I want to rap it out
but I don't know where to start
it's just so hard
when
I talk about things from my heart
and I don't know how to say this to you
And be true to myself
But I'm not sure I'm ready
to just put it on a shelf
Cause things they keep coming
they keep attacking me
from every angle
up down left and right it's all on top of me
it's just so hard going through life
with all these memories
Sitting here thinking 'bout old friends
Promised we'd be there till the end
Up late trying to keep my composure
But all I want is a little bit of closure
It always comes at the worst times
I'll see something while standing in line
And the memories come rushing back
And there's nothing i can do
Nothing left now but to think about you
Bout the good times we used to have
All the crazy stuff we did and we'd laugh
All the plans we laid out together
Turns out none of it came true
but it eventually did get better
Man the parties we threw that was fun
And don't forget when we both bought our first gun
Loads of alcohol and bullets plus a suit or two
Life was pretty good hanging with you
Sitting here thinking 'bout old friends
Promised we'd be there till the end
Up late trying to keep my composure
I'm just trying to get a little bit of closure
You were my best man and i was yours
Life started getting busy and of course
It got harder to keep in touch
And get together
But we never lost that vibe we survived
Cause we promised i got your back forever
But then the worst happened
You took a nose dive with some bad people
Got hooked on drugs and alcohol
And they became your steeple
Started to lose touch and you turned your back on family
It's so ******* up but we been through worse haven't we?!
Today i don't know where you are
I don't know if you're fine
or if you're living in a car
A dead beat or just dead ashes in a jar
But Man i wish you would hear this
I still got your back you're not friendless
Sitting here dreaming 'bout old friends
Promised we'd be there till the end
Up late trying to keep my composure
I think I'm too late to have any closure
Mar 14, 2024
Mar 14, 2024 at 6:03 AM UTC
To what can I compare her to?
To what could I describe and ring true?
A kiss like the morning rain
Refreshing and life giving
A smile brighter than the sun
That enables all to continue living
Perhaps it's a voice that sings
Like the most glorious of birds
The beauty of it captures me
Resonates to my heart where it rings
Eyes like rubies, no sapphires!
They shine so bright
And fill me with desire
If only I had more than words
Only those given to mere mortals
To describe this angel so lovely
Who must have come to us
Through another worlds portal
Apr 29, 2023
Apr 29, 2023 at 5:47 AM UTC
As the rain gently falls
The birds continue to sing
I think of the grace I have
All thanks to a mighty king
The trickle of the gutter
A quiet sound but not a mutter
The beauty of it all calms me
Stops my heart from its flutter
Aug 13, 2022
Aug 13, 2022 at 6:47 AM UTC
As I walked the hills I heard the horns
The stamp of steeds and cry of a hound
I ran towards that iconic call
The hunt was on, I knew the sound
As I watched the fox run and hide
A magnificent creature sleek and fine
The thought intruded upon me
And created an image in my mind
What greater event could I encounter
Of the pursuit of love that I here had
The pursuit of something beautiful
called forth with trumpets and fanfare
Chased by all and caught by few
Tracked and then lost, joy and despair
The chase of the fox
Woman, seductive and coy
Pursued by gross beasts
Determined man and boy
For love like that fox is wily and sly
Catch only a glimpse before it flies by
Sleek and slender a thing of great worth
Pursued by all to bring home to the hearth
For love outside your possession has no value
Home it must reside to bring satisfaction to you
Jul 27, 2022
Jul 27, 2022 at 3:47 PM UTC
There's so much that I want to say
So much popping up in my feed and head today
But the fact is all that comes out now is
I'm so tired of this
You can't have an opinion unless you're white
You can't have an opinion unless you're black
You can't have, you can't think, you can't do
You're racist, you're not a Christian, you're not Jack
For You see,
I'm tired not for myself
But of all the negativity
I'm so tired of a culture that's bleeding
And we think tapping a keyboard is
Bringing about so much change
But it's not, it's leaving us needing
Needing change that isn't coming
Cause of us it's faltering
A constant uphill battle we've created
But to that end we keep running
We used to go out and help a man in desperate need
We used to give out to the hungry without filming it for our feed
We used to never know what happened on the other side of the globe
But now if we don't then we must be ignorant with a broken frontal lobe
We're called to address so many issues
But we don't take care of the ones that are
Right in front of us in our daily lives
You know the ones that you keep hid deep inside
We call out our fellow man and say I'm better
But the plank in our eyes keeps us from seeing that we have our own fetter.
I'm tired and worn
Maybe you are too
But what do we accomplish
By speaking what isn't true
I want to hear positivity
I want to know i made a difference
I met the need of someone
And created a smile where there was none
A lot have been struggling this year
No job, no money, stuck inside with fear
How about we ignore the social media
And focus on the neighbors that live next door
How about we focus on our communities first before we tackle more
How about we turn off the news
Go outside and make some instead
I'm just so tired and worn.
