Feels like the walls of life are caving in
Is a lie a lie,
If the liar believes it to be true?
Because if not
Then does she really believe
That I am that unintelligent?
I know a lie when I hear one
And if I do not
I have the means to fact check
I wish there were an easy way out
But in life there is no easy way out
Only outs that that lead to a longer path
Back in again
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 9:05 PM UTC
Passionate you are
But patience you do not seem to possess
You're not willing to accept
My heart, mind, and body
Are not yet ready
If we began it all now
I'm so afraid it will all be premature
Your lack of patience
Is so very immature
The way I see it
I am worth the wait
If we are meant to be, truly
Then we are worth the wait
So stop the clock
And when I am ready
Let it all go and we begin
In time you can see
What He has in store
Right now it seems so far away
But in the right frame of mind and time
So sublime
Sep 13, 2013
Sep 13, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC
Open your eyes
And please begin
To see me clearly
Here I stand
In front
Of you
And only you
I'm willing to
Give it all
Or nothing at all
To you
And only you
Don't you realize
What this means?
Put simply
I'm in love
With you
And only you
Sep 13, 2013
Sep 13, 2013 at 10:18 PM UTC
Maybe memory
Is my biggest enemy
The hurt they caused
When a phrase I read
Causes me to pause
And remember the hurt within
That awful time when
I caused myself the most damage
Words that came out thoughtless and rude
But what hurts the most
Is the good memories always fade
While day by day
The bad are pressed into my mind
And somehow
I allow them to stay
I just want to forget
Even with the knowledge
That they had a part in who I am
Today
They have shaped me
Sometimes created self-hatred
But when it is all said and done
Maybe my greatest enemy
Is also my closest friend
Jul 28, 2013
Jul 28, 2013 at 2:19 AM UTC
Why write of love
When I am not yet sure
If I believe
Is a heart racing to no end
Mean you are in love
Because I am not sure
Does not lust
Cause a heart to race the same
So then are lust and love
One in the same
I am not so sure
But yet my pen indents the paper
And then my fingers hit the keys
Is my subconscious
Trying to tell me something
Should I believe in love
Even if I am unsure if it really exists
Past a fleeting sense
Should I write of love
When each strike of my pen
Feels like a betrayal
To my logical side
Love if you are real
I mean really alive and real
Please find me sometime
And stay a while
I want to know you personally
I want to start as friends
And then one day
Really look at you
And fall into your eyes
As we fumble together
In this rollercoaster ride
Love be real!
And then
Please answer me
When you have time
Dec 2, 2012
Dec 2, 2012 at 12:43 AM UTC
Caught in the middle
It is where I find myself now
I love you
And I also love him
Why do you force me
Into a boxing match that I cannot win
Doesn't anyone care about me?
You say I cannot understand
The feud goes far beyond my bounds
Still I am in this collective net
Cut me free
Then you can speak of how
I will never understand
I have listened to enough
I know enough to know
I am caught in the middle
I am pulled taut
In a battle that is not my own
You dragged me in
To watch the punches fly
Sometimes I wish
I could shrivel and die
I love you both
Is that not enough,
Not okay?
I cannot chose just one
Because when it comes
Down to it
I am just a child
Stuck in the whirlwind
Of years of misplaced words
And anger I cannot agree is right
For either of you
So cut me free
And fight your own battles
And allow me
To have my own separate life
Dec 2, 2012
Dec 2, 2012 at 12:31 AM UTC
On A snowy day
My heart took flight
I am not sure
If those feelings that I felt
Were completely right
With love you may never know
One day
What you feel is so right
Then years later
Your soul and heart break apart
Then that love you knew
Is lost in the blizzard
You are left with a cold frozen heart
But on that snowy day
My heart took flight
No matter if the love would last
Or like the winter
Was only a season
To come in a flash
And cause awkward stumbles and firsts
Then move out of sight
Either way
That day I fell in love
And no matter
If I can know the probability that it will last
I choose to love
And be loved back
Because like winter
Among all the fright
There is beauty all around
And warmth to be found
Somewhere just beyond it all
So I choose love
However long it chooses me
Nov 13, 2012
Nov 13, 2012 at 8:28 PM UTC
So high
If I jumped
I might even reach the sky
Then come back and touch my toes
Those thoughts don’t reach me now
I am high as a kite
And light as a feather
I have broken free
From the shackles
They had bound
My hands and feet
I dug within
I found my strength
I have broken free
Don’t try to limit me
Not even the sky’s my limit
I can do anything
I have found someone
Always at my side
Even when I hid
In the darkness
Where His light does not go
Not without a plead
To be set free
An agreement to bow
At his feet
Where he lifts me up
I am so high
I could fill a balloon
Then still return before noon
I have found my freedom
He has given me the will
And the will is free
I accept it
I am tired of thoughts
That tell me I am worthless
The people that
Refuse to understand me
Who don’t want to
Properly meet me
So high
I feel I can fly
And return with a sigh
This landing is not permanent
The world is my oyster
And the heavens my pearl
He has claimed me
Back into his arms
I will float
It has always been my home
Even if for a short time
I chose a trashed motel
Hear my voice!
Can you hear the patter
Of my heart?
As he brings
It to a brilliant restart
Why settle for less?
When I can have the best
Hear me now
I need you forever
No matter what tries
To pull me away
You are my lifeline
And I refuse to ever let go
Hear these words
I am yours forever
So high
I hit the stratosphere
And continued farther to space
And made it my
Permanent home
But I will wait here
As He prepares my home there
Aug 4, 2012
Aug 4, 2012 at 8:49 PM UTC
Say you’re sorry
I know it was in the past
But the words you said today
They last and last
So abrasive
You called me a fool
And when I volley back
You said, “I am an adult
and you are a child.”
Well, you want some respect
Forget that
You told her you hit
And you get hit back
So what were your words
But a punch in the gut?
You tell me to get out
Of your face
No chance for me
To defend myself
You yell your loudest
Until I am lost in the sound
So I write this poem here
For a chance to speak
For a chance to defend myself
And you know the saddest part?
As in the past I will apologise
After I wipe tears from my eyes
And stew in the hurt from the fight
You will accept it
But no apology will be returned
Because you are the adult
And I am but a child
And everyone knows
That the parent never
Has to say they’re sorry
I’m sure that comes
From the Bible
But what about
I Timothy 4:12?
Maybe you should
Take a look
I’ll say it now
And later to you
I am sorry
I brought up the past
Like I said for me
It lasts and lasts
But you know the reason
The reminder still bothers you
Because you feel the guilt
So maybe I was wrong
But you were too
But the real difference
Between you and I
Age is an important number
But the real difference
Is I will say I'm sorry
And you..?
Jul 10, 2012
Jul 10, 2012 at 9:05 PM UTC
I am only eighteen
What do I know of love?
Never been kissed
Or known what it is like
To be so missed
That upon his return
I am swept into his arms
And he is so glad
That I did not fall to harm
In his absence
I may not know
The feelings that
Might appear
But that does not mean
I am naïve to these feelings
Slowly building inside of me
I see his face
And my heart begins to race
Some might call it a crush
Maybe so
I am in no rush
To discover if these feelings
Will be returned
Or if my heart will be stomped
And left to beat into dirt
I am not too young
To realize I might
Very well need him
And this first taste of love
Or just a fiery crush
It scares me
But despite my age
And the fear
I need to know
If this is love
Or just a young woman’s
Pathetic crush
Apr 3, 2012
Apr 3, 2012 at 10:56 PM UTC