I woke up this morning. But it wasn’t like normal. I was crying.
Tears had been rolling down my cheek and they wouldn’t stop.
I closed my eyes, flashes of my dreams flew past my mind.
I was alive. I felt feelings I hadn’t felt for years.
Happiness,
Security,
Laughter escaped through my lips,
The sun kissed my skin,
Tears filled my eyes.
I was in love. In love with myself and in love with the world.
I woke up crying
all because I had to wake up.
May 25, 2021
May 25, 2021 at 4:54 PM UTC
A dream is crap your head makes
when you're fast asleep.
In dreams, they will cut you open
and everything is scary as hell.
Have faith in your dreams and someday,
your heart will be ripped in two.
No matter what pills you're taking...
If you keep on existing
the dream that you wish comes true.
A dream is a thought your head makes,
Just to end it al...
You know you will never have it,
and no one will hear you fall.
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 9:50 AM UTC
Trust my words, please just believe.
I'm here for you, I swear I wont deceive
I love you more then your eyes can see
I'm always on your side Have faith in me,
I trust you, but you don't trust me.
Have a bit of faith in me, I will stay.
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 7:06 AM UTC
Deep breaths become chokes and gasps...
As the air seem to get thinner.
I had promised that I shall not fall today
for people to see.
But I had just realised...
That my eyes have already betrayed me.
So here I sit, out in the clear.
Out in the rain.
Face partially drenched from the spray.
Head turned away from passing umbrellas.
I thank god for the rain,
for even if they notice me.
They wouldn't be able to tell droplets from tears.
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 4:22 PM UTC
Once I was sad and lonely,
having nobody around to comfort me.
So I created a mask that always smiled,
just to hide my true feelings.
Once I had many friends;
with my mask, I was one of them.
Deep inside I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part.
Nobody could hear my cries for help,
for I designed my mask to hide those lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling,
for I hide my mask to keep on smiling.
Behind the smiles there were tears waiting
and behind all the comforts were the never ending fears.
While my tears where crying,
my feet kept walking.
My body was left behind,
to keep on hoping!
Day by day
I was slowly dying
I couldn’t go on,
I’m still searching
for the thing that’ll stop my crying,
for someone who’ll erase my fears
and for someone to wipe my tears.
But until then, I’ll keep on smiling
hiding behind the broken mask I’m wearing.
Hoping one day I can throw my mask away.
But until then, I’ll be here… Waiting.
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 4:07 PM UTC
When someone asks me,
"What is wrong?"
I simply reply with,
"I'm just tired."
And they agree;
they say to take a nap...
But you see,
this exhaustion,
it is not something simply
resolved by sleeping.
I cannot simply shut my eyes
and wake up okay.
I need a break from;
My brain,
My heart,
My Life.
I need to go away
for just a little while.
Or maybe even forever...
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 7:20 AM UTC
They told me
that to make her love me
I had to make her laugh.
But when she laughs
the one who falls in love is me
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
I love,
how you allow me to take pictures of you.
But do you know,
How hard it's to get something that beautiful
in such a normal frame
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 7:38 AM UTC
A mind filled with clear thoughts
Until the thick black fog came
And with the fog there came a depression,
And with the depression came the monsters
Monsters like:
Loneliness, insecurity, fear, tiredness, worthless
Pain, powerless, desire and many more.
While the fog cleared and the thoughts where getting clearer
I could count the many scars hidden in my mind
Big and small.
Thinking everything was finally fine.
No more pain, no more fogged up thoughts.
But while the fog had cleared away,
the monsters didn’t go.
Mostly they where gone, but some where still hiding
Waiting for my guard to drop down
To attack me in the middle of the night
or on the corner of the street
Just waiting for a moment of weakness
Waiting to attack and make my life hell again.
Mar 5, 2016
Mar 5, 2016 at 4:14 AM UTC
It was the last day of school,
everyone promised to stay in touch.
Then, life happened and friends
they became names in a contact list.
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 3:02 PM UTC