sam-lauzon
Hi welcome to were I let my thoughts go wildly into the web.You may call me Sam and use they them pronouns please. I love drawing, dancing, singing, and writing poetry. If ever you want to use any of my poems for something, please please please credit me that would be just swell! hope all of you have a lovely day! / Sincerily , This dork right here!!!
they were told to stay still
they were told to stay quiet and not cause a fuss
they were raised to be polite
they were raised to be fragile
they asked to be treated with respect and kindness
they needed nothing but love
they wanted someone to understand them
they would do everything to let you know they treasured you
they were told they were boring
so they started to lie and make things more interesting
they were told they had no worth
so they would try and prove everyone wrong
they were repeatedly told they were not good enough
so they tried their best to be the best they could
they loved and wanted to be loved in return
so they wait for someone who would do so
they were put in stressful situations
so they flourished in an anxiety disorder
they were told to shut up to end other's anxious false
so they started following the rules that were given
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 11:11 PM UTC
I am a pathetic distraction
A mild little shelter for any in need
I am the person who should tell no lies
I am a ghost of the build up
I am the sight of a shadow
I am one not permitted for opinion
I am one bound from the rules that have been given
I'll be invisible to any who wish me to be
I'll be deaf for all who wish to spread the words of rumors.
Ask me where i'm going
Nowhere
People can't seem to understand my existence
I get dragged by the thoughts that over think for themselves
I make complications
I make mistakes
But I will not be permitted to be labelled as a human
I am nothing
Nothing special
Nothing extraordinary
I’m the nothing that will bore you
I’m the nothing that will raise hell
I’m the nothing that wants to be someone’s everything
I’m the nothing you’ll forget
I’m the nothing that has been taken for granted
I’m the nothing that should never be left alone
I’m the nothing filled with expectation
So I will apologize for nothing
I will regret your disappointment
In the end my real goal is to figure this out
Since this story wasn’t written for nothing was it?
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 2:37 PM UTC
These four boringly brilliant walls have kept me safe
The thoughts have come through the cracks in the ceilling
But it was always these four walls
I'm feeling small again
The paint had started to chip off when I began highschool
And the window lets all the words get back into my head
Its really hard to spend hours in bed just thinking
My tears seem to be the foundation of this very room
Its funny how hard I try to get out with the simply bland door
I always shrink back into this pitifull room
And the dust gathered in the corners is disgusting
All my problems are written on the hallow walls
For every little moment that granted me the right to hide
For every second my headaches got worse
For all the big adventures I was not willing to touch
There was always these four walls and me
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 1:35 PM UTC
Smoke has filled my lungs
Water had taken my eyes
Fire had burned my soul
Dirt has blocked my ears
Light seared through my fingertips
Love stained my lips
Hate scared my mind
Death is my shadow
Life is in my dream
Flowers devour my hair
Fish steal my teeth
Splinters of wood have shredded my feet
Glass shards have replaced my bones
Diamonds stole my minutes
Rocks have treasured my heart
Feb 11, 2014
Feb 11, 2014 at 9:59 PM UTC
Its easy to sink
Its hard to watch you drown
When I can keep my head up, Or I just think
That I can, even when I'm down
But its hard to be your life boat
When I can sink oh so easily
So these are the simple words I wrote
When I try and help quietly
Its difficult to watch you in misery
So I asked if you needed a hand to hold
Because your tears can be seen clearly
Are you ever uncontrolled
By the sickness
That fills your lungs
Such a terrifying liquid
Depression controlled you ever since you were young
Jan 30, 2014
Jan 30, 2014 at 6:24 PM UTC
She was worried over her make up and clothes
He thinks she may have a petty crush on him but no one really knows
That day he and she were going to a dance
He decided if the time was right he'll give her a chance
She looked so beautiful in her deep red velvet dress
And she was planning on confessing her love to someone so she dressed to impress
He saw her walking his way
He chuckled changing his mind thinking 'Not dating her no way.'
Her heels clicked to the sound of the beat
He gave her a glare with a way so discrete
She took a breathe
He got ready to give the good old rejection speech
When she walked passed him
And then the lights went to a dim
The music began to be slow and enchanting
And she walked up to the person she loved still smiling
Everyone around finally got the clue
Who the mysterious crush was as she said 'May i have this dance with you?'
The first couple began to walce so effortlessly
He did not understand how they shared such intimacy
The crowd of friends cheered as the two danced glad they could finally dance together in public
There was no more pressure, for this dance was only filled with a great wave of romantic
He stood there in aw
As he could not believe he wasn't the love but the one left behind as everyone saw
While the two figures swayed on the dance floor
He began to anger yelling at her while she had to ignore
This was her moment and it was not going to get wrecked by some guy
As selfish as he wanted the girl he was going to reject loved someone else did not sit with him
So she danced never looking at him nor looking grim
They had kept it a secret for so long now all they could do was dance
The two girls were in such a loving trance
Jan 25, 2014
Jan 25, 2014 at 5:40 PM UTC
Its so warm in this room
But why are my limbs trembling?
Tears are rolling down in this bright room
The hysteric's kick in and rushing
Searing pain in my chest
And gasping for air is getting difficult
Locking myself in this bathroom while i'm getting so stressed
Family is on the other end of the thin wall remembering my thoughts are not so innocent
It wells up in my head what everyone calls danger
Then there is no more reactions, completely disconnected
My body is now like a stranger
The worrying thoughts targeting my daily life as expected
Trying to keep the world out with music
With all the maddening loss
What is with this endless panic?
Its just another big anxiety attack I have to come across
Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 9:17 PM UTC
This is the war, of a girl, who came to this world with no oxygen in her lungs. She survived as little as she was with her arriving three months early. With a beautiful twin to fight the battle with her side to side.
Men couldn't keep their hands off of her. Her mind was a ticking time bomb of thoughts, then she went to highschool. With a few paper cuts and scrapes from a boy who granted her first kiss.
She met a girl, She fought for this girl treasured her adored her as much as she could. Then her heart got shot. She could not breathe for the longest of time. It left a big scar on her heart and the new found scars on her leg that were no longer papercuts.
Then she met a boy, as he learned to love her, the scars began to fade ever so slowly. Then there was an ambush of emotion breaking the little scared heart she had left. She walked around in the ruins of the battle ground as her mind held the war zone.
Lets see if the war will end with someone new and with no more battle scars leaving her with true love and peace.
Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 9:19 PM UTC
My delicate peace has been shattered
While my heart went on a rollarcoaster trip and got completly battered
I cannot sleep at the thought of missing you
Or of the thought of the secrets that I kept turned to be true
Sleep has disapeared
Who thought I got bored
They tend to talk badly
Too bad they all look to each other so sadly
The words are haunting me again
I just need to stop my brain
Its not as easy as it looks to no longer dream
When the nightmares get so extreme
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC
I love you
Three tiny words that mean so much
I love you
They are for family, friends, partners, and pets
I love you
Is the thing that can give you a big smile
I love you
Can tear you to shreads
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 10:42 PM UTC