What is this wall?
And where did it come from?
Why is blocking my brain and not letting my mouth speak?
I'll tear it down
I will destroy it
Then my mouth will tell you how you make me weak
Oh I see your wall is up too
I can see by the things you don't say
Every question I ask
And every question you ignore
Is another brick for your foundation
I can see your wall is actually a mask
I'll cover my face with a mask as well
I will let it hide every single smile that you accidentally evoke
This mask works wonders, can you tell?
I've been smiling since you've been here
Looking closer i think your mask might be broke.
You're mask isn’t hiding your eyes
Your eyes are all I need to see
Now i'm lost again staring at your face
It’s hypnotizing
I’m hypnotized
Oh wait you're mask just turned into space.
Giving space is easy I can do that with no problem
I'll take a thousand steps backwards
With all this space why isn't there anywhere to hide?
**** no barriers, I can still see you
Even as a shadow you're still beautiful
Your space is working perfect, your space is a million miles wide
I can see your shadowy silhouette
Your hair dancing around your body
I need my hands on you, I need to make this walk
I'll take a thousand steps closer
Close enough to touch
There isn't any more space but now there is this lock
Fine, here is my lock
I won't let you in if I can't
And nothing can be opened without a key
A key I guess you never had
A key you never asked for
maybe this is will be better for me?
Your lock is massive
Strong and durable
And there is gum in the keyhole
Why am I trying to break through, if you don't want me to
No more lock, just a wall with a peephole
A wall with a hole
What good is this for?
I guess it’s nice to be able to see you
Hopefully i'll be able to catch your eye sometime?
Can you feel me always watching?
I realize i need something new
Your peephole is always empty
There is never an eye looking back at me
Why would there be?
All these moments give me hope
Why does hope do this?
Why is hope is killing me?
I will cover this hole in my wall
I know i created this wall for me
This wall will keep my brain from letting my heart speak
I'll leave it up
I’ll cherish it
Then my mouth will never tell you how you make me weak
Jan 17, 2018
Jan 17, 2018 at 12:59 PM UTC
Not pleased with this degenerate that stares back at me
Morals twisted like the springs where he just laied
Where the ****** thoughts each night breed
It’s innocent and it's playful and nothing is real
Repeating the words like a feeble mantra
Disgusted with the way she makes him feel
When did the this transformation occur?
Being this compassionate guy with his heart on his sleeve
To becoming this typical man obsessed with her
Young and beautiful she is everything you're not
You know this and you don't mind this
Bringing life into my heart that you left to rot
This gray in my beard should be the reason to quit
It’s been a Finch's life since you let love die
Covering up depressing thoughts with humorless dry whit
Now this new Venus who doesn't even know her place
She's the star of the dreams against her will
She's the reason his ethics disappeared without a trace
Each morning getting lost in in the fantasies that reality misread
Subconsciously forgets your existence while we play make believe
Drinking imaginary coffee with this juvenile ghost in bed
Waking up gets harder for a man with no self respect
But having a reason to be up is so new and exciting
Planning each step and hoping our paths connect
Pure and innocent is she
Real and scary you are
Atrocious and broken is me
This needs to end i know
Creating fictitious worlds
Of something that should never be
Jan 14, 2018
Jan 14, 2018 at 4:21 PM UTC