The Challenge (Day 21)
Words!
The reason I ended up in this ward.
Words!
The reason I threw away my self worth.
Words!
In whom I hope to find the strength to break free
Words!
The reason I must flee
Words!
In the beginning was the Word
When I was created I was made of God,
I was with God.
A ward of God until I lost my way
With my reckless abandon and the things I failed to do or say
I made a cocktail of truth laced with lies to top the mix
Believing my deceit was made up with just enough wit
With which I could make a deft bargain
With the devil, He said riches and wealth were mine to gain
I took the bargain.
Thinking I was smart enough to beat him at his game
Swift enough to cross the finish line without her burning gaze realizing I had switched lanes
I was rewarded with shame
The excruciating pain
Oh how this became the death of me!
Words!
Rit!
My word!
Not the writ of law
This Rit must be an exception to the writ of law
Words!
STOP! The word that might've saved me from this castle walls.
The ward I war to break free from
Oh! If only I had listened
Listen! Whenever I was asked to be Silent..
These anagrams!
Silent a cause, Listen the effect
I never knew cause the only thing my eyes fed off were the sights my eyes heard on Instagram.
I had taken enough hits
I was deemed unfit
But the comments all read "lit"
No one calls me dope anymore in this ward
You dare not say that Word in here, lest you end up in ropes
280 characters are one to many to say "I quit"
Words sentenced me to this ward
Words showed me no mercy
Words made me
By words, my death I'd meet
r3d
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Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 9:11 AM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 20)
Reject me
Despise me
Ridicule me
Dear foe
Compound my woes
I'm in the throes of a reckless abandon
Be merciless, be brutal, this slavery leads to freedom
Cast the first stone, lay the foundation
Let me feel the burning hate in your eyes melt the ice in my soul and start a fire inside
Tell me I won't amount to nothing, tell me I can never be easy on any eye
Say all the nasty things don't mince words, be precise
Hurt me, throw me out
I'd thrive on your rejection, let me strive alone
I need your rejection to be the cornerstone
r3d
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Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 10:06 AM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 19)
“RITJIMWA:
Something good/beautiful, joy has come to them!“
Something eccentric, something whose drama might be considered Oscar worthy, something unbelievably beautiful, something awesome, something amazing... for everyone reading this, you've got to be atleast one of this to someone, you've got to mean more than all these words to a couple of people.to say the least.
So next time someone tries to be condescending or silly, look them square in the face, and then smile and walk away with your head high knowing you're beautiful!
And you owe no one an explanation cause your smile has done enough already.
Remember, sometimes you'd forget but try to remember as often as you can that no one else in the world can offer the uniqueness you've got!
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Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 11:32 AM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 18)
What is it you stand to gain?
Playing with hearts like cards, is this a game?
This isn’t poker, this isn’t snooker, why you playing with these hearts as if you’re playing soccer?
This pain my heart can no longer nest
Can’t believe I was a pawn in this game of chess
How did I get caught up in this mess
Believing you were pure good nothing else
Alas you are evil with the “d” I would belittle your cruelty if I called you anything less
Who takes a breastfeeding child from its mother only to dump it in a slum with no one to cater to?
Who cuts open a stitched laceration only to watch it rot so a limb gets amputated.
When did love become so merciless and unkind?
When has God ever played games with His likeness, their minds?
Why say I do before a crowd of witnesses only to act like you don’t behind closed doors?
Why promise forever when life with you makes a visit from death better?
Why pretend you’re gentle a dove, when you’re a vulture, all claws?
Why wear a robe of integrity when the skin underneath is only known for breaking the law?
What’s the prize?
Why do all these hearts have to pay the price?
Are you ever going to end this cycle
Is this going to be an endless vicious circle?
r3d
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Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 4:51 PM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 17)
The villain was once a victim
The abuser once was the abused
The bully once was bullied
The hunter was once a prey
These are the ones who neither possessed the will power nor the required support to fight the negative effects of their experiences
These are the ones whose voices were drowned by the screams of stigma
These are the souls left to sail away in the rivers of anger and hate.
Who is to blame?
Society?
Environment?
Religion?
Tradition?
Ignorance?
How do we break this cycle?
How do we end this vicious circle?
The villian, the victim must all be helped.
No one should be left out, all deserve to be helped.
r3d
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Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 9:56 AM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 16)
I'm hungry! Famished! Starving and I don't wanna be satisfied.
I wanna always hunger for more
Yearn for more
Strive for more
Be more
Love some more
Forgive some more
Learn some more.
I hunger for more confidence
For prudence
For divine guidance
To lean on you alone.
I hunger to keep running after you
To bring to life that vision you gave to me
To inspire another
To try again
To breath again
To be great
And to in turn inspire another
I hunger to stand tall
To rise to higher heights after every fall
To look beyond the prison of my mind and to break down its walls
Walls of fear
Of pride, of anger, of hate
And to never get sated till this hunger becomes the death of me..
r3d
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Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:08 AM UTC
I've failed you once again
I really am that wild one that can't be tamed
It's not you this time, I'm to blame
The picture of my dreams are too humongous to fit your frame
Your excuses have long become lame
I've found a shelter, a hedge from your cruel reign
There will be a draught from your abuses that never cease to rain
Your insanity got me wondering if I ever was sane
You and I cease to be, nothing will ever be the same
This time I choose me, I have trained hard enough to beat you at your drain-game
I am the grand prize, I, will I claim
Never again with your toxic love will I remain
I'd aim to fail you again
This time with showers of love I'd pour on myself to burn out your toxic flames
I"d fail you once and for all, rather than fail myself
Never again!
