They’re all out
Noone can hear
The quiet sobs
You left hanging in the air
The blood drips
Down your arm
You breathe deeply
Unable to stay calm
You cry quietly
Hoping for a day
That there are no lies
Where you have to say your okay
They’re all back
Now you're scared
That they will find
What you’ve feared
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 11:55 PM UTC
Without you gone
I can barely think
My brains go to mush
As I drain another drink
The days go by as a blur
As I stumble home every night
My family says I need to take it in
But I take on the words with a fight
I've been sober
For a day
I've taken your death in
Not knowing what to say
You left the world
Without a sound
Why didn't you ask for help
All the happiness you could've found
But without you here
I'm just lost
I would bring you back
No matter the cost
I am going to bring
Memory in your name
Make it a brave, strong one
Make sure that no-one puts your name in shame
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 6:39 PM UTC
What is love?
Accepting a rose but ignoring all the thorns
The thorns that cut deep inside you
That hurt you
But doesnt seem to care
What is love?
Shouting so loud your voice breaks
With tears streaming down your face
Where it feels like your heart is shattering
That if it has a slight tap it'll break
What is love?
Smiling so wide you fear your cheeks will rip
Looking at them with love oozing out your eyes
Wanting to be with them every second
Not wanting them to let them go
What is love?
Appreciating everything they do
Accepting their flaws
Loving them through the ugly times
Sticking to the them like glue
What is love?
Without a little hate
Without fighting
Without happiness
Without love.
Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 2:37 AM UTC
I regret it
I regret the scars on the top of my thighs
Just below my hips
I should of been stronger
I shouldn't have cared what they said
But I did
I was stupid
And I regret it now
All those words they said
Telling me to do things that no one should hear
My so called friends
Saying I should trust them
And me handing my trust over to them
Just for it to be shredded and used against me
And him
The 'perfect' boy
Who used me
Tore my heart
Ripped it out
Then jumped all over it
Its torture being in love
Because after all they all did to me
I still love them
But I should of just talked to someone
Then cut myself
Stupid
Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 1:40 AM UTC
Im sorry Mum
Im sorry I couldnt make you proud
Make you happy
Make you stay.
I tried
I tried my best to make you proud
I participated in everything
Always got good marks
I tried to make you happy
But you didnt care
You called me a mistake
Wish you never birthed me
Called me all these names
These scars on the top of my thighs
These are for you
To give me the pain you felt when you saw me
But I get it
Who would want me
Exactly
Noone
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 3:51 PM UTC
Harrys POV:
My tear stained cheeks
My sobs re being blocked from the pillow
Why did I let you go
Thats right
Because I was breaking you
You were a sweat girl
And I broke you
You did everything for me
I love you Alexis
I love you more than anything
More then I thought I could love
I dont know how I am going to stay away
I dont think I can
"Im sorry. Lexi. Let me love you in the way i can express. Im going to be a better man than before. I love you"
I made it worse
Why did i just send that text message
"I love you Harry. Please come back."
My heart skips a step
My tears keep falling
My tough act is down.
No one has seen me like this
A boy with tattoos and piercings
Crying
Noone but you Lexi
I love you
More than anything
I love you
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 12:59 AM UTC
Alexis POV:
My body is struggling to breath
I'm wearing your shirt
Remembering everything we had
All the laughs and all the fights
I would take all of that on again
Just to be with you
I miss you
I bet you have forgotten all about me Harry
I love you so much
I just wish you would feel the same about me
I thought you did
You said you did
And I was a fool to believe you
Our memories are flooding my eyes
I don't think you understand how much you meant to me
Mean*
You still mean everything to me
I love you
Please reply to me
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 6:55 PM UTC
My broken sobs
Are blocked out from the shower
The water running down my face
Like it has been for the past half hour
Am I that bad
Do you really hate me
That you think I cant be a friend
If you gave me a chance you would see
My breaths are stutters
I can barely inhale
I'm still in the shower
Crying about ** I am a miserable fail
You asked a question about me
"Whats so good about her?"
You'd think I wouldn't find out
I'm not hiding behind fur
You could just tell it to me
Not talk about me behind my back
Making me feel miserable
Waiting fr me to crack
Well congratulations
It is done
You've pushed me over the edge
Im reaching for the gun
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 9:57 PM UTC
Its coming nearer
I can only see it
No one notices
Not a single bit
My blade is sharper
More blood
Spreading everywhere
It will flood
My end is near
Time to end it all
Time to say goodbye
Time to let the blood pool
Its coming closer
I can feel it
The names are getting worse
Getting pushed in the grit
They have caused it
All the names
All the pushes
They think its all fun and games
The time is now
Im ready to go
Time to end the pain
So no one will know
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 11:40 PM UTC
When you knocked on my door
I quickly tried to hide myself
Even though its crying
I didn’t want to worry you even more
You asked if you could come in
I replied quietly ‘sure’
You sat at the corner of my bed
Telling me it’s okay
That you’re by my side
You looked at me
Your face all concerned
You wiped the drooling mascara
And helped me up
I started to speak
But the tears started to flow again
You pulled me into a hug
And held me tight
I walk to the bathroom
You right behind me
I saw your reflection
In the ***** mirror
Your face all worried
You asked me if you could do anything
I sheepishly replied no
I wiped the rest of mascara and tears away
With a piece of toilet paper
I turned to apologise
But it all came out mutated
And the tears started to fall
You pulled me tight
And told me it's okay
You laid my head in your shoulder
And helped me to the bed
You told me it wasn't my fault
It can happen sometimes
Miscarriages are normal
They can happen
Don’t let it hold you back
You held me in your arms
Until I started to fade into a light sleep
The whole night you were there
By my side
Protecting me
In the morning
You made me tea
And promised me
That we will try again
Later that year
I was 3 months pregnant
The doctor told me
I was going strong
Later that night
You held me tight
Told me not to worry
It will be alright
Your comfort
Your constant reassuring
Your special talks
Was all I needed
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 4:15 AM UTC