i think we're both afraid.
i don't know what you're afraid of
but i'm afraid of putting my heart out on the line
it's been broken before even when i wasn't trying
and if it makes any sense i feel like if you broke it
it would be beyond repair
because i feel more for you than i've felt for anyone before
i'm afraid of telling you how i feel and you not feeling the same
not because of the rejection
but because i never let people in
and to think that i let you in only for you to decide to knock on another door
seems like too much to bear
i'm afraid because i've never done a brave thing in my life
and i can't imagine taking this step without knowing how the story ends
but most of all i'm afraid
because this could be everything i've ever wanted
and the sheer magnitude of it all
is the scariest thing i can imagine.
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 7:05 PM UTC
I won't think of my mistakes as wasted time
because every wrong choice that seemed right at the moment
every lapse in judgment led me
to you.
it's almost as if I had to fight through
the insanity and clouded judgment to
find you.
to realize that all the work and stress
i felt in the past never existed
with you.
the ease of walking beside you
in silence
only listening to the sound
of your breathing
and watching the rise and fall
of your chest
the unparalleled joy i feel
when i hear you laugh
it was always easy
but now the hardest part is letting you go
hoping that we can lie beside each other again
that my hand will still fit perfectly in yours
as i look back on our journey to each other
i don't curse the time with others
the forced, unsuccessful attempts
because those struggles brought me
to you.
and no matter how brief our time together
i'll cherish the peace my heart felt
when i realized
it was you.
Sep 16, 2014
Sep 16, 2014 at 7:17 PM UTC