The trees sing softly, my favorite song.
The murmurs of the willow oak
And of my heart beating.
The voices of my sisters
Tell me never stop running
Because as long as I run
Man only sees my shadow.
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 4:44 PM UTC
Revive this cold and riddled heart
She’s muted in a daze
Flame just one unembered spark
With a flash to set me ablaze.
When I lost my northern star
You found and brought me home
After many years of wandering
I know I’m not alone.
I know that just like a storm
You will rage and rage and pass
But even in these quiet moments
We know this will not last.
I’m thankful for your company
Because when we’re forced to part
Something stronger can bloom from the ashes
Of my cold and riddled heart.
Feb 13, 2019
Feb 13, 2019 at 10:20 PM UTC
It’s hard for me to open up
My heart usually reserved
Because bolted down by lock and key
Is how I stay preserved
For every part I’ve given away
There’s less of me to share
The curse to want to give myself
Is past what I can bear
I gave away my oxygen
Now it’s hard for me to breathe
What point is there in loving you
When tomorrow you could leave
Maybe someday you’ll look inside
And know every part of me
But until proven otherwise
I guard my lock and key
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 10:47 PM UTC
I never meant to let you in
Opening my door to someone just as confused as me.
I never meant to enjoy the words dripping from your mouth
Like honey, drenching my wings.
I fell for your soul that night
And your heart reverberating through my walls.
You pulled me closer, and I could feel it beating
Ready to march into battle.
Morning came, and so you stayed
You wanted to climb mountains.
So I dreamt of adventures with you
And believed the clear lakes in your eyes.
Sometimes I wonder what you’re doing
And if you’ve forgotten my name.
Words mean nothing
When they drip from empty hives.
I know that I won't forget
How perfectly you fit around me.
But even a perfectly tailored coat
Is sometimes torn in the seams.
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 9:55 AM UTC
I could see the light through my eyelids
Before I recognized your breath,
Orienting myself to your world around me.
The way you held me last night
Gentle but also on fire,
Burned into arm and lip.
Your closed eyes ignore the light
The same one that pierces through me,
Comfortable in this new place.
Everything is brighter in the day.
The familiarity is gone
Shedding through you as I open the door.
May 20, 2016
May 20, 2016 at 2:34 PM UTC
When there are no words left,
Read the story around me.
Because I can feel where you’ve been
And the moments you hide in each word.
But you don’t like being seen.
Like a spectre you wish to haunt my walls
And leave without the faintest sign,
Reappearing when you want to be held.
But how can I be okay with ghosts?
I can never reach out and feel if you’re real
Because when I think I feel you,
You’re gone before I can even grasp the air.
Apr 5, 2016
Apr 5, 2016 at 7:22 PM UTC
With him lying close beside me/
He took up the whole bed/
But now without him here/
He's still taking up my head.
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 11:00 PM UTC
It’s a simple kind of funny
How weeks spent figuring out
Titles and expectations
And ****** relations
Drag on and on.
Two people figure out what they want
And if they want what they want.
The frustrations and aggravations
Lead to that catharsis, what this is.
No more wondering and no more doubts.
But
In a brief moment of insanity
One person can decide for both
That this “isn’t working.”
One can force the other out of this
Mutual agreement.
So how mutual is it?
We love each other as long as I decide to love you.
Until your flaws scratch their nails against my skin
And I wonder who else could make me smile.
Unless
You beat me to it.
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 1:28 AM UTC
I’m going to warn you
That all I need is a promise
That I will never turn around
And wonder where you went.
You are going to promise me
That you don't plan on
Going anywhere
Anytime soon.
I am going to trust you
I am going to let you
Inside the part of me
Usually reserved.
I will show you all of the
Broken pieces left by others
And you will promise that
You can fix them over time.
I will let you show me your side of Boston
And we are going to go to brunches and museums and piers
And I will wake up in your arms, watching your smile
And I will laugh at you as you laugh at me laughing
And I will finally see how I can be, how guys can be
And I will fall deeply and crazily in love with you.
I’m going to warn you
That all I need is a promise
That I will never turn around
And wonder where you went.
You are going to promise me
That you don’t plan on
Going anywhere.
One
Day
Chaos
Ensues
And you will need to leave.
You will shut yourself away
Because you will feel the weight
Of the world fighting against you
And who you want to be for me.
And I will miss you greatly.
You will hide from the world
And from the love I want to give you.
I will finally see all of your
Broken pieces left by others
That you hid so well.
I’m going to warn you
That I can make you a promise
That you will never turn around
And wonder where I went.
I am going to promise you
That I don't plan on
Going anywhere.
Mar 31, 2014
Mar 31, 2014 at 11:21 PM UTC
There is something horrifically poetic
about lying beside him after the war.
Silent, the thick air surrounds us in a suffocating haze.
Not touching, I feel him breathing.
I feel him thinking.
We don't dare speak, as nothing more can be said.
Still in love, we must begin again
Together in separate rooms.
I hear him pacing there.
He comes back and settles behind me
And I feel him breathing on my neck.
A force that sustains him, like I never will.
Mar 26, 2014
Mar 26, 2014 at 10:16 AM UTC