May 31, 2020
May 31, 2020 at 12:02 PM UTC
To Marissa whom I love
the woman of my life
my dearest and closest friend
The one about to be my wife
8 years ago in a co-op class
Twas the place that we first met
I loved you from that moment on
Though I didn't know it yet
End of the school year
And parted ways did we
Different directions for a time
The Lord did have us be
Lessons to learn
and morals to keep
Growing in spirit
Our faith in Christ growing deep
Many years later,
Under the fire work lit sky
I finally asked you out
And yes was your reply
I fell in love with
That sparkle in your eye
Deep and blue like the sea
And bright as the sky
I fell in love with your laugh
So joyful and carefree
A testament to God's love
That resides in you and me
I fell in love with you
The peace to my chaos
My calm and balance
Without you I'd be at a loss
I stand here now ready
My vows to pledge to you
Promises of faith and love
And of trials to weather through
I promise to love you
For the rest of my days
I just hope you'll put up with me
And all my crazy ways
I promise to be strong
A shelter ever steady
A place to rest and be at peace
I will always be ready
To hold you tight and close
If comfort is what you desire
Or to simply be a listening ear
When you need to vent your ire
I promise to express
Just how much I love you
Every day for the rest of our lives
Starting now by saying I do
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 6:45 AM UTC
We risk our lives everyday
every time that we clock in,
it's our way of life and what we do
its the way it's always been.
We wake at 3 am to bells ringing
and sirens blare,
we leap to our feet and go get dressed
to fight deep in Hells lair.
In the darkness we don our gear
Strap on helmet and boot,
as one these brothers all get up
go sliding down the chute.
We run to the truck now wide awake
and with ease we slide in,
we put on our headsets to hear each other all other noise becomes a low din.
We race to the scene where smoke is showing
no one knows who got out,
we put on our airpacks and our masks
to talk we must now shout.
With axe in hand we enter therein
the Devils home amidst the flame,
we quickly search for everyone
boy, girl, man and dame.
The air is hot we can feel it through
the clothe armor that we wear,
but on we search through the building
till we realize we're low on air.
Another crew goes in
In their hands the hose
To find the seat of the flames
It's advancement to oppose
We cut the roof we pull the ceiling
Our hands and feet lose all feeling
We find a child we cover them up
We rush back to the door
We bring them to safety and go back in
To check and search for more
For hours the cycle repeats
Till all is said and done
The fire is out, we've done our job
This time we won
No fire is left and all are safe
We put our tools and hose away
And go back to the station
Where hopefully we'll get to stay
Our gears been scrubbed
Time to rest our exhausted bodies
We wake at 8 am to bells ringing
and sirens blare,
we leap to our feet and go get dressed
to fight deep in Hells lair...
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 10:32 PM UTC
To the love of my life
The most beautiful woman
The one I want to make my wife
I hope you know this
I love you without end
And nothing could ever cause
that love to break or bend
You're as radiant as the sunshine
And your eyes shine like stars
You've captured my heart completely
Slapped on chains and put it behind bars
I can't express how proud
I am to be called yours
To be the one in your life
To hold your hand and open doors
You're beautiful
That's all I'm trying to say
And every time I think of you
I want to run away
To go somewhere far
And live with abandon
To the highest mountain top
And live in a cabin
To go somewhere
Where the world doesn't know
To love you fully
And where you never need to go
I love you Marissa
That's all I'm trying to say
And for you I'll do anything
Anytime, any day
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 8:47 AM UTC
Just want you to know
You're my closest lil friend
And when I'm around you
Nothing can offend
Our friendship means so much
But words are so small
Not enough there can be
To possibly describe it all
Your elegant and pretty
But that's just surface stuff
I'll skip all that if you don't mind
I'm sure you hear it enough
Your inner qualities
That's more important to me
So I hope you bear through
And I'll show you what I see
You're loving and caring
Ready to bend a listening ear
You're sweet as the south
You're a joy to be near
Your uplifting words
Like water to the soul
Your love for your friends
Burns hotter than coal
Love you to death
My little friend so dear
Should you ever need anything
I'll always be right here
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 12:15 PM UTC
Lord I come to you with my jar of tears, though I've lost count through the years
I know you have every one counted and numbered, every tear whether awake or while I slumbered
Lord I cry, this one thing I ask, and is it really too much a task?
To be unconditionally loved by one so dear, and to have someone to go through life and to be near
All I desire is to be a husband and a father, to love one woman and never another
To raise up my children in your holy word, even when to the world it's so absurd
Father, I cry, my heart does weep, please my desires allow me to keep
For I thought I was there many a time, but always was cast out feeling my worth less than a dime
My heart is so broken I don't know what to do, Father do you hear my words when I cry out to you?
Lord I wait on you... I know your timing is best, please grant me peace and give my heart some rest
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 6:05 PM UTC