I've lost my sense of happiness
I've lost my point in life
As I stare upon my phone screen
Not a single message lights
And I cry and I cry
Dont stop me
From attempting to fill this void
I smile and I smile
Dont fault me
For letting myself be destroyed
I'm alone right now
Watching it all pass me by
As people change and move on
I stand idoly to the side
Its tearing me apart
Demon clawing at my soul
Dragging me down into the abyss
Buried deep below
These chains tightening
Its harder to breath
Don't try and save me
Its pointless as I have the key
Its comforting these shackles
As at least I have a place I belong
When the world around give me no purpose
Its me that has to somehow live on
Even when all the friends I have leave
And I've been beaten and deceived
I've always been alone
There is no one I can trust
A mere passing fancy blinded by lust
And it appears to me I've grown too reliant
On the birds that perch upon my window
Keeping me company but only for awhile
Before flying away back into the sky
Where they belong
Unlike the caged bird with her wings clipped off
Singing softly to those who listen
while the owner merely sits back and watch
In the cage she is happy
As she knows no other life
Unlike the free birds
Who know how to fly
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 9:33 PM UTC
I found you.
Different. Imperfect.
A sad and sickly child
alone in a faceless world.
Bland with naïve thoughts
and clumsy manners.
I found you.
Alike. Perfect.
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 8:34 PM UTC
You mind your steps
after you've stumbled.
You miss your home
after you’ve left it.
You value your health
after you’ve been sick.
But you can’t enjoy life
after you died.
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 8:34 PM UTC
you terrify me
because i know that in years to come
when i am finally happy and settled down,
you will come along,
and i wont even second guess walking
away from that life to be with you.
to be broken all over again.
- Leah
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 8:33 PM UTC
Take my heart
Break it in two
Crumble it to pieces
Its okay I want you too
Tell me pretty lies
Syrup dipped candy
You're words have such sweetness
Keep on drinking that brandy
Beat around the bush
Play you're little games
Run wild and free
Be sure to fasten my chains
Kiss that other girl
Play me like an upright base
Feed me those excuses
Let the tears pour down my face
Allow me to feel the love
Thats as plastic as that grin
False sense of security
Call it my original sin
Take another trophy
Place it upon your shelf
Right next to the rest of them
I'm sure your proud of yourself
Throw me away once at the end
Once you've had your fill
Just like the rest of them
I'll tumble downhill
I'll cry out my heart
Desperately want you back
But just like the rest of them
I was just another past time snack
I'm stupid I know
But hit play
I'm stuck on repeat
Help me.....
~
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 9:04 AM UTC
That smile of his
Held the beauty of the world
It was ever so charming and undeniably sweet
Entrancing all those who lay eyes upon it
There was a time where I once imaged
I could even sell my soul if need be
Whenever I saw his precious smile
Then I came to see
The true colours behind that smile
Twas like a poisonous flower
Blooming and vibrant
Luring in its fragile prey
Bewitching it within its spell
Intoxicated by the nectar
Unable to ever leave
Upon revealing the truth
That lay so evidently to preying eyes
He had already long abandoned me
leaving nothing but a memory of what was
And a forever lingering taste of honey
A sweetness upon my tongue
Though it is best to end this longing
This yearning for that man
Who's smile warmed my heart
halting my breath but for a moment
As if encased within a time
When my entire world was composed of
Only him and that devious smile
Yet my mind refuses to forget....
.
Sep 27, 2018
Sep 27, 2018 at 10:32 PM UTC