At First you seemed different from all the rest
You really had me intrigued
But under the surface
Way down deep
I found the real you
I guess we just were't meant to be
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 12:44 AM UTC
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Clawing its way out of my soul
Out of the deepest darkest pits
The cruel unnerving voice returns
Making sure I lose my grip
Tearing down my happiness
Taking over my everyday life
An endless stream of negativity
Each word cuts through me like a knife
***Your all alone in this world
Your friends have left you for dead
They lied, betrayed and hurt you
Your better off with just me instead***
As true as the words seem
Your the one who drove them away
You made me lock down all my emotions
I was happy before you came
***Were you really happy tho?
Surrounded by all those "friends"
You knew the truth behind each one
So why did you even pretend?***
He's merely speaks the truth
I pretended not to see
I thought maybe if I accepted their faults
Perhaps they could love me for me
***So in the end you knew
You blamed it all on me
I was willing to playthe scrape goat
Cause all I wanted was for you to be free***
Why does my freedom come at a cost?
Its the cold hard truth of reality
But am I any better off knowing now
Was this really the key?
***If not now then when?
Would you continue living a lie
Would you rather have them say it to your face
Then secretly stab you in the back***
***We both know they wont ***** their hands
Nor will they tarnish their image
Its better being one step ahead
then waiting for them to finish***
I'm standing in silence all alone
Watching my friends continue their lies
I've plastered on a fake smile and grin
But all I want to do is cry
Maybe it seems better to be one step ahead
To protect myself from getting hurt
But blocking out the truth and actully being happy
Doesn't sound as bad as being an insecure little introvert
***I guess its true
What people say
In situations such as this
The phrase***
Ignorance is bliss
Is truly quiet befitting
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Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 2:35 AM UTC
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Hold back the tears
Hide your fears
Keep up that smile
its all going to be fine
Curl into a ball
Safe under the covers
Shield your ears
Close your eyes
The world is scary
The world is dark
But the world is also beautiful
No. Stop. Its an illusion
Don't trust anybody
They will surely leave
Fight for them
But they don't want me
let them go
But then I'm all alone
Surrounded by lies
These people play their games
Loose yourself in the moment
And for a second you can be happy
Take off that blindfold
And you see who's truly there
There's nobody around
Just you
within your own pit of despair
I'm lonely
They all pretend
Its all false, its all fake
Its true isint it?
You dwell in your self pity
You push people away
You dont show your true emotions
Then you still expect them to stay?
So in the end
Who else is fake?
Who else is playing pretend?
Cause surely you can see now
Your just like them
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Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 8:32 AM UTC
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Heart strings
oh heart strings
why must you pull on these things
You get caught
Get torn apart
Its completely for naught
You make me cry
Make me want to die inside
You condemn me to this fate
I left you
You didn't leave me
Yet the words I hate you **** me
I shouldn't feel this way
Like being left on display
In this shameful way
Could the fool have thought
That my pride was bought
Simply by saying sorry
My Hearts distraught
Its destroys my train of thought
How could you say that
Did you think
Things like that would be funny?
Just leave me be
Hate me
Despise me
Resent me
But still
Selfishly
I wish
you would
Love me
Mar 22, 2018
Mar 22, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC