let's do this
You can't say I want to be with you and only you
You cant say you want to last
You are the first I have to really watch for because you can become the first to break my heart
You can become the first I don't want to lose
The first I want to hold so tightly
But the first I can see but don't want to acknowledge that you are slipping away from
You are the first that I want to stay with me.
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 9:58 AM UTC
Here I take a chance
A chance to say what I am
To not be judged but to be heard
A place I know my voice will rise
I am a christian
It means something different to everyone
Some is bad other are good and some don't care
But this is what a Christian is to me
I like to think of myself as a new generation Christian
What is this you may ask
Well let me tell you
It's someone who loves everyone
But isn't that what we are supposed to do you ask
I say it is but others say they do
They do but they say to hate those who are in same *** relations or are transgender
I'm not saying it is all
No not all indeed but some
But I love everyone
I believe that you should be who you want to embrace who you are
To shine through the crap people throw your way
Every life is precious but I believe you should have a choice if you want an abortion which I'm told is wrong
I'm for gay marriage because you love who you love and what I say won't change your mind
But does this not make me a Christian
Because to me the only things that matter about being a Christian are believing that Jesus is the son of God and that he died for everyone and rose again
And that you should love the sinner and hate the sin. Everything else just muddies the water
So I am Christian but I'm a new generation.
Jan 28, 2017
Jan 28, 2017 at 2:25 PM UTC
All my life I have had the toughest times
But I always smiled
I have never told my secrets
So they rotted my soul
I have never stepped out of line
I kept my place and stayed quiet
I never spoke wrongly
But I always made mistakes
I have been put down
But I have kept my head up
But what good did it bring
What things do I have to speak of
What gives the strength to smile
To keep my head up
To keep silent
To never speek wrongly
Where is this strength I find
Where did it go
Will it come back
Or will I stay exhausted
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 2:04 AM UTC
People Say my life is easy
And from the outside that may be true
They never know
The torture that is inside me
Though I'm smiles and joy on the outside
The inside I'm all the natural disasters
To take one look and think you know
Then to take and be for sure
Never wanting to understand
But always wanting to assume
That i have no worries
Troubles or doubt's swimming in my heart and head
Just look once more beneath that smile
Search the eyes to see my soul
Don't hold back due to fear
Just take one good look
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 1:52 AM UTC
I 'm scared of what might be inside me
Thoughts I have that are strange to me
Thoughts that seem to belong to another
These thought give me a shock every time
I don't know when they started
But I don't know when they'll stop
These thoughts that shouldn't exist
Have diminished a single bit
Where did they come from
When did they come
When will they be gone
Will I ever be done?
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 2:10 AM UTC
There once was a boy
Who looked at me with love
He was there by my side
But I blinked and he was gonna
No trace of him around
No words left in the echo
No clue as to where he's gone
No place to start a search.
A ghost leaves more behind
Than just a broken heart
The first love that could have been true
The right kind of guy just gone ****
At least my memories are happy
Nothing bad to come
Except for the pain of remembering
That he's gone for good
No one to ask where he's gone
No words to cling to for comfort
No item to hold in case of depression
Just an impression that he was once there
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 1:53 AM UTC
I feel as though I'm not wanted.
Treated like I don't exist
Pushed to the side like a broken toy
To collect dust for years to come
The words I say fall to the ground
Blocked by that barrier that was placed around me
No one to say the words
That will shatter the glass
Nothing is more wanted by me
Than a person to hear me again
To see me here on the side
To listen to the words that I say
To see a person care that I'm here
Instead of to think I'm broken
A person to know my thought
Than to ignore my existence.
Where is that person
I most long for
To be seen once again
Would be my salvation
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 1:46 AM UTC
Every time I say a word to you it's a lie
Any time I think a thought it's a lie
No matter what I do or say it's a lie
To you everything is a lie
You have lied to me
But I don't hold it against you
I lie to you it's the end of the world
I let go of what you did
I move on and say 'what's done is done'
But you cling tight to the words that fled my mouth
You say 'stop lying to me'
How can I stop when I haven't even started
How can I show you that that isn't me
When will you see the truth
Will you ever be able to let go of that past you hold on to for dear life?
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 1:36 AM UTC