sandra-kosgey
I am Sandra J Kosgey. I am young at heart and spirit. i love writimg and reading poems since it takes me to.the most beautiful and imaginable places. I invite you to read my poem and promise to keep spicy and out of this world. Follow me and experience magic! Enjoy.
there are a million reasons why I love you
but also
no reason at all
Jul 22, 2016
Jul 22, 2016 at 11:43 AM UTC
What is reality?
I am a flower;
a beautiful, white-lipped daisy
Just unfurled into the world.
No rips, no tears. Not yet.
People stroke my velvety petals carefully and cautiously,
Careful not to break me.
Don't break me.
CRUSH ME.
I will just reform into a
****** white velvet mess in the dirt of stars.
May 15, 2016
May 15, 2016 at 12:41 AM UTC
Sometimes
I still
Think of you
Only hundreds of miles away
A train took me away
So far, far away
To a new day
I regret to say
That even though mostly
I've forgotten
Let go of the past
Finally
Some days I think about you and
Us
The happy and the sad
The times we snuggled up together
In the morning before you had brushed your teeth
So you refused to kiss me
But I still stole kisses from you anyway
And then sometimes
I remember the breakup
And how ugly it got
And how cruel we became
Slandering each other to our friends
And calling each other names
So I wonder if it was true love
Like we said it was
And even if the onlookers disagree
I think I know
That we loved each other, maybe, once
I fear intermittently,
I get terrified
Of the thought
That I will never fall in love again
With someone else
The way I fell in love with you
And some alien longing
That I try so eagerly to repress
Is still beating in my chest
Some wish born 6 years ago
When I was so young
And we held each other in our arms
And I told you I loved you
And you got so excited, you almost cried
And you kept telling me again and again and again
"I love you. I love you. I love you!"
And then eventually,
Months later
those words evaporated
As we separated
And even though we claimed to still love each other
I could no longer find a genuine love in you
And I think it had left me too
Only to be replaced by selfishness and hate
I have
This weird dream
Two people sitting at a screen
One expressing her soul
The other receiving,
Reading
But where does this knowledge go?
My intention is to move your soul
But does it fail?
Sometimes I still think of you
And I find it unwarranted
But I can't help myself from sinking back into the
Warmth of these memories
The nostalgia brings me ease
It takes me back to a time
When I still held hope in my youthful heart
Before the trauma reshaped me
Before the disease
Of my identity
Re-made me
Into this cynical, skeptical being
Who can't receive relief
Sometimes I experience
A vestigial grief
For everything I once had
That I took for granted.
May 13, 2016
May 13, 2016 at 1:29 AM UTC
I feared to feel
My soul too young to resolve
Cold as snow,the tale of my heart
Bitterness and anguish the tune of my music
Then paths crossed with Him
A teacher to my heart, a new rythm born
A wave of the most pure
Yet happiness braced with fright
The freedom too unreal
A deadly ring in mind, was i playing too naive?
Mama's story, Cousin's story
Where they felt solitude when love ran out
I couldnt, I shouldnt
Forced to forget
Sorry doesnt mend this
I was a fool to believe
The story unfinished
Maybe we will meet and make history
When the heart is brave
Brave for love.
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 12:58 PM UTC