we gone do it baby we will find our way we good we good sippen chamomile in the hood we're gonna be living good. Have to see the positives to create it. Now I know we have no reason to doubt.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 4:16 AM UTC
I think we need a drive with the windows down
Let me make you laugh can hardly stand to see you frown
I think we need a night lost in the music
Smoke one, smoke two, with you,
Mistake making, should be learning my lessons but im steady baking.
**** them **** them only investing time into people who do more than taking, thought about taking you, but anyways I wasent given my time for the wastin
so I always make sure to do what feels right,
I mean like I pay attention to everything
always watching to see if my dreams have meaning.
for you I really cared
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 10:02 PM UTC
I think we need a drive dazed with the windows down
Put you on that nana
Wanna get lost with you
Cant stop wanting to escape with you
Stay up real late with you
I think I'm in a trance.
If we tried I think we'd find cloud nine.
Take out a few hours with me.
I think we look for beauty in the simple things
Just one reason but you remind me of all I'm grateful for
should I say more?
Waves pulling us deeper and deeper into this ocean.
Think we might need a night where we can just be open
Guessing you told me a little, think I just got my toes in.
I think there's a lot more to you than what they all see at the moment.
Not used to them showing you they care but I'm too focused in
This connection speaking louder than words
You the only thing I wanna go towards
Think we need a night.
my oh my...
I think we need some time lost in the music.
Been lost in amusing.
Honestly nothing more that I wanna do
Smoke one, smoke two, with you
Who knew
I just have to get lost sometimes
But I'm just in my mind, I lose track of time,
Being alone dont bother me no more
so **** them **** them..
only putting into people who do more than taking
God said he didn't give me life for the wastin
so I always make sure to do what feels right,
so I'm high like I'm a kite
I listen, try to hear what the world is giving
watching to see if my dreams have meaning is nature intervening?
Feel like anything could be a lesson
Like its just me, just checking in
I kept putting in overtime, nah
Cant keep ******* with somebody who aint really there
For you I really cared.
I didnt want to, watch you but **** I was there too/to -
see when your intentions changed
Nothing moved me quicker I was on the way
Cause I've always got the best out for me
even when the only person there is me.
Kinda thought you knew Id do that.
But it didn't make you back track, or think twice
Which made me choose to not have you in my life
so I switched up
put my blessings up
It hurts a bit
But Im full of it
Is there anyway I can pull you in?
Don't like to be needy but I need you
so please just dont say a thing
Do you have time to waste with me?
Talk or roll a blunt, We can think it over, I mean what ever flows and
Dance or have drink both sounds so ******* nice to me
Take me deep down, tell me the things you haven't been telling nobody
Just want to give you the opportunity to open up,
I know you're probably holding a lot in too,
I'm used to getting used so
I promise you can get real used to
none of that with me.
**** me spiritually
Its 2AM aint got no where else to be.
like you next to me
baby
I like what your say, what youre saying
Keep talking to me
What do you need
Just want to crown you in roses
Wanna surround you with lovinn
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 9:44 PM UTC
I can't listen to there lies or I'll be empty,
stay cause I wanna give um time but I don't got time for negative energy.
I just wanna kick back were your thoughts at
Watch me help you relax.
watch me fix it up,
I like to play
I wonder if you'd like the way....
Should we get away away away
Sometimes my thoughts is all I hear
Remember when they showed they cared?
Remember when they was right there?
Now you've run off you've dissapeared
I had to get away ever since you went away
Its been been months since you've come out to stay, f day after day for you I praay. Did you lose your dreams? Was your tea too hot? Are you in there walking in the dark. I remember when I thought you was just off the hinges but now I guess I'll find my way without cha then. i
You threw me for a spin I wonder when I'll get back
baggage I'm tryin to unpack
Don't know why It takes so long for me to open up
but I cant help it
Glad that with you I feel safe
I hope you feel the same way.
Listen to God if ya lie to yourself, be yourself.
Were all a little lost its not as bad as they say
Its not as bad as they say.
I smoke and I smoke and I smoke
And I get so caught up in my life
I think too much I know
With you around seems like I can never hide
You see through it all.
Live with it, live with it.
Give and give if the world is taking but don't give in.
I've got a vision for how I wanna be.
Meditate, Meditate.
Its apart of me I don't think I have ever seen.
It don't matter if you cant see it cause I see it for me.
Constantly stuck in my mind, clothed and clothed with all your crime, toss and toss don't take whats mine,
I cant help these insecurities
constantly right in front of me
trying to get a hold of me
I may live in my dreams but I wont live in my fears
I will show you the strength
that you've never seen before through me.
