Every now and then
harsh words are exchanged
between you and a friend.
Words so harsh and unforgivable
the friendship seems impossible to mend.
Every now and then
we break promises to our kids
with every intention of making it up to them
but the truth is
they won’t remember your intentions
only the times you didn’t spend.
Every now and then
we push our partners buttons
we get into arguments over nothing
then go to bed and fall asleep
too mad and stubborn to say “I Love You”.
Every now and then
we take Life for granted
we don’t appreciate today
because tomorrow is expected.
Every now and then
we forget Life has an end.
Until we are unexpectedly reminded
by the passing of a friend.
Now wishing you could say “I’m Sorry”
and help your friendship mend.
By the passing of a child
Now remembering all those broken promises
and all the time you didn’t spend.
By the passing of a spouse
Now wanting to tell them you love them
laying beside them in bed
But now you’re crying yourself to asleep
alone on the couch instead.
You can’t go back and say you’re sorry
You can’t get back the time you didn’t spend
You can’t tell them you love them
because LIFE IS SHORT
And NOW it’s too late...you should of did it THEN.
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 2:23 AM UTC
Bruised,
Broken
Angered
Hurt
These are a few of my many dark depressed,
suppressed
emotions I can't express.
Because I'm alone to tell no one so I keep them inside
So these emotions
become
Words
unspoken.
This is my life? For real!
I want to scream
I want to shout
cross my arms
poke my lips out
Stomp my feet
And pout!!
And after all that,
The dreadful emotions
The are very much
still there
They are the monkey on my back.
There has to be a way to let it all out,
A way to express how I feel.
A way To Release this hate
That's taken over me so strongly
Its surreal.
So I pick up a pen
Transfer my thoughts onto paper
My emotions to ink.
I couldn't write fast enough
I couldn't believe
For every emotion
I wrote,
With every write,
A release.
Relieved.
So I write.
I write.
I find peace.
And peace is me.
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 11:37 PM UTC
Whatever happened to a life with
morals
And being humble
Helping a stranger who’s in trouble
Uplifting a broken spirit
Instead just smirk and watch it crumble
What happened to trying a little
kindness
Putting the past behind us
Not judging by the mistakes of others
We all have demons behind closed curtains
For one thing is certain
Not one person is awarded perfect
Take a look in the mirror
You may be surprised at what you see
The stranger you walked past
Someone’s failed attempt that made you laugh
That broken heart you wouldn’t mend
May one day be your demons
And to you your only friend.
For Good will always trump evil
in the end.
©renea39
Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 12:33 PM UTC
He tells her it's over, he's leaving
he's done.
She wanted an explanation
but he didn't give her one.
So angry, shocked and confused
she sat there in that same spot
for hours, she couldn't move.
Finally she gets up to go lay in her bed
Surprising glad she was alone
She didn't feel like explaining what happened to anyone
Ignoring the constant rings from her phone
A short time later, a knock at the door
He changed his mind
He came back to tell her he wouldn't leave her anymore
But disappointment sets in
as her friends walk in
Even more tears now because it wasn't him
Her friends refused to see her upset they were taking her out
and not sit here and cry over this piece of ****
Renea you're alright you can do this
Just get yourself together
Life isn't always blue skies and sunshine
There's going to be stormy weather
Use your strength as a shield to keep away the pain
Just as an umbrella shields you from getting wet by the rain.
So, out they are
And of course at a bar
Soon she's regretting she even came
Until she heard the voice of an angel asking her name.
She turned to look and as she expected it wasn't who she wanted it to be
Just another strange guy at the bar that she didn't care to see.
But there was something different about him
Something genuine and sweet
She couldn't ignore him and be mean
My name is Renea.
Well hey Renea, my name is Chris.
So do you often come out to places like this?
Sometimes, but not often
I don't want to be here now but I got dumped today
So my friends brought me out
they said they were tired of seeing me frown.
“Well, you are here now
Let me buy you a drink .
No-don't give me that look it's not what you think.
I too,want to see you smile.
All I ask is to give me a chance with just one dance.”
Normally there wouldn't be a chance, a dance, not even a glance
But she couldn't walk away
She couldn't say no.
Could he make her smile?
No sure why but she needed to know
And wanted to find out before it was time to go.
She gave him one dance,
one dance after another
And for the rest of the night there was no one else there
Just the two of them dancing and smiling at each other.
The time had come the night was over.
As he walked her out SHE asked HIM if he wanted her number.
When she got home she laid by the phone
Hoping he would call and eventually he did and so it began
Everytime they'd meet
He swept her off her feet
His warm, long, tight hugs
His soft gentle touch
His meaningful, passionate kiss
She couldn't get enough
Though she'd never felt it before
She was certain she had fell in love.
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 12:43 AM UTC
Once again, you were over me.
Clenching my body and pushing you into me
Feeling all of you, making me breath heavily.
Thrusting every inch deeper and faster
until you get what you need.
Your relief in your release.
Then you were done with me.
With no feeling or emotion
You said goodbye with ease.
As I watched you leave,
I realized
Once again
You were over me.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 12:46 AM UTC
The smell of rain fills the air
The cool light breeze blows gently through her hair
As she looks across the wide open meadow
boasting endless rows of sunflowers
A perfect sea of yellow
She smiles just a little
Throws her head back
Facing the skies
Takes a deep breath
Closes her eyes
Slowly exhales
Releasing all the pain
The pain she’s suppressed deep down
The pain she remembers alone
For so long
Today is the day she chooses to be happy
All negative things gone
The rain pours down
Lightening starts crashing
The thunder making it’s sound
Dancing in the rain
Crying tears of relief
After all this time
She has what she needs
The wonderful feeling
Of freedom, clarity and peace.
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 11:25 PM UTC
Thoughts of us- consuming me
How we used to be
Realizing we will never be
Drowning in the memories- I can't breath
Suffocating
Holding on
He let go- a long time ago
Free falling
Out of control
Not my choice- heartbreaking
His mixed signals- aggravating
Frustrated
Tired of waiting
My heart-aching
Time- it's wasting
My life- it's taking.
Continuously pacing
to keep from facing
that he’s gone -
no trace.
End race.
Now
Hovering over this space
watching pain take loves
place.
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 1:02 AM UTC
Abandoned and bruised
Rejected yet accepted
But only by a few.
The "few" always hurt her
Before it began they wouldsay
"We show our love this way,
Now be a good little girl and just let your body lay."
She obeyed what they said
Closed her eyes
And wished she were dead.
Love was supposed to be good she thought,
It wasn't supposed to hurt.
She was so confused.
Just when she thought it was over
"No, Daddy! Not you too!?"
"Hush baby girl and don't tell a soul, don’t you speak a word.
You’re just a child, only to be seen
not heard.”
So she nodded her head
Never a word was said.
Every night...same thing...wishing she were dead.
Those hurtful nights were suppressed, never wanting to think of them again.
At last the time came,
She was no longer a child
And she left that dreadful place
With a smile on her face
It was finally over
Instead of wishing for death
HER life can now begin.
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 12:52 AM UTC
My eyes refuse sight
In the dark of the night
My lips are sealed tight
Waiting on the sun to shine bright
And at the first sign of light
I'll see if my doubts were right
My eyes don't stop staring
My ears trying to hear over the music thats blaring
My mind is wondering what's the use in caring
It not my feelings he's sparing
He don't care about me
or the pain that I'm bearing
He doesn't even look at me long enough to even know what I'm wearing
The sun rising I could finally see
What I feared was true
he was with her
So I'll leave and let it be
I'll go without a plea
With a broken heart
But a mind at ease.
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 12:02 AM UTC