sunny southwest skies might be graced with rain,
if you ask politely
bringing stinging droplets that kiss your newly blooming freckles
the hairs on your arm prickling like that of the local flora
and they may fawn
and they may swoon
the brevity enhancing its allure
it’s the season of the monsoon
gone as quickly as it arrived
careful that you aren’t swept away with it
and once the storm has been weathered
it all looks so starkly different,
contrastingly clear
whether you want it to or not
beautifully open southwest skies
agape and hungrily looking as if they could swallow you alive
to hold you tightly in a damp esophagus
ever so warm and ever so welcoming
Oct 18, 2025
Oct 18, 2025 at 2:09 AM UTC
I think even the stars would be overstimulating
so im seizing the silence
amidst the rise and fall of strange conversations
a newly discovered timbre
magnified by the still subtlety of it all
carried on the waves of the far reaching shadows,
the glow of outstretched, open palms
forever surrounded,
circled by their watchful eye,
we blink in tandem so we don't miss a thing
the ground a soft pillow and the clouds a heavy blanket
a bed that doesn't know sleep
despite the symphonic lull that wants to take me under
Oct 15, 2025
Oct 15, 2025 at 1:21 PM UTC
surgical precision, succinct slices
unnecessarily carved in my psyche
so much for that oath you swore
an affront to your patron saint Asclepius
invasive; searching for something nonexistent
stained scalpel forcing gnarled scars to bloom once more
always denigrating the symptoms of disorders you diagnosed
sections and segments for you to fix;
always so self-sacrificial
scolding and scalding in a way I began to see sentimentally
so long to sadistic doctors,
plagued by superstitions
I’ll stick to simpler self-flagellation
Oct 15, 2025
Oct 15, 2025 at 1:19 PM UTC
I want you to be sorry
and you never will be.
it's always the same
I want
and you deny
I want
and you lie,
but I know about lying
I'm adept.
exceptional in the field.
part of me thinks I learned from you,
part of me knows I knew the whole time.
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 1:16 PM UTC
poised, but not pristine
tender flesh exposed
the soft underbelly on display
trust incarnate
marked by claws they've neglected to retract
face burrowed in the crook of an elbow
accompanied by a soft purring
slinking around in the early morning
crying out in hunger
pawing and prying
wanting for more
Jan 9, 2025
Jan 9, 2025 at 12:14 AM UTC
he begs and he pleads
a boy who doesn't know what he wants
and if I want to be used
who am I to deprive an addict
what's a little money,
what's a little fix
to someone who is eager to give?
it's a cruel dichotomy,
the two of us dancing in different time
i do my best at the waltz
while you step in the past
not a symphony,
no harmony,
pure cacophony
Sep 8, 2024
Sep 8, 2024 at 6:59 AM UTC
sitting behind this white dodge caravan.
between the rain and the burst of the red stop light in front of me,
a reminder of an unscheduled opthalmologist appointment,
I can't see a thing.
I wonder what the driver would think if I pulled my car in front of him,
swerving over from the turn lane,
and speeding through the intersection.
would they curse at the rainwater I sent splashing on to their car?
the liquid connecting with a crash so loud they might flinch.
and when they heard my engine rev,
six cylinders,
0-60 just like that,
would they think me a drunk?
a fool?
an impatient, reckless, mess of a driver?
and would they be wrong, regardless?
but tonight it feels like I've never been more sober,
aware in away that makes my skin itch.
maybe it's the weather, I might wonder, knowing it isn't.
and when the light finally turns green,
after what might've been an eternity or just a few seconds,
and they drive past the scene of the accident,
would they think
"she deserved it".
Sep 8, 2024
Sep 8, 2024 at 6:49 AM UTC
i watched something that made me think of you
though you would not like the comparison
i heard something that reminded me of you
a song you showed me
you don't write me anymore
and I don't want you to
but I almost wish you would
i used to catch the glint of your eyes at the edge of my open window
"I can still see you even though you try to hide" you used to taunt
maybe you watched something that reminded you of me
I hope it was flattering
though I'm sure it wasn't
when you look towards the unsettled sea
is there a glimpse of the blue in my eyes
my laugh in the endless call of the seagulls
my heartbeat in the footsteps along the boardwalk
in the irritation from the sand caught in your sandals
in the pungent stench of saltwater that permeates the skin
part of me hoping it's you that I haunt
Sep 8, 2024
Sep 8, 2024 at 6:42 AM UTC
I could kiss your forehead
like you do to me
but I'd be confirming something
that isn't true
some kind of fallacy
an if:then statement
that seems simpler than it is
I keep myself at a distance that should be comfortable
close enough to touch you
but not close enough to mean anything
your fingers are stained by another
and mine are clean
manicured
pristine
but I cling to you
fingers tracing circles along your body
nails digging into your skin
and maybe you're tainting me
infecting me with your sickness
plagued by you
by something that exists without a cure
so I will have to endure
something I should be adept at by now
but you keep finding new ways to inflict pain on me
something with which I will have to make do
I want you to hate me
I think I need it
there's not another way I can see myself getting though this
hurt me and I'll hurt you
and I'll keep hurting you to the point of no return
Nov 6, 2023
Nov 6, 2023 at 3:54 AM UTC
my cat has become rather partial to you
and so have I
white fur on black clothes
it's glaring
a part of me that you can't get rid of
you'll wear me on your sleeve
and wherever else
so I'll wear you down
like a mortar and pestle
grinding and churning
you'll try to hide me
my bits and pieces strewn about in your wake
treading through in your thick boots
picking parts of me up only when you want them
but I need them
I'm lost without them
my replacement parts
and the greediness with which you handle them
Oct 27, 2023
Oct 27, 2023 at 4:17 AM UTC