I think a lot, I wonder whats up there.
I feel closer to God when I'm closer to my thoughts
He shows me what I'm not, then I go get it
I can see your demons from the side lines
Quiet but I can see it all.
Practicing an identity like practicing lines
I can see your reality you're so close to the edge
I close my eyes
you aint gotta play fetch with this life
you dont gotta be high as a kite to know whats fiyree
Five down I'm one year older now, nobody wanna talk about it. Three years older than them there up, I'm here times a crazy thing
Jul 12, 2016
Jul 12, 2016 at 5:40 PM UTC
Sit back,
Tell me what you've been needing.
You don't have to be patient boy you know I come with It.
Spending all this time rolling with ya
See I don't care what we're doing
We can do what you want, I'm not looking to the door.
Jul 12, 2016
Jul 12, 2016 at 4:57 PM UTC
I feel so alone.
...understood.
I feel friendless.
Who really checks on me though?
Who really just calls me to see "how I'm doing?"
Who really even cares enough to see if I'm surviving?
Anthony does all of those things, and hes one person.
I never ask him for the love that he gives me, but he gives it freely.
I know I will find a friend who loves me, and checks up on me, and truly just likes me for who I am.
but I sure feel lonely right now
at this moment.
Sep 13, 2015
Sep 13, 2015 at 3:45 AM UTC
I want people to know I came this way,
I am going to make something of myself some day.
and I'm fighting every 24 hours only against me, the person I was yesterday. Yet my failures everyday make improvement seem so far away.
But I'll make it happen, I have to.
I'll follow my dreams I wanna see.
Despite the fact that I am a high school drop out and failed multiple classes,
Despite the fact that I am prone to depression,
Despite the facts that some don't believe I can do it,
Despite the fact that I am diagnosed with A.D.D.
Despite the fact that I have an addictive past,
Despite the fact that I have a lower than minimal wage job,
Despite the fact that I have no college degree
Despite all this, I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL.
At the moment,
I'm learning the art of self-mastery.
If there's any flaw in me, let ME see, I wanna fix it, I know I am worth something, but I've got to find the master key.
I don't know what that requires, to find me...
Is it a bachelors degree?
An associates degree?
Well I don't know but I'll swim across the Mediterranean SEA just to feel FREE.
Yet I just took a test that says my scores say reading level "7th grade"
Right now my math is "5th grade"
.....I'm starting college this year, in January.
and right now my dreams seem only imaginary.
But I wont give up,
because my longing to FIGHT for the wounded girl in every young women is to strong.
I wanna tell them to keep going! and to NEVER GIVE UP.....
I wanna show them why suicide isn't the answer.
Why they are important, and valued, and tell them
"YOU HAVE GREATNESS WITHIN YOU."
I want to awaken the idea in them that each and every one of us was MEANT TO BE HERE AT THIS VERY TIME, this very decade because each of us has GIFTS that are MEANT TO BE developed to be KNOWN.
I want them to know that out of 400 MILLION ***** THEY were chosen to be here NOW.
THAT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO WHAT YOU WERE SENT HERE TO DO....
That it is not only necessary to be alive and motivated but it is necessary to work on our selves continually and our gifts.
I wanna save lives, because I tried to take mine, and only now i can see, years later why I am happy to still be here.
I will tap into my gifts, and I will be successful, I will save lives.
Sep 11, 2015
Sep 11, 2015 at 4:31 AM UTC
Lord, I am trying to find my way.
Where do you best see me fit in the real world?
Thinking about it this much makes me want to hurl.
I know I just have to find my way, it takes time, and you will lead me.
But sometimes I get anxious and i wish you could just reveal to me what to do..
I guess im impatient but God I ask you, teach me not to be.
Teach me to be like you.
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 4:04 AM UTC
God, listen to my voice.
Watch my mouth and the way i speak my words.
Feel my heart, the way I am true in what I am about to say.
I want to honor you Lord.
Tell me, what can I be for you?
What do you want me to do?
If I knew I would do it.
I want to spend eternity with you God.
Tell me how can I be worthy?
I want to touch lives in your name.
God help me hear you, help me see beauty in the little things.
I love you daddy, my real father.
I love you, I love you, I love you,
I give u praise.
Jul 15, 2015
Jul 15, 2015 at 3:58 AM UTC
I want to smile.
I want to feel normal.
I miss myself, the real me.
I hate that I have to be on medication just to be like everybody else can be.
Dear God HELP ME.
HELP ME!
I need relief...
I need YOUR pain killer.
I need YOUR stress reliever.
Help me.
God be with me today.
Wrap your arms around me today.
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 9:57 PM UTC