When i was 6 i wanted to be an artist
a paper and pencil used to keep me entertained for hours
my dad told me i couldn't
artists don't make a lot of money
he said
when i was 8 i wanted to be a musician
learning clarinet was the most fun i'd had in forever
my dad told me i couldn't
musicians don't make a lot of money
he said
by 11 i was learning
i wanted to be an actor or a singer
they make good money
and i was good at it
dad said no
they only make money if people like them
and we all know how i am in social scenes
so now at 13 i've decided
i'm gonna be an architect
i've never had much interest in architecture
but it makes money
and it'll make dad happy
he'll be proud of me
Oct 11, 2025
Oct 11, 2025 at 11:29 AM UTC
we're in the same boat, huh?
they treat us like queens for years
then a baby comes along and now we're need to be adults
we're not allowed to be mad
because they're just a baby
they don't know better
then it stays like that
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you really get me, don't you, Pearl?
Jul 28, 2025
Jul 28, 2025 at 2:54 AM UTC
i'm trying so hard
why can't you see that?
please stop
i've done my best
please
just be proud me
just love me like i am
Jul 28, 2025
Jul 28, 2025 at 2:48 AM UTC
what did i just say?
does she think im weird?
maybe i should stop talking
i'm too awkward
this is awkward
oh
she's laughing
i'm fine
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is she laughing at me?
Jul 26, 2025
Jul 26, 2025 at 9:27 PM UTC
when i say that im not pretty
i really mean it
i've never actually look in the mirror
and think i look pretty
my lips look too big
my eyes too small
my jaw too soft
my nose just not right
i don't mean to be that girl
i don't mean to fish for compliments
i just want someone to tell me im pretty
so i know what i think is just me
Jul 14, 2025
Jul 14, 2025 at 5:04 PM UTC
i love both my parents
but i prefer spending time with just my dad
he lets me do what i want
he very rarely says no
he does threaten to beat me for looking at him funny
but we can move past that
my mom says no to nearly everything
she criticizes and nitpicks everything i do
she makes me feel like im constantly in the wrong
it's like i have no freedom when she's around
shows my priorities, huh?
that i'd much rather be beaten then trapped
Jul 11, 2025
Jul 11, 2025 at 3:44 PM UTC
an•thro•po•pho•bia (n)
the fear of rejection
example: i have about 20 different personalities, none of them my real one, made for different people
i don't really know who i actually am anymore, but if someone were to not like me i might **** myself on the spot
cause: learned behavior
Jul 8, 2025
Jul 8, 2025 at 10:52 PM UTC
i'm the oldest daughter
that means getting love and validation from my family is transactional
my mother is proud of me
she thinks i'm an amazingly talented person
until my grades drop
now i'm sad
my father loves me
he calls me his twin
until i start acting my age
now im weird
my sister looks up to me
she wants to be just like me
until i try to be myself
now im embarrassing her
my other sister likes to be around me
i'm her best friend
until i stand up to her
now im a bully
i'm the oldest daughter
i'm the greatest person in the world
until i'm not
Jul 8, 2025
Jul 8, 2025 at 10:36 PM UTC
i've been clean for a month
because my box cutter is on the moving truck
i'm back in baltimore
but im not home
not really
everything's normal for two weeks
except it's not
i texted three friends to see if they wanted to hang out while i was back
only one responded
said she was going to be in connecticut
i wanna ask more people
but i dont wanna sound desperate
tell me i dont sound desperate
Jul 8, 2025
Jul 8, 2025 at 10:15 PM UTC
"i read something about a lesbian who had to leave because she didn't feel safe, so be careful"
she remembers!
"let me be your wingman, i'm gonna get you a girlfriend"
she remembers
"why don't you have a girlfriend yet?"
she remembers...
"we remembered you saying it, we just thought you were joking"
they... always remembered
Jun 12, 2025
Jun 12, 2025 at 2:11 PM UTC