I can't find the words to describe how I feel
I know I miss you dearly
And would love to see you again
We were never that close
But you showed me that family is everything
What life is all about
Making the most of the time you have together
And supporting the ones you love when you're secretly suffering
I remember the last time I saw you
We all knew it was the end
I can't bear to think about that day
I wish I could tell you all the amazing things I am doing
And for you to see me grow up and enjoy life
But I know you're watching over me
And I know I'll meet you again some day soon
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:37 PM UTC
I don't like
How those around us
Influence our behaviour
We change the words we use
How we act towards one another
And are just different
Why?
Why do we change for some people?
To please them or to keep them close by?
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:30 PM UTC
The love you give me
I cannot accept
I don't know how to love in return
I fear one day you will leave
That you will have had enough
Or that you meet someone new
The paranoia is winning
And I can't control it
Just leave, go on without me
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:11 PM UTC
I have had enough
I can't take much more
All the pain
And the voices in my head
Do I speak up and tell them how I really feel?
Or do I wear my mask
And wish I was dead?
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:08 PM UTC
I crave to feel something
No matter what it may be
Even if it hurts
To feel that would be better than not feeling anything at all
A small cut
One
Two
Three?
Another one won't hurt I tell myself
My legs covered in blood
I cry and scream
But at least I can feel something
Even if it is temporary
The pain passes
And the numbness returns
Until I give in to my urges once more
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:06 PM UTC
I don't even know how I feel
I don't know what I want
Or what I need
I am so numb
And crave to be alone
To cry myself to sleep
But here I am
I lay in your bed
Hoping to sleep and not wake up.
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 5:01 PM UTC
Through thick and thin
I'll be by your side
Through the ups and downs
I'll be there
You have my heart
No matter what
Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 11:02 AM UTC
Everywhere i go
Everywhere i turn
Which ever path i take
I am still lost
I don't know where home is
I feel empty
Like i don't belong
I don't fit in
Im lost in this world
Im lost inside my self
Jul 21, 2014
Jul 21, 2014 at 5:44 PM UTC
The spectrum of colour
So beautiful and full of life
Reds and purples
For danger and protection
Blues and greens
For the grass and seas
Yellows and orange
For the sun and summer
To me,
Its all a blur
I am dull as dull can be
I am filled with nothing
I am empty
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 4:22 PM UTC
Opening my eyes to the sun
beaming down across my covers
Its just another day
Turning over
I want to sleep forever
But I have to face the world
As I lay in bed alone at night
I stare to the ceiling and think
I become engulfed in emotion
and cry myself to sleep
After all,
Its just another day
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 4:14 PM UTC