What's there to lose when all i stand to do is gain?
I've picked me off of your shelf
This time I'm doing me, stop looking for flaws in everyone else
Find you again, do it for yourself
r3d
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Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 12:54 PM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 14)
Come on in
Or get the hell out!
Don't stand in the doorway like a ****** footmat
Say you will
Or say you won't Keep your "I just mights" to your self so we don't end up having a fight
Say good morning,good afternoon or goodnight
Say the truth, oh please say it right
Don't lie beneath canopies of lies saying its diplomacy
Your indecision is a decision in itself
It's amusing you don't even know what you're about
Please get out and don't forget to shut the door on your way out!!
r3d
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Nov 7, 2017
Nov 7, 2017 at 10:39 AM UTC
So I’ve been here wondering what have I gotten myself into?
Sigh, I’m gonna follow through till the last shot drops so I’m not even about to tap out before this is over.
Life is love and like love, it has its challenges, beautiful times, hurtful events, days when you just wanna give up on that spouse/partner/sibling/friend who seems to have repeatedly gotten on your 12 cranial nerves, hurt you on a regular even when ***** fails to realise this or says it’s totally unintentional. Some days the reverse is the case and you are the villain.
Life like love has its phases and some of these most shy away from without realising these are some of the most crucial experiences, these are the moments that shape our destinies, our purpose cause every decision at these focal points can alter a lot about your existence.
There are so many sensitive topics and challenges we face but are afraid to speak out for fear of stigmatisation and also because we would rather not have to deal with the heart wrenching feeling that justice might not be served.
Anger is deadly when it gets the best of you, especially when you lose all control to it.
Anger is mostly abusive if it isn’t channeled appropriately.
Abuse of any kind has an adverse effect on the general well being, growth and confidence of its victims as well as their outlook on life in a grotesque manner that most never get an opportunity to straighten.
Alcohol Addiction among other substances abused are steady on the rise.
These things give us a false grasp at desperate hope/lessness but once the effect of such substances wear thin like a boomerang we turn in to despair like a warm bed after a cold day of hard labour hence using these substances over and over again as a resolve whilst acting irrationally and blaming it on these substances/vices.
Though most times we use them as a subterfuge; unashamedly display behavioural patterns we are too cowardly to gather enough courage to exihibit without these things as happy triggers.
Due to the frequent or constant use of these substances in our system, we depend on their use to get by, but do we really get by, since we take these things till we get inebriated or high to the point that we become a hazard even to ourselves?
Most of the things are resultant effects of causes influenced by choices we make and the impact of such decisions truncate our progress or stagnate it, as the case may be.
If a loved one begins to manifest irrational behavioural patterns; an extrovert suddenly becomes recluse or an introvert suddenly loud and overbearing, please find a way to reach out to such a person to find the root cause of the problem & don’t be surprised if they are aggressive cause it’s a normal reaction with persons battling with some type emotional trauma or battling with any type of addiction.
It could be that someone you know who might have outta the blues started to act funny, irrationally or suddenly wouldn’t wanna do anything or be able to complete simple tasks, though such a one was a go getter before the appearance of these weird behavioural patterns.
Most times instead of reaching out we begin to spread word about how these persons have changed though when we meet with them we share hugs and smiles, some “fiends” distant themselves from such persons and never reach out to find out why the sudden change.
This is not what they need from us as this may push them further into their cocoon.
Hurt and confused persons are usually defensive, they are prone to spewing hateful/hurtful words.
These people need love the most though they seem undeserving of it.
Help a friend get help today.
We all need each other, we all need love, love needs us to show love today, send love and a prayer for clarity and peace someone’s way today.
Help the hurting to heal not to stray some more with the words you say or fail to say.
Love is a verb.
Show love don’t make a show outta love
Share some in whatever way necessary today.
Salaam!
r3d
6/11/17
17:03
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Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 1:15 PM UTC
The Challenge
(Day 12)
When you pour the liquid content of a 35cl soda into a 50cl bottle it will never fill it up
If you pour it into a 15cl bottle it will fill it up and overflow.
Same thing with when you pour your love, energies, vibes or share your space, sanctuary and essence with the wrong people.
You’d either end up being too much or never enough.
If this is the case with you please find a way to detach yourself from this person before the damage becomes irreparable.
No matter how much you give someone who doesn’t value you or holds you in contempt it will never be enough.
Save yourself before you start to second guess your worth and shatter your esteem.
The only way to help a toxic person is not to shield such a person but be firm and ensure the person seeks the help ***** needs.
This is a show of love.
Love will always want you to be the best and have the best you can get and not let you plunge into troubled waters while it watches you drown without lending a helping hand.
We cannot give what we don’t have which is why we must always check ourselves and be accountable for and to ourselves before daring to do same for others.
May the week ahead bring us all peace and fulfilment.
Salaam!
r3d
12:35
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Nov 5, 2017
Nov 5, 2017 at 7:03 AM UTC