i love how i felt w him, i loved how he kissed me and i loved his smile
i loved the way he would roll his eyes at me when i was messing around and the stupid little bed time stories he would tell me so i could fall asleep
his voice. my god his voice. and the way his body was because i felt comfortable w him.
i love his eyes and looking into them and i swear to god mine were brighter when with him. and i smiled a little bigger and laughed so hard.
i love the way he could make me laugh and made me feel comfortable.
comfortable to be myself and accept me for who i am .
but i hate that it was so easy to fall for him. i hate that it only took two months and that thats all our relationship lasted.
i hate that i was the one to mess it up. i hate that all it took was one time for me not to know how to help him when he needed me .
but most of all i hate that i love him.
Nov 18, 2016
Nov 18, 2016 at 1:03 AM UTC
i didnt even like you that way
i was only being nice
but then you went and made it into something
and i was trapped.. and i tried to leave but it felt wrong
so i gave you a chance but even that felt wrong
i knew i would hurt you but i was being selfish, taking you back for my own benefit
i knew it was fake but what did i care as long as i had someone there
we were two different people and i knew it would end
you had to be the one to do it this time
so i acted different and you saw
you say i dont care but i do
just needed a way to break you
i loved him, it was never going to be you
but he is gone and so i used you
but as the days went on i wanted him more..
im sorry for treating you the way i did
im sorry that it wasnt you
im sorry that it had to be that way
Apr 26, 2016
Apr 26, 2016 at 4:42 PM UTC
i was dancing with the devil
swirling round and round
then you kissed my lips
and my heart was yours.
and i started to fall for you.
deeper and deeper
you took my hand and said
"ill never let you go"
but it was all a lie because
you did let me go
and i didnt have a choice
but to accept your wishes
so i let you leave and
you took my heart
now im sitting here
with an empty chest..
you said i was too good for you
and that you are a bad boy
well Mr. Bad Boy,
you knew i fell for you
you didnt think
to even catch me
as i went down
i hit the ground .
now my whole body is shattered
Dec 26, 2015
Dec 26, 2015 at 8:03 PM UTC
But do you feel the way that i do?
Do you mean it when you say i love you?
Cuz X's and O's on a paper could be fake ,
and baby i hope i didn't make a mistake.
Dec 24, 2015
Dec 24, 2015 at 1:45 PM UTC
I fell for you
and you knew
a hard fall too
but then you left me
and it hurt for a while
until i met someone new
and now youre back ,
having me thinking
"what do i do ?"
Nov 20, 2015
Nov 20, 2015 at 11:27 PM UTC
pulling up , i couldnt breathe.
whenever he is around its like my body shuts down
and i dont know what to do..
i hugged him and suddenly remembered all the times i used to feel his arms around me wrapped to lovingly.
she was standing behind him . too close for my liking . but i still smiled like everything was okay
but im never okay
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 7:02 PM UTC
i had to stop trying bc i found my one, i just wasn't his.
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 6:53 PM UTC
I can still feel your sweet kisses on my lips,
I can see the lids of your eyes closed.
Such passion in your kisses,
As if you had waited years for my lips.
Your hand caressing my cheek,
Such sweet tenderness.
We laid down and indulged in the pleasure of our lips.
Then you pulled away,
Stared at me in a way.
That I had never been stared at before.
All while grabbing my hand and tenderly kissing it.
I miss it.
We were in perfect sync.
Our bodies moved and nothing was retained.
We needed each other.
My mouth grew hungry for your kisses,
You didn't stop either.
I have never felt such feelings when I kiss someone,
Your are the only one.
You make me feel like my body is elevated,
Traveling over me and looking at the beautiful scenery.
I long for you,
I've tried to feel how I feel with you .
But I can't my heart hurts when I try.
My heart belongs to you,
And it's been that way all along.
I was blind to not see where it belonged.
You hate me,
Despise me.
And I'm stuck with this feeling that kills my heart.
It makes me cry.
Why do you kiss me with such passion?
Is it payback?
Is it a lie?
No it isn't a lie,
You can't lie that connection we have,
Those looks you gave me,
It wasn't rehearsed .
Are you punishing me?
Don't punish me , I wouldn't hurt you.
Not again.
It's hard to believe but I really wouldn't.
I always thought of you,
I looked for you.
Now that I found you,
And had you.
You seem to let me go.
Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 2:19 AM UTC
if I told you that you have the looks of a Da Vinci painting
that your skin was soft as the canvas on which he was Raining his ideas
what would you do?
If I told you that your curvaceous body was vivid in its design
that being around me as you are, and not playing a role to try to please was just fine
if I wanted to tell the whole **** world you were mine... what would you do?
If I said that your hair sat like a little trophy
that every time I kiss your cheeks I love when they get all rosy
that your lips are soft and warming
like coffee early in the morning
what would you do?
if I said... that I'm falling hard for you
that I haven't like this in forever because it's true
that I've been hurt before
and I swear my heart just keeps on yearning for more...
what would you do?
Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 2:02 AM UTC
I may be broken
But im picking up the pieces
I may be weak
But my pain gives me the strength to go on
Like a bird with broken wings
I will soon fly away
From all this hurt
And live free
Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 1:57 AM UTC