One
Two
Three
Blood exudes from the veins I've cut
I wonder how it got this way
From the pain of my heart being replaced by numbness
And the pain in my arm replaces any pain I had before
This spiral downwards that was caused by self deprication
Now it's turned into serious depression
Can anyone explain to me how it came to this?
And now I can't stop
Four
Five
Six
I've run out of room and I can't run from these problems anymore
I need to be loved by someone
Anyone
And maybe I could feel again
Feel something other than pain in my heart
Feel happiness and love
Then I might stop.
Jan 15, 2013
Jan 15, 2013 at 10:57 AM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
I sit in bed
My head flooded with images of you
You
With your curly brown hair and gorgeous, deep eyes
With your love of coffee and adoration for music
How you play the guitar
How you'd always make me laugh
And last but certainly not least
That smile
I have fallen hard for you and I fear I will not escape the never ending pit
Yet I am not good enough
Not for you
I'm imperfect compared to your cheeky smiles and sense of humor
I'm nothing
Yet you are everything to me
I find myself, soft tears slowly exuding
Because I realize that what I speak is truth,
At least to me
I'm imperfect and you will never love me
I fear...
Every doubt tears me up inside and it's hard to control self deprecation
It takes over me
And I fall into a deep sleep
Alone
Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC