Coming home never seemed like a bad idea.
After being away for about seven years, I thought maybe everything would be the same.
The people, my friends.
Was it such a crazy thought? To think everyone would the same people as they were in high school?
This aching feeling in my soul is starting to take over me. I get high.
To forget the feeling, for a couples minutes.
Then I'm back to where I started...
Growing up never seemed like a negative thing. It was supposed to be so exciting and thrilling. I now realize it's full of life ******* you over, repeatedly.
Walking back to the past, during present time. Almost like time traveling.
I need to get away, but I don't know where.
Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC
I breathe you in,
Inhaling all the pain,
Exhaling the peace.
Addicting, your taste, your high.
Your smell, as strong as air.
Higher, I fly to another world.
A world full of thoughtless thoughts
Nothing but peaceful happiness.
The trip down,
I fly higher
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 12:24 AM UTC
Today I heard a song,
Memories flushed back, like streaming water from a river.
One song....
That's all it took.
Now I find myself writing poems about you.
Words on a page that will never get to you.
Pointless. Pointless. Words.
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 2:05 AM UTC
Two years later I find myself missing you.
Five years together, Two years apart.
One heart,
A million feelings.
Wondering if you still think of me.
Of what we used to be,
Of what we used to have.
Because I find myself trapped.
Trapped in a feeling of love,
Feelings that will not go away.
Feelings that haunt me, like a spirit in the dark.
Does it have a meaning?
A meaning I have not yet understood?
Will you come back? Or are you gone forever?
Because I am trapped in your love and I can't let go.
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 1:33 AM UTC
Empty, I see memories walk by me as I ponder on the past.
Back lashing at the times when we had a blast.
Pretending we were family, brothers and sisters.
Doing reckless **** tearing everything apart like twisters.
Concluding we were all soul mates
Thinking meeting each other was fate.
Two years, that's how long it took for our souls to match
Yet a year for our souls to detach.
We look at each other now like a yearbook
A book full of memories
Yet characters who never really knew
Knew each other for who they truly were.
Misguided Souls.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 8:41 PM UTC
When the sun goes down, the night emerges
in a blink of an eye, everything changes.
Happy mornings, Lonely nights
how I wish I could go back.
To the day where it began.
When everything was fun and games.
When the nights lasted for hours
because we were under each others powers.
You kissed my cheek, but really it was my heart.
The touch of you felt complete.
It was the end yet a new start.
When I closed my eyes, my heart skipped a beat.
The saying, "You don't know what you have til' it's gone"
Is a saying I will forever depend on
because I now know what it means to feel alone.
Now you are gone
Like a cold winter night
Wanting to hold you tight in my arms
and tell you, I miss you
But you're gone
This I know.
Nothing will be the same
It's just a hollow feeling left inside.
All there is left to do is hope that life brings us back to each other,
to never fall out of love.
To always love each other
like the first night where it all started
& you held me
to never let me go.
Sep 16, 2013
Sep 16, 2013 at 4:00 AM UTC
A dark foggy night,
full of thoughts
full of beats
full of scents
The thoughts in your head
the beat of your heart
the scent of your body
Your body on me,
the heart beats faster
as I get weaker.
The weaker I get,
the better it feels.
My body tingles
from head to toe
like being shocked
my body locks
Locks like a treasure
A story to make
a lesson to be made
memories to create.
A foggy night,
full of love,
full of lust,
full of you.
Aug 1, 2013
Aug 1, 2013 at 12:41 AM UTC
Look in the mirror,
what do you see?
A beautiful face.
A beautiful smile.
Look in the mirror,
What do you see?
A beautiful soul.
A beautiful mind.
Look in the mirror,
Every minute, every hour, everyday.
Tell yourself,
I am a beautiful person.
I need no makeup,
no boy
Just me.
And see how your world changes from
negative to positive
from black to white
from dry to paradise.
Look in the mirror,
What do you see?
*A beautiful creature*
Aug 1, 2013
Aug 1, 2013 at 12:31 AM UTC
This is a poem.
A poem about nothing,
that speaks about everything.
It has no beginning,
yet there is an end.
No story line,
just a lesson learned.
Not a story about me,
but it talks about my life.
No letters,
no pages,
no rhythm,
no rhyme.
A story, a poem, a lesson.
& that's how life is.
Aug 1, 2013
Aug 1, 2013 at 12:25 AM UTC
I want to start this off by saying, the
famous saying.. "Everything happens for a reason."
Fifteen years old is a young age to start dating.
I can now tell, four years later, why my parents wanted me to wait to start dating.
Dating takes time, commitment, and consideration.
Being in a serious relationship for four years, living life as if it was a fairytale.
High School sweethearts, continuing life after high school into college, together.
It was a fairytale, I didn't not I was living.
In a matter of a year, life changes, it takes an intense turn, an illegal U-turn.
Nothing is the same. Everything is erased. Everything is taken away.
Not having the one person in my life that I thought I would marry, is sad.
Although it's sad, I cry tears of joy.
Because It is a lesson taught, a memory well learned, an unforgettable experience
that life offered me.
Yet, at the same time it feels as though I have lost someone very closed to me.
Like you passed away, yet you're standing in front of me.
Like I have never met you, yet I know your whole life.
Life, up to this point has opened up a new chapter.
Well, that's an understatement, more like a whole new book.
A book in a completely different genre.
The storm has passed, and I am not afraid of moving on.
New chapter, new apartment, new city, new friends, new people.
God, God is the reason that life happens.
He has written my story from beginning to end and i'm experiencing what is
suppose to happen,
step by step
day by day
month to month
Year to Year
Everything happens so that better things can happen.
Up to this point...
Life has taken an illegal U-turn.
A U-turn worth taking.
A U-turn that has only brought better things in life.
Everything happens for a reason
Jul 21, 2013
Jul 21, 2013 at 11:22 PM UTC