after everything that happened
I still find myself running back to you
to find comfort for everything going bad in my life
I don't know what's it about you that makes me long and crave for you this much
I'm scared of telling you how i really feel about you,how much you make me whole, and keep me sane
But I can't help thinking
what if you lose interest again?
what if you stop loving me when i need you most?
what then?
I'll always carry you in my heart
I wish we could go back to how we were before, how you looked at me and always made sure i were okay
I love yo for everything you've taught me
and I hope one day you find your true love
one who won't be want to let go of you like i can't let go too
Aug 8, 2017
Aug 8, 2017 at 3:16 AM UTC
Maybe being hesitant to vulnerability ruined me
maybe keeping to myself makes it more easier
because only then I feel at ease with myself,
and maybe a little content
I used to want to do this to run away,
*** away from all the hurt
because the hurt was like poison
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 6:39 AM UTC
I still linger at the scent of you,
the smell that assured me of a better tomorrow
but that was then, and this is now.
Memories slowing fading,
and the need to keep check up on you is no longer
I'm sorry we were never good enough,
good enough to make you want us to be forever
But I can't help you be a better you
I wish you find your moment
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 6:31 AM UTC
I long for you to notice me,
but why should you?
I thought we had this figured out, but
life is too blur rn
you'd rather just pass me by
like you never longed to hold on to me
Jun 17, 2016
Jun 17, 2016 at 4:39 AM UTC
I was almost free, but you, you
denied me everything. I wish
it was easy to explain why I was never at
ease, maybe the bitterness had
gotten the better of me. I had
never imagined it would be this hard
we hope for for the best always, but
we lose a part of ourselves
while trying to make it,
and almost living
Jun 15, 2016
Jun 15, 2016 at 12:29 PM UTC
I thought I had everything I wanted,
actually I did had everything,
but everything was nothing.
I wanted to be just an average girl, but
my dreams were too much for me to be average, even I, myself felt too burden by everything happening around me.
everyone thinks you're having it easy
until you're one cigarette away from drying, only then do people
see you're human too.
Jun 15, 2016
Jun 15, 2016 at 12:25 PM UTC
I finally understood,
why I had always kept everything
to myself
it was for me, so the peace can be the only thing we breathe
life itself kills us, or maybe just me
the cut was too deep now
I just couldn't stand the pain
I was longing for life, but if life was pain,
then I didn't want this life
Jun 15, 2016
Jun 15, 2016 at 8:07 AM UTC
The pain lies deep within
is it all worth it?
I don't think so.
I don't think all the cuts will ever make me feel better
all these drops of blood make me want to surrender.
maybe it's time to succumb
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 10:42 AM UTC
I'm trying to save you.
why are you holding back?
what is it that you're scared of?
why have you stopped begging for life?
is this how it's going to be now?
are you about isolation now?
you give me life.
I can't lose you.
just not now.
give me your hand and let me help you.
you're my forever, forever.
don't put out the fire inside of us
I still flame for you
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 10:35 AM UTC
it's so dark in here
I can't even feel myself.
I'm waiting on thee, sunlight, to save me from being served a milkshake of melancholy.
what has become of my life?
I feel weak
the numbness is sinking in
I can't wait to run into the sunlight
because, only then would I be able to
- reconnect.
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 10:31 AM UTC