Green grass, Dark sky's
Sick people, painful Goodbys
Bright days, empty nights
People dying, pointless fights
Confused children, careless adults
Child abuse, countless faults
Doing drugs, peer pressure
Teenage pregnancy, unprotected pleasure
The sarrow of love, a torn apart heart
True love, being dranken apart
Family's at war, betraying friends
As a new day begins, another one ends
Children pleeding, parents leaving
Its just another shot, who ever knew it would be so ******* hard to stop!!
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 11:36 PM UTC
*“As for Charles – he likes girls. If he’s drunk, I’ll do. But – just when I’ve managed to harden my heart, he’ll turn around and be so sweet. “
“You like him a lot, don’t you?”*
The night crumbles to dust as I trace
every single crease, every nook, every edge of you.
I drink you in, you drink cheap wine:
you only kiss me with alcohol in your blood,
you cannot stomach me without
the drugs.
A pile of cigarette ash on the floor,
broken glass. Shattered ice cubes and
cigarette butts.
It’s a scene of decay; you and I
could only survive if you whispered
sweet nothings and I let you gut
me. You lead me on and I always
slip, and touch you and believe
this time will be the time you stay,
this time will be the time you remember last night
morning come,
this time will be the time
I
am
the
one.
It rains the first time and there’s a bottle
of scotch; we play cards; you’re drunk:
I strip you off; tonight you smile; tonight
you will not mind if I touch
your jaw
your lips
your waist
and below
and your heart
no – never your heart.
Then it’s a matter of time.
You always come when you need me and I
can never refuse to be the one
who lets your tongue
explore my mouth
if only drunk
if only for a while
if only for the night.
I’m there. I will do. For now.
I kiss
your lips
your throat
your neck
your collarbones
and down – way down – below
and your heart
no – never your hear.
You twist me round your little finger and I
would die and die and **** and die
a thousand times
to have you look at me and say
I’ll stay tonight.
My Charles.
No – never mine.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 4:23 PM UTC
Is it true what they say?
That you can truly change your old ways?
Is it true what they say?
Once a cheater always a cheater?
After a lie has left your lips
Can you take it back with a kiss?
Once the truth is unraveled
And all your lies are reviled
Can you beg for forgiveness?
And hope the pain that's been caused can heal?
Can you pretend is never happened?
Tell yourself so many times that it will eventually be forgotten?
Can I truly be a better person that I am?
Fix myself and beg for redemption?
Is that how it works?
Repent for your sins?
Is that what they meant?
I can't help to think that this is who I am
A soul searching for something that has no hope of being found?
Maybe I don't want to be found
Maybe I content in tragedy
Is it true what they say?
There's no going back the other way.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC
I never meant for it to go this far
I never wanted to end up in the back seat of his car
I thought I could be strong
Do what was right instead of wrong I only wanted to feel noticed
It's a dark twisted game
that women like to play
We bite are lips and sway our hips
Looking to attract our next unsuspecting pray
I used to play this game
I knew all the moves
Everything right to say
Once I met you
I wanted to change my ways
I felt content and happy for once
Needed, loved,and safe
You see sometimes you want to change your old ways so badly Your past mistakes turn into self hate
I told myself I would ch ange that you were enough for me this time
That I would not stray
And I believed that until the day
He walked into my life and wanted me to play
I thiught that you were enough for me this time
That I would not stray
And I believed that until the day
He walked into my life and wanted me to play
I never meant for it to go this far
I never wanted to end up on the back seat of his car
But the temptation was so sweet
I never wanted to cheat.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 3:52 PM UTC
Dear pills,
I eat you everyday
Sometime to take away the pain
To take away what my life has become
Please oh please just let me be numb
I never wanted to end up this way
After watching my mom pop them day after day
Oh dear pill please take me away
I'm too fat, annoying sad all the time
Why is this pill making me happy I feel skinny, loved, so alive
Ill just take one because my tooth hurts
Then another for my headache
Oh wait my backs is sore
I forgot what Is hurting thanks for taking away the pain
Oh dear pill I'll have another just in case it comes back
' no I'm fine I promise'
Is a lie I will say
' babe its not candy'
Is what my man will say
He doesn't understand the feelings that haunt me day after day
The depression will always stay
'Just give me one more
I promise I will stop'
Tomarrow I won't need them
Tomorrow I'll be strong
Well tommarrow has come
I'm no longer feeling numb
My arms,legs,back,head,hair hurt
I don't want to move
My heart is racing my eyes are throbbing
Please dear pill I need one more to get through today
I'll give you anything you want
Money,love, my heart and soul
Just please take it, take it all
Just take away my pain.
Dear pill why did I take you
I feel so ashamed
I'm toxic to my loved ones
I don't know why they stay
They don't no how bad this habit is
Because I say I'm okay
I need help please help me
Please dear pills oh please just go away.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 3:46 PM UTC