See. It's that smile of yours.
******* smile.
It's all it takes for my shattered heart
To collide and rebuild it's self
Piece by piece
Painted red
Hot and Alive
You take me places
To lands of greatness
See, I ******* despise you,
You give me hope
That burns me
I begin to wonder and dream
I see,
The blindness fades as the curtains rise
I hide behind the sunlight
I look into the moonlight
My curls fall around my shoulders
As you quietly count the round spirals
It's unbelievable
What your eyes can do
You strip me
With your eyes
Quietly and slowly
Afraid of my reaction to your touch
You whisper the words I yearn to hear
As you stare into my eyes
At that moment
I feel
Connected
To you
I experience your heartache as I
Heal your wounds
I dance to your laughter
As you sing
Your vibrant tunes
I touch the inside of your heart as you touch the inside of mine
And at that moment, we are invincible
We create force
With emotion
So deep so strong
So beautiful
Your bushy eyebrows, your boyish smile
Drawing the most beautiful dimples
Chocolaty brown,
Your eyes are Chocolaty brown
I can study your face for hours and hours
I can write a thousand words
But, it'll never be enogh
I'm sure there'll be a thousand more to come
Apr 19, 2012
Apr 19, 2012 at 3:34 AM UTC
It stopped.
The heartfelt sobbing stopped.
But the pain,
It remained
The regret was raw
I feel you touching me
I feel the tips of your fingers drawing lines
Over my tear filled eyes
You babe,
Were my everything
The sun that burned me
the pain that armed me
the sadness that ruled me
the moon that doomed me
you babe, neglected me
while I worshipped
you
I accepted your harshness
'Cause it closed the distance
Between us
I accepted your demands
Well, at least I get to kiss your hands
I felt sick
Disgusted by my strong one sided emotions
Me, and me
Loving you and your
******* ego
Mar 18, 2012
Mar 18, 2012 at 4:10 PM UTC
I fall
And I think, I imagine, and I wonder
What life could be like, if you were my thunder
My lightning and the rain shower, after
You, caressing my sadness
Slowly washing all the madness away
I wonder as I stare at the sparkling stars, painted into the black sky
they are nothing,
compared to the sparkle in your eyes
the fire burns inside me
the need to see you
the need to read your face
I want to listen to your deep thoughts
Dive, into the center of your being
Burn till my fires light the universe
Feel you, touch your cheeks
I want to dance, to the rhythm
Of your heart
Be with you
That is all
I ever wished for
All I ever asked
For
All I ever wanted
Was
This
Mar 18, 2012
Mar 18, 2012 at 8:19 AM UTC
You place pressure over my soul who yearns for freedom
As you speak words of utter nonsense
As my heart beats systematically, slowly and bitterly
Actions, movements and consequences. All leading to the day you ripped my soul
Dragging it down with you, to your deepest lows of sins
I cry but no one listens
I see the sun shining up above the black lining
I see your devil eyes blinding as I bleed, finding a key
That opens the door to my happiness
The door you guarded for years and years
I run to the door
You pull me back
I beg for your pardon
If I didn't leave now I would never leave
I'd die here with the monstrous abductor of my innocence
cold hearted and furious
You throw me even deeper to your hard bitter valley of sins
I cry
But this is too much
The years don't comfort me
The shouts don't give me hope
So I sit still and I wait
For the day god takes me away
The day I have no worries or no pains
The day I rest under a bed of roses
The day my heart stops beating
Is it sad, that my only hope, the only thing I have on my mind, the string that holds me is death?
Mar 17, 2012
Mar 17, 2012 at 5:26 PM UTC
Too much. I can’t take this any longer. Too much. I need to leave.
Please help me.
Hearing your own mother tell you that she wants to take her own life away.
Depression.
Depression is contagious.
I can’t take this.
Throw me out.
Let me fly.
Let me strip my sadness away.
Let me breath the free air.
Let me dye my hair blue.
Let me pierce my belly.
Give me away
Unlock my soul
Let me live alone
Give me peace of mind
Give me my emotions back
Give me happiness
Give me my innocence
Give me my smile
Stop trying to help me, for you make everthing worse
I cry at night
Every time you try to explain yourself
Stop it
Stop it, please
Mar 17, 2012
Mar 17, 2012 at 11:24 AM